#mental health awareness
BPD POST #25
Developing a deep, extreme hatred for your #fp after them disappointing you which leads to disoriented feelings and dissociation
BPD POST #22
Dissociating in the middle of a social gathering and trying your best to bring yourself back to the surface
I see you. I love you. I’m so glad you’re here.
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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 1(800)-273-8255
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The Trevor Project for LGBTQ+ youth - 1(866)-488-7386
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For international assistance, suicidestop.com has a list of international hotlines for a variety of countries.
It’s hard heading into 2021 with hope when things look so bleak ~ but here’s how I’m trying ❤️
https://songsforthestressed.home.blog/2021/01/12/disco-jeans/
So it’s been a while since I wrote a blog post, but last week was Time To Talk Day~ a day that encourages opening up and talking to someone about your mental health! Most of you that know me know how important I believe this is and I wanted to do something to start the conversation ❤️ even though I think mental health conversation is more prominent in our every day lives, it doesn’t make it any easier to come out and talk about it ~ sometimes you won’t want to or sometimes you won’t even know what’s wrong. So this is my experience with talking about mental health, and I want you to know if you ever ever ever need anyone to listen to you, I’m here to listen ❤️
I’m sorry, but I need to let this out. I just really don’t understand how some people think you’re lying when you tell them about how traumatized you are about your past just because you seem “okay”.Can’t some of you understand that people like me need to pretend to be okay and build walls up so that we won’t get judged by those like you?
I’m a person who believes there should always be the right to have freedom of expression, even if sometimes is not comfortable to others, because the fact it’s not nice, doesn’t mean, that expression is looking to offend those who don’t like it. It’s only the venting of an idea or the wish to share something with others.
Since last year, after I fortuitously got to know about Susan Klebold and her journey after the crime her younger son perpetrated and his subsequent suicide. I not only developed an interest in her and what she has to say about such crime, her son and her fight to create consciousness around mental health issues, but I also felt able to look at this person in a new light, i started to see him as a human being, which took me to want to reproduce some of the photos Susan has shared of him through the years, because I wanted to represent that human, that child she raised.
However, for the first time in 20 years of having been learning to draw and have become an arts mayor, I’ve found a huge percentage of rejection and hostility towards this reproductions, people rush to conclude that my only interest is to glorify and enhance him, giving him attributes he didn’t had, pretending he didn’t do anything wrong or even believing I support or condone such atrocities.
By no means and in no moment, I’m pretending to promote these kind of ideas, but I think is sad and frustrating that those who only wish to make images or illustrations about these topics or any other that turns out to be polemic, whether is for a certain interest or just for the exercise of making any artwork, don’t have the right to share those without being attacked and referred to as deranged and sick persons who only wish to promote the actions of these persons or who only want to disrespect or disregard it’s victims and pretend they were right for acting as they did or deserve more attention than those who lost their life at their hands.
Art is a mean of expression, a way to share what we feel, what we live, what we think, what we fear, about things that makes us hurt, things we want, things we enjoy and, tho, sometimes those messages can be uncomfortable or hurtful, it’s also a right and a necessity for it to exist and generate such disconfort, this, with the objective of create a debate, generate consciousness and analysis, promote the search for learning and a better understanding of the topic it represents or sometimes just share a visual composition.
In my case, I’m not trying to take away the responsibility and concecuences of the actions this young man perpetrated, nor I pretend to force others to see him differently as what they perceive of him, I just wish I didn’t feel like I have to hide what I’ve been drawing, I wish people could see that I’m only making visual pieces about a topic that got me thinking and has helped me widen my views about some of the biggest issues of our time which is our mental health.
My personal belief is that demonizing this people is as harmful as glorifying them, I feel we should try to see them as humans, even and specially, if it is inconvenient and uncomfortable, because anyone of us could be them, anyone of us could reach their point, if we, as them, don’t get the chance to be helped, anyone of us could be as hateful and ruthless, anyone of us could get as lost as they got and pretending they were plain evil, it’s not only naive, but potentially dangerous, the last 20 years and the continuous occurrence of these kind of tragedies is sadly, the best proof we haven’t learned enough of it, we haven’t payed enough attention.
I won’t tell you not to cut.
That would be hypocritical
But if your going to cut, please take care of yourself afterwords
- Clean the wounds with warm water
- Rinse dried blood from the area
- Dry the wounds with paper towel, or a dry towel. Do not use a fluffy towel or tissues because fibers may get into the cut and cause scarring
- If you have any, put Aquafor or a thinhealing ointment on the wound or area-like what you would put on a healing tattoo
- If you can, wear shorts or a tank top to bed; let the wounds dry and breathe overnight.
- While it’s important to take care of yourself physically, it’s also important to take care of yourself emotionally
- If you were crying, please drink some water
- If you are feeling emotionally drained or numb, try to overcome it. Journal. Shower. Talk to a friend. Try not to let the numbness consume you
- If you’re angry, hit a pillow, scream at the top of your lungs, let it out
- If you’re feeling suicidal, PLEASE tell somebody, call or text a hotline, or distract yourself. Do what you need to, but PLEASE don’t act on your intrusive thoughts or impulses. You matter.
