Here’sLunairsboard - another oc of mine :p I’ll get back into video game boards soon - its my namesake, after all. These oc boards are just to ease me back in :)
Let me know if this is crossing the line because I WILL take it down if anyone feels it necessary
OkNOW I’m at 115lbsfinally
Through rigorous and exhausting exercise and countless sleepless night and 4 years of this bullshit I roughly have the body shape I want
Now I just need to proportionally lose 15-20 more pounds. Thinking rationally I know that wont happen perfectly so maybe another 4 years of this bullshit will finally get me where I want to be :,)
I’ve lost 4 kg (8.8 lb) in the last weeks, however, I have some reflux problems (yes, ana worsened the situation in my esophagus), so I’m taking medication and trying to eat a healthier diet.
It’s nothing serious, I just take anti-reflux medication.
I have been denying recovery and cheating for some time to continue losing weight despite my recovery treatment, but I’ve made it a point to take it seriously as a goal for this year.
The advice comes here:
Journeys have ups and downs, if it is necessary to break some rules to be better with your health, do it. You deserve to eat. I know that recovery is not easy and remember that no one should force you to do it because it won’t work until you do it out of conviction.
*alleviates your anxiety by replacing it with new, less relevant anxiety”
*distracts you from the state of the world by giving you a phobia of blue whales*
Gaud its just a whale. Have you ever met a blue whale? It won’t hurt you.
listen fucker, whale songs can be twice as loud as a fucking jet engine, more than loud enough to burst eardrums, paralyze limbs and cause organ damage at close range. sperm whales, the loudest animal on the planet, could literally vibrate a human body to death. the sheer fact they don’t is either ignorance, choice, or lack of opportunity–notinability. as for blue whales (aka the biggest creature to exist ever despite the fact that megafauna roamed the earth for tens of millions of years before these fucks came around), well a blue whale’s corpse is capable of literally exploding from gas buildup. and that’s not even getting into my extreme visceral discomfortsurroundingwhale falls aka the process of a whale carcass falling abyssal depths of thousands and thousands of feet, just falling through the fucking water to the ocean floor and creating a complex localized ecosystem capable of sustaining who-knows-what kind of deep-sea terrors fordecades, so kindly get fucked.
Ok but you gotta admit that’s it’s nice how they become a life bringer to so many creatures once their time ends. They sustain the ocean. Givin back to what gave them their life.
they sustain fucking zombie worms is what they fucking sustain. also called bone-eating worms, these fuckers literally evolved to consume the bones of fucking plesiosaurscirca 100 million years ago. nowadays they make due with whale skeletons.
these zombie fucks have scavenged so many skeletal remains over the years that it’s hard to find fossils of all the freaky ocean leviathans that used to swarm around down there. yes, that’s right, they’ve eaten so many fucking skeletons that they’ve drastically altered the fossil record. who fucking does that? you ever hear of anyone breaking into the Museum Of Natural History and merrily munching, contentedly crunching, cheerfully chewing away on the goddamn dinosaur exhibits?
no. no you don’t, bc that would be fucking rude.
and these wriggling little nitwits might have finally died out if whales hadn’t come along to act as an damnable ocean buffet-on-wheels flippers. motherfucker we were so close. i have so many feelings about zombie worms i need to lie down
Okay but who can tell me that a dim, often dark, world, made of soft silt and dust that is fed by the falling corpses of floating behemoths isn’t the coolest idea you’ve heard of for a fantasy novel?
