#ana meme

Day 1:

Cw: 78kg

Me crying in the grocery store bc I saw all the food I knew I can’t eat. Bc I know I will fast a unhealthy time and puke everything out I eat. Just chasing a body goal I will never reach but it’s the only way I don’t hate myself. Knowing I will cry in the shower still wearing a big sweater bc I can’t see myself.

My dad wondering why I cry while starring at some mac and cheese

Why has everything calories

Why is food such a bitch and has calories

I feel so fat right now

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It’s the n word pass but like for sucide jokes for me

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Omg why has alcohol so many calories

I just found out that 1 bottle vodka has 1600cal I hate it here

I’m the only one who didn’t reached his October goal. It suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks so much ☹️☹️☹️Like ugh.

But anyways it’s ✨spooky✨ season❤️⛓

Me: drinks one energy at 11am

My family: OMGGG HOW CAN YOU DRINK THAT AT 11am ENERGYS MAKE YOU FAT

Me who hasn’t eaten sth in two days and slept like 10 minutes

Me: I’m recovering, I’m healthy, I’m eating chips like a normal person

Also me the second I stopped and realised what I just ate:

I were sick 2 weeks ago and had to eat normal and now I’m in a kind of recovery bc I had to do hard physical work. And wow ok I hate how I look but it’s winter so I can hide in layers of clothes BUUT it’s sooo nice to eat like yea there is still this little voice which says I’m ugly but I just love to eat. And I can do stuff I have energy and I LOVE it. Also I was about to loose hair and I don’t want to lose it so yea.

In englisch class we have obesity and healthy eating at the moment and also had to write about if we have a healthy lifestyle, what we eat and soever

Me with my triggered ed:

Ok write like someone without a ed!!

Mhh yea I eat eat like food and calories yess I eat sooo many calories

Also me then fasting for the nex 2 days