Okay, I must admit that my relationship with food is absolutely not healthy. In the past half year I have been an extremist in all aspects. At first I ate super clean in a very drastic calorie defficit (about 1100-1400 kcal) for 2 months and I lost 9 kilos. I was so overwhelmed about it and I ate all the food because I tought I wouldn’t gain it all back, or if I would I could easily lose it again by my “extrem but effective diet”. 

I think you already found out that I gained it ALL back, and somehow I couldn’t and still can not convince myself do that starving again. I can’t decide if I’m not focused enough or my body is telling me that it is a suffer.

After many failures in trying to go back to this unhealthy self-destruction, I decided to up my macros to a healthy range, and track everything I ate (IIFYM). 

I was fine between Monday to Friday and then I went crazy at weekends and I ate like 5,000 calories & this vicious circle had continued for another 2 months. I’m not saying that IIFYM is not a good approach. I think at this time I was totally unfocused, Soooo Yes, I failed again.

Last week I was thinking about starting keto, and I was doing it for like 4 days and let’s say, I felt AWFUL all day. I know thats ‘normal’ when my body is not fully adapted to function on ketones, but it was enough because I finally decided that I don’t want to follow any kind of extremely restrictive diets. I don’t want to eliminate whole food groups. I don’t want to count calories/macros. 

I want to:

• find balance
• eat everything in moderation
• eat intuitively
• listen to my body (when & what to eat)
• make healthy choices
• allow myself a cheat meal every once in a while when I feel like going out with my boyfriend
• keep working out regularly
• be happy

That’s all.

7 Steps for Maintaining Motivation

1. Grasp that it’s YOUR life, and no-one else’s life.

2. Decide to “live on purpose”.

3. Recognise that achievement has a price tag attached to it – and decide you’ll pay that price.

4. Work on constantly maintaining your focus.

5. Chose a skill or a field and become competent, or an expert, in that area.

6. Find other people who will hold you to your goals – and will believe in, and encourage you, to strive to reach your dreams.

7. Consciously notice the progress you are making, and remind yourself “it’s worth it” as you’re further on the path.

linderff:

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The life you dream of may end up not becoming true. It is frustrating and incredibly sad. But it doesn’t mean you cannot build another type of life, maybe even a better one that you had imagined, it doesn’t mean you should stop dreaming because you think you are destined to fail. Dare to dream. Try again and again to find a new life that suits your current needs and your environment. What is life, but not for trying to live it?