attackingthisanxiety:

queen-of-carbs:

JUST BECAUSE SOMETHING IS HIGH IN CALORIES DOESN’T MEAN THAT IT’S UNHEALTHY AND JUST BECAUSE SOMETHING IS LOW IN CALORIES DOESN’T MEAN THAT IT’S HEALTHY

Even though I’m ‘recovered’, this still hits me hard.

my monday so far has been really good!!

i lost 2kg since last week and i found an even more lowcal yoghurt option

recipe time!!

it’s my fav sweet safe food rn, it’s under 300cal and super filling!✨

you need:

150g no fat greek yoghurt (84cal)

10g of your preferred protein powder (41cal)

15g oats (54cal)

3g chia seeds (15cal)

50g of your fav fruit (30-50cal depending)

(optional): 10g granola or crunchy cereal (about 44cal)

i used raspberries and vanilla protein powder :)

1. mix the yoghurt and the protein powder so the two are combined well

2. cook the oats, chia seeds and the fruit with water together until the oats and chia seeds seem done

3. pour over the protein yoghurt and mix well

4. (optional) add granola as a topping

enjoy, i hope you like it :)

struggling rn bc i underate today and i kind of wanted to recover but i’m also feeling so proud and don’t feel the need to eat so ed voice wins

also tw weight, but i somehow lost 1kg since this morning like whut?

anyone ever feel like a “bad” bulimic too? like why tf am i feeling guilty about that?!?

If your mental state was a song,

what song would it be?

This Is Super Fuqed Up

This whole post is literally just a pity party, I’m so sorry

But I’m working as an assistant to this athletics club for teens and kids (ikr? GREAT place for an ED sufferer to work), and I usually do that during the summers. And I’m fairly familiar with all the kids. Anyway. What’s really fucked up, is how upset I am/was about the lack of comments I got on my weight loss? (And whats fucked up is, why do I feel this way? That is SO toxic! Like I feel awful that I’m disappointed about not getting the attention I wanted. And I’m literally so sorry for that) I’ve literally hit my LOWEST WEIGHT EVER and was kind of expecting more people to comment on it… only one parent did, which made me really happy cuz she’s always been so sweet to me “oh my gosh look at you lost weight! Look at me, I lost weight too yes?” She’s ADORABLE I love her so much. But idk. I guess just the lack of attention just made me feel like I haven’t lost ENOUGH weight. Like I’m not THIN enough. Like I don’t look SICK enough.. which i know it’s so awful for me to think that way, I KNOW it’s awful to think that way, and I know it’s not valid in any sense just.. I can’t HELP it and I feel guilty about that.

And then on top of that. Another girl lost like a TON of weight, and I can tell I weigh less than her still, and the sick part of my mind is super happy about that, but, I felt overshadowed? Like. Not good enough? Like I didn’t make the impact I wanted. And that all just topped off the absolute verbal slashing that my mom gave me just before I headed out the door to head to the athletics place. Like, guys she went OFF on me, saying how I “just make everything so much harder just by being here” because I turned her fan back on for her after I was done vacuuming?????? Ummm??? Ok ‍♀️

This day just… It wasn’t what I thought it would be, even though I didn’t even realize I had expectations for it. I was ultimately going to be let down either way though, you know? because. What was I expecting? Who’s gunna just walk right up and tell me I lost so much weight, you know? I couldn’t expect people to go and do that. And.. idk, who knows… maybe I haven’t lost as much weight as I think. Like, maybe you can’t SEE it as much as I hope.

I will say though, I really appreciate the manager for realizing the anxiety my mother was giving me when she kept hovering over me while he was trying to have a private conversation with me at one point, and took it upon himself to tell my mom to go back inside. It was small but that really meant so much to me. And he also ASKED me if I felt comfortable with taking on a few extra responsibilities, where as my mother just TOLD me I was going to. It really, really meant a lot to me.

Whyyy Do I Do This

Person: Are you ok? Like, I know you like to lose weight n stuff but your cheek bones are becoming really prominent again

Me: Yes~ I’m fine, it’s just the way the suns hitting at this angle, trust me, I’m fine.

Person: Ohhh alright

Also me, lower weight than ever:

Daily log -11/07/21

Breakfast:45 grams of low fat cheese

Lunch: 1 pot (0.5 oz) blueberry yoghurt

Dinner: fasting (16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: Walking, around 11,530 steps

Total cal:207

Burned:600

Daily log -10/07/21

Breakfast: 40 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch:skipped

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 6 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,006 steps)

Total calories:127

Burned:535

Daily log -09/07/21

Breakfast: 80 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch: grilled flounder fillet

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 5 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,062 steps)

Total cal:380

Burned:523

Daily log -08/07/21

Breakfast: 8 thin slices of pastrami

Lunch: 1 cup of watermelon

Dinner: 70 blackberries

Snack: 1 beer

Water track: 4 glasses

Exercise: around 10,600 steps

Total cal:506

Burned:558

not sure if this will help anyone, but a small little trick that i use to help me go to sleep faster when i’m hungry: i drink so much water til the point that my stomach hurts and then i fall asleep faster cause u sleep faster on a full stomach.

idrk is that made any sense but ya

Dzień 15 waga: 79,7

Zjedzone: ok 580 kcal/600

spalone: nie wiem ile ale wiem ze trochę spaliłem

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- kawełek ciasta które upiekłom - ok100?

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