#just ed thoughts
So, I’m almost 48 hours into a fast and I’ve literally lost a pound in a day!!!! I haven’t felt this euphoric in forever!!! Manifesting this feeling for all of you, I know you deserve it
You know you have an ed when you literally dream of eating unsafe foods and wake up almost crying
Huh, well then….
Ha ha, ha… ha…
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nutella on green bell pepper>>>>
that’s me shite right there
IM SORRY BUT I HAVE TO RESPECTFULLY DECLINE I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN TRY THAT
YOU CAN’T KNOW IT’S BAD IF YOU HAVEN’T TRIED IT, BUG!!
I KNOW WHAT NUTELLA TASTES LIKE AND I KNOW WHAT GREEN BELL PEPPERS TASTE LIKE AND MY TONGUE SAYS N O
I’m going to block all of you and move to a cave
its been two weeks since you moved into your cave. you’re now running low on the bag of safe foods you brought with you because you didn’t think this through very well. “at least i’m finally safe now…” you say to yourself as you arrange your comfy rock bed.
you hear breathing behind you and turn around to see@purpleskiesandcryingovercals holding a jar of nutella and a green bell pepper. “you can’t know it’s bad if you’ve never tried it :)” she says as she tries to feed you a biteyou realize you could never escape - no matter how far you ran.
I love you and will kill you for this
DO IT, I DESERVE IT
As Purpleskies draws closer, preparing to strangle me with the poison she calls ‘Nutella on bell peppers’, time slows to a halt. It is as though my life is flashing before my eyes, my doom unavoidable.
I realise then, that the cave I have been inhabiting alone for all this time, was not empty at all. Behind the rocks, the far end of the cave, another dwells. He tries to run, to escape the fate that I have been condemned to, but it is too late.
“I see you, @a-bug-with-an-ed won’t you have some too?” They say, smiling sweetly as though it can conceal the villainy that radiates from their very bones.
“No,”@a-bug-with-an-ed gasps, horrified, “Never, not over my dead body.”
But alas, nobody can escape the fate of nutella on bell pepper. Not even @a-bug-with-an-ed
What if someone made a wattpad fanfic for edblr
…
Someone restrain me
Sorry you were saying? https://www.wattpad.com/story/288322615-edblr
ASAAKSJSKSKKSKSKSKSKS
I AM ACTUALLY SHAKING AND CRYING CAN WE PLEASE GET MORE UPDATES ON THE FANFIC I LOVE THIS ENTIRE FUCKING POST
Edblr expectations: “skip dinner, wake up thinner”,“ a second on the lips is forever on the hips”
Edblr reality: this^^
the only thing consistent in my life is my ability to fuck myself over
Younger me would be so ashamed of myself rn… remember when being ambitious was a thing?
edblr expectations vs reality
expectations: i didn’t eat for three days so i could be lovely
reality:Ï HÂTĘ MÜŠHRØØMŚ
Stoner problems
Okay, so, I’m a bit of a stoner and when I smoke, I get hardcore munchies. I’m trying to restrict while smoking daily and it’s really hard to manage both at the same time, does anyone have any tips to help surpress appetite?
Why is this me?
School life
Teacher: “you look hungry, where’s your lunch?”
Me: *sips my black coffee* “… I already ate”
Wtf body?!
Okay, so, for pretty much the past week I have been losing weight every day and then this morning I maintained even though I only ate half a bowl of wonton soup and a piece of Toblerone… what the fuck body? I’ve been doing stomach exercises like crazy, so I hope that maybe I’m just gaining muscle. It’s very unlikely though
Dear Diary,
She called me an angel with slit wrists.
Lmao tmi but I’ve had a really bad depressive episode over the past couple months and haven’t been taking care of myself properly and now I’ve got a huge cavity which means I have to avoid suagary foods until I can get it sorted by a dentist…. my depression really pulled through to help out my ed
Seriously tho pls take care of yourself and brush your teeth, hygiene is very important!!! <3
Not my parents being so “concerned” about my weight and telling me I need to eat more, only to then shame me for eating a biscuit. Thanks, I hate it here
I’ve gained so much weight these past couple months cause my parents have been forcing me to eat and threatened to weigh me and stuff, and now my mum has just come up to me and said “I forgot to tell you but I’ve lost 4 and a half pounds this week on my new diet ” … I- I AM ACTUALLY ABOUT TO UNALIVE WHAT THE FUCKETY FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU MOTHER
My new routine
My bmi is 17.9….. I’m officially underweight??? Then how come I still feel so fucking fat eating disorders are scams smh
Go follow my extra tumblr account: @skinnyxkuromi
Just in case ;)
Tw:
It 1:41AM :) and I’ve realized I’ve been barely trying to recover. I won a brownie because I wrote the best short story in class and I had a mini panic attack because I didn’t wanna eat it but I also won it and it’d be rude if I didn’t… I ended up giving it to my friend :/
TW:
Sorry I’ve been inactive for awhile. We (mother dearest and I) moved my aunt and cousin in since my mom and stepdad are getting divorced and mom can’t afford bills. I also tried recovering again and now I hate my body even moreee. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna crack and relapse, but I’ll let ya know.
I’m bitches….
I feel bloated and I only ate at lunch…. ima die ✌️
Mom: *literally says nothing*
Me: “DO YOU THINK IM FAT?!”
I just remember on Tuesday I picked some Easter flowers for my mom and she didn’t care lol. She’s like super depressed, idk why and I kinda accidentally told her she’s the reason I have issues…
I’m getting a puppy!!! Idk what to name her tho… if you want you should give me suggestions ♡´・ᴗ・`♡
I hate how my brain thinks that I’ll automatically see a difference after only two days of restricting… ughhhhh
TW ED:
My power went out three times this morning. Idek why, because the weather isn’t that bad. Anyways I did some homework and tried to practice drawing. I’m kinda hungry now but I looked at some meals I have and one would be 300cal and the other is 100cal but the 300cal meal will taste better then the 100cal one but I’m scared I’ll binge if I eat it. I’ll probably just make some broth to go with for some reasons it stops me from binging.