#original poem
Finally
I didn’t chase what was walking away from me
I resisted the urge to beg and plead
I felt the pain
And accepted rejection
Time and tears gave birth to my resurrection
The answer to every question
Came in the stillness of disassociation
I am more than enough
And do not need male validation
To prove I am worthy to exist in this world
As a woman
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Down
Down
Down she goes
Into that endless black hole
No ladder
No hand of a friend
Nothing can make the darkness end
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Love has softened me and molded me like clay
I have hit rock bottom so many times
But now when I fall
I don’t break
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I’ve lived too little
To long for death
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Dreams of you
Circle around
Lifting my mind
High above ground
I’ll take another pill
Just let me sleep
I can’t love you here
Only in my dreams
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The way I found God
Is the same way I lost him
On my knees
Head down
Ready to bleed
Crying so hard
And grinding my teeth
Desperate to taste
The mercy and relief
That they promise you will have
If you only believe
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Her face split open from his fists
Her heart split open from his cruelty
Her mind split open from the inability to understand it all
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He is my culture
The language that I speak
The flavor I taste on my tongue
His love drips like honey
And I am the bee
Love is our song
We both sing the melody
He is dressed in my shadow
I am veiled in his light
He is my culture
My country
My life
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Obsidian heart
His sins have teeth
Sharp sleek blades that sink in deep
Death must be earned
Lust is lethal
No amount of good can change his evil
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The petals of the stars are in full bloom tonight
Pillow thoughts full of teeth hoping for a bite
Laying in the emptiness of navy light
His skin looks like gold next to mine
The words come out of my mouth as a sigh
I wish there was more than just sadness in my eyes
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Staring out the window
Dust floating in sunbeams
Its then that I realize
There is not one single impossibility
The air holds the dirt so delicately
It is so free inside the light
Maybe If I keep floating
I can make it through this life
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When you were gone
My eyes were dry
But my heart would weep
Being apart was a violent grief
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I was searching
For the perfect one
But his imperfections
Were what made me fall in love
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In the end
We had very little love left
Not even a whisper
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I guess there is absolutely nothing more to say
Except, I wish we had more time together
I wish we had all of time
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All Of The Color Blue
You are made up of star dust
And all of the color blue
You bring me to a place I’ve never been before
Like the sparkle in your eyes
and the yellow in your hair
You light the way in the dark
Your voice quenches my thirst
and plants a garden down my throat
I have craved your touch for a thousand years
but now I can feel the spark ignite between our skin
I have never kissed sweeter lips than yours
they taste like honeysuckle and promises
just the way your words taste
they warm my insides
including my bones
Your hands wrap around my body like it’s always the first time
but never a stranger
Your tongue baptized me the first time I ever felt you on my skin
I have never been home before
until now
Nicotine
You are my second father,
A father who I could relate with
A father who shared the same weakness
The one that I share my despondency with.
You are my second father,
The one who enlightens.
A father who I used to watch
Whenever he lights up a cigarette.
You are my second father,
The one that I used to be closed with.
The one that taught me ways to cope
The one that taught me not to smoke.
But now that I’m older,
You had started building walls.
Our conversations had reached to its end,
As you started flaming your nicotine.
I don’t have much to say now
But just like you, you know that I’m here too.
You might not be able to hear me right now
But please don’t leave me too.
Requiem
I feel like coming home
Like a faceless facade.
I can make it seem like everything’s okay,
Like a kindergarten, smiling in extreme optimism.
I guess I’m starting to learn the ways of one’s camouflage,
Like a wolf inside a sheep’s garment.
Maybe it’s time to lay down;
To let them mourn in my wicked requiem.
But it still left me wondering.
Will they still love me after this?
Will they remember?
- DaisyInNeptune, 2021
My dear, my love━ I was never romantic;
Nor was I the person that’ll give you roses.
The first phrase might sound a bit dramatic;
But dear, thou art the reason my heart never close;
My love for you has nothing to compare with the words I wrote,
For you are aware that all of this were ne'er fiction.
Your words are the ones I quote;
Thou art the love of my life, wherever my life was position.
My dear, my love ━I guess I was romantic;
No matter the distance, the world is for us to conquer.
For you to be on arms would be ecstatic;
And to have and love you was the greatest honor.
There’s was never a day that I stopped thinking about thee,
And my love for you is the world to see.
I was hurting…
I was hurting, when you told me to snap out of it.
I was hurting, when you told me to fix myself.
I was hurting, when you told me that I’m selfish.
I was hurting, when you told me that I’m being dramatic
I was hurting, when you told me that it happens to everyone. As if mine is something that Shouldn’t matter.
I was hurting, when you refuse to listen
I was hurting, when you told me you’ll hurt me
I was hurting, when you told me that you didn’t care anymore
I was hurting , when you told me to stop crying
I was hurting, until you decide to listen to me. But then I lost my words when you told me that it was all my fault
As if I wanted it…
-@daisyinneptune2021