- Forgive yourself. Eventually you’ll heal- physically, emotionally, mentally. You can overcome this. You will recover.
I know it isn’t easy, but try to take care of yourself.
You are important.
Your life matters.
You are worthy of a full and long life.
You are worthy of recovery.
So much love for mentally ill people who “look mentally ill”. The ND people who wear oversized or dirty clothes, who have visible scars, with disorganized speech, who talk to themselves, who wear dirty clothes or don’t shower. You aren’t wrong for fitting a stereotype there’s nothing wrong with showing your symptoms and I wish you the best of luck in recovery
Mental Health is an everyday thing ♥️ [instagram]
After being asked a couple times about useful apps for the brains, I decided to round up a handful to share! Especially look at My 3!
Note: All these apps are FREE bc f*ck capitalism, although a lot of them have paid versions with more content. They’re all available on iPhones bc that’s all I have to test on so I’m not sure how many are Android-capable I’m sorry!
Mood Tracking/Diary
- Daylio
I use this one every day and I have for over 500 days (it counts). It lets me track my moods twice a day and pair it with different activities or conditions that I can customize. I can look back at the charts and see patterns in my moods, which has been really helpful.
- Spot On
This one is really good for people whose moods fluctuate with their hormones. I use this one to track that so I know when to expect changes. It also lets you track activities. And it’s created by Planned Parenthood!
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
- What’s Up
What’s Up has a lottttt of good info in it. It has basic tracking capabilities of positive and negative habits as well as a basic text diary you can keep. None of it is behind a paywall so you can access information on anxiety and depression as well as coping techniques for both. Don’t get confused like I did- you can swipe to access more pages. This app has a lot of reading tho, so be aware of your own preferences.
- CBT Thought Diary
CBT Thought Diary is a good one for fighting negative thoughts. You can record a variety of moods, gratitude journal, and use CBT skills to contradict your neg thoughts. You can’t really do much more than that, but not all apps need to have all the bells and whistles.
- Woebot
My sister uses this one. It’s got a cute little robot that talks to you daily to check in and teaches you CBT tools. It shows you cute little educational videos too. Your interaction can be as little as a check in, or you can seek guidance on specific issues you’re having. It requires a lil small talk but it’s good if you want a little more TLC than just reading a webpage.
Dialectical Behavior Therapy
- DBT Coach
A fair amount of DBT Coach is behind a paywall BUT I love the diary card function bc it looks good and it covers all the bases. It’s got mood, skills, activities, journal, urges, emotions, sleep, and a question about medication. You can even add photos to your journal! You have to explore the lessons and exercises to find those which are free but what’s there are p decent.
- DBT Travel Guide
DBT Travel Guide has basically all the DBT info for free (bless!). It’s got a diary card, a tab for your therapy or other agreements, techniques specifically tailored to certain crises, information on skills, AND audio exercises! This is definitely the most comprehensive DBT app I’ve found.
Eating Disorder Recovery
- Rise Up + Recover
Rise Up + Recover is an app for those with disordered eating created by the org Recovery Warriors. It’s an entirely free app that lets you log meals, work on body image, do other crisis and self-improvement exercises AND it lets you send that info to your therapist or whomever. It can link you to RW playlists, podcasts, and even help you find local treatment.
- Recovery Record
RR is an app I used during my first bout in recovery years ago that I liked bc it gave me lil rewards for logging my meals- like these puzzle pieces. It’s grown a lot since then and includes symptom tracking & questionnaires, the ability to ‘like’ the cute or inspirational images they reward you with so you can revisit, meditations, and a heart rate monitor for apple watches. Like Rise Up, you can share it all with your treatment team.
Crisis Intervention
- Calm Harm
There’s a great post going around with more info on Calm Harm but it’s a really cute and helpful app to use when you want to self-harm. It provides various activities in each category to do for either 5 or 15 minutes as you urge surf.
- ShinyThing
ShinyThing is much the same but offers you YouTube videos instead. You can even add your own faves to distract you next time. It tracks your urge level before and after each session.
- START
START stands for Stress Traumasymptoms Arousal Regulation Treatment. It focuses on activities you can do both during a crisis and in between to shore up your defenses.
- My 3
My 3 is an app that is ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY. As you can see, it links to the Lifeline, 911, and three contacts you can choose that you’d be comfortable calling in crisis. It also lets you create a safety plan full of the components shown in the pic.
Other
- Headspace
Headspace is a mindfulness app a former therapist recommended to me. Most of the activities are for the premium version BUT there are a few that aren’t and most of the sleep casts are free which is a nice sleep aid.
- Gratitude
This is a gratitude journal you can write nice things in to look back at the Good. It’s pretty widely accepted that keeping a gratitude journal can improve your mood. This one also lets you create affirmations that can be scheduled to pop up and remind you how great you are.
I hope some of these apps sound useful to y’all! I’m certainly going to be keeping a lot of the ones I downloaded to try out. The next battle is getting myself to actually use them when I need them lol.