#sapphic mood

im curious about what made you you. im curious about your taste in music. im curious about the way your mind thinks. im curious about how your body likes to be touched. im curious about your late night thoughts and how they make you feel. im curious about every single thing about you.

i wonder why i have to look away when you glance at me. i wonder why i have to pretend to be unbothered when we accidentally touch. i wonder why i have to act like i dont care about you even when you’re the only person i want to protect forever.

i thought love doesnt have to be complicated?

thank you for giving me the privilege to love you and i really hope i was worth your time.

i know i should not have fallen in love with you. we will never be together and that your heart belongs to someone else.

but what am i suppose to do when words are stuck in the back of my throat every time you smile at me? what am i suppose to do when my breathing stops whenever you lean in close to me? what am i suppose to do when i feel lightheaded every time you say my name?

and the worst part is that you dont even like girls. you hold so much power over me without even knowing it.

i wonder if you still smile unconsciously when you think of me.

or am i a fool for still holding on?

i have never felt interested in other people’s stories or backgrounds until i met you. i swear i can listen to you talk for hours and i’d still ask you to repeat yourself because i just like the way you talk. your voice is like melody to my ears, better than my favourite song.

its okay if you forget about me. its okay if you cant remember what i look like or what my voice sounds like. its okay to delete all the memories you have of me. but please dont ever forget how i made you feel. dont forget about how happy you were with me and how you learnt to love yourself. dont forget how beautiful you felt that morning all because i couldnt stop staring at you.

its okay to forget about me but dont ever forget what being loved feels like.