#ana tw

I have been attempting to lose weight since August 31st when I started at 190 lbs.

I was doing good at first and even got down to 180 lbs towards the middle of September, but lately things have hit the fan.

I’ve been sick, I’ve had to deal with my problematic family (extended family), and this past week I’ve been binging like it’s no ones business.

I feel like such a failure.

I have still been going to the gym this whole time (minus the two weeks I was sick) and now I’m back at 188 lbs :((. I was hoping to lose at least 20 pounds before a wedding I’m attending Oct 23 but I don’t think that’ll happen :((. I will still try and post results!!

It’s pretty interesting seeing the progression of your eating disorder, and how it fucks you up more and more. The first time I watched To The Bone and there was that scene with Ellen undressed getting weighed, I was like “she looks kinda awful, I’d never want to be that thin”

But now when I rewatch it, it’s just beauty. Perfection

When you say you don’t want anything but your friend WON’T TAKE THAT ANSWER FUCK YOU

Hey luvs just a reminder if anyone is discouraged; there is literally no reason you won’t get there if you stay consistent. That doesn’t mean fasting for the next 3 months, that just means taking it one day at a time. Even if you’re doing high res

Today’s omad plus the lineup so far

Ik the shake is on the higher cal side, especially for drinks. Ive always said not to drink your calories, but I prefer that than partaking in the consumption of solid foods unless I have to. Vomit </3

Idk if anyone will see this I’m never active anymore lol BUT ANYWAYS I think instead of just perpetually fasting I’m gonna start doing some kinda small omad so I can take my vitamins and not die. Also bc last week I threw up (involuntarily) before class and almost had to miss from fasting so neg :( here’s today’s! Mini cucumber :D

Starv1ng is so easy when you are at college all day then have the entire night worth of hw

Love my bf more than life but I can’t wait for school to start so he’s not here ALL THE TIME, I just wanna get out of this fucking plateau

YALL I MADE AN ANA TIKTOK AND THE FIRST VIDEO WENT SOMEWHAT VIRAL!!