#pocthinspo

I’m not doing good with eating, or rather with not eating, and I hate myself for it just oh so much. I just wanna be skinny and attractive is that too much to ask???????

I was right, I gained, I’m 116.2

TW - Body Check, Weight & Calorie Rant

I’m getting a bit paranoid at the idea that I somehow gained cause I cant really see my ribs like I did a couple days ago n like Sunday I had a bad eating day (over 600 I’m certain) n since then havent been able to weigh n ik if I’m above or below 121 based on how much my ribs show when I suck in n I cant see them too well I dont think but also I’ve seen minor changes in where I lose weight ever since I’ve been losing n gaining the same 15-17 pounds over 4 years n I dont know what to think!!

Weighed myself again, its says I’m 116.2

Not sure if it true, but I weighed all round the kitchen n it said the same each time sooo…we’ll see ;)

I think my parents are onto me again, idk. The vibe of the house is strange, particularly my mom

My semi-inactivity is due to the fact that I am currently planning my YouTube Channel :)

And I’m a fat b/tch so y'know

Btw I’ve finally figured out that my desired fashion style is Alternative so I’m happy to finally figure that out

This formatting looks kinda wonky, but it gets the point across‍♀️I wanna weigh cause Im paranoid but I cant cause parents are home.