theewrites-tf2:

The motion to repeal Net Neutrality has been passed in a 3-2 vote

Before everyone loses their shit, I will like to urge everyone to talk a deep breath and focus on the following:

1: This cannot go into immediate effect.

2: There is still many issues that WILL be addressed by the Congress, Supreme Court, and many other government officials have a current say in the false comments, stolen idenities, denial of public hearings, and many other issues that the FCC did not address.

3: CALL. YOUR. OFFICALS. Do NOT give up, just because the vote has passed, don’t you DARE stop. Make this shit go front-page, make some NOISE.

DO. NOT. STOP.

The March in DC for National Abortion Justice Day gave me hope that we will prevail and a path forward to help the cause. I am not defeated: I am rejuvenated and we will not go back!

Focusing on too many things at once is a problem I face personally, couple that with the need to take everything upon myself and low stress tolerance and you have a disaster waiting to happen. If you face the same problem as me, I’d highly suggest making a group of specialized people and solve small problems locally, whether that be growing food, hooking up satellites for free WiFi, setting up a Food Not Bombs chapter in your area, or even cooperation in local to state government. We all have our talents, honing yours can change a life, but it takes all of us to change the world in a significant way. To rebuild a structure, parts must be torn down, the more you tear down periodically, the better the structure is going to be, however it must be reinforced. You cannot expect a house to stand without a plan for a structure, we are the supports that make the wall, the roof, and the floor. The foundation is what we believe in, and what the foundation is, is hope. Hope for a future that can be, with action, collaboration, and resistance against the hierarchical, overbearing, and exploitative power structures that currently exist.

This has been my first post in a while, so I’ll see ya’ll again in probably a month to commemorate my first post on this site “A Beginner’s Guide to Solarpunk” which absolutely blew up my account, to be truthful I’m proud of how far we’ve all come with our small internet based movement reaching new heights and our voices getting louder in the ears of politicians and capitalists alike. We’re here to stay, don’t forget about it.

This has been @punkofsunshine, have a good one and stay safe.  

uwunnie:

The Inkigayo performances have been posted to YouTube.

From how it sounded to me, Monbebe yelled “Lee Hoseok” at the very end of Follow.

(November 3, 1:48 AM US Mountain Time)

Hyungwon doubled over at the end too ☹️

Things I don’t tell a lot of people.

1. I really struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. I know when the week or weeks are coming where it gets worse, and right now, that’s where I am. I don’t tell people because I don’t want them to worry or think I’m unfit to be a parent to my son. It’s sometimes so bad, I don’t want to get out of bed and miss work due to how little I feel like I can breathe. I lie awake at night, crying and wishing that someone could take this away from me because I don’t want to feel like this.
2. I feel like a terrible parent. I have a two-year-old who deserves so much better than he is getting from me. I can’t help that he warms my heart and makes me smile from the inside out. He’s my joy, my heart, my love, my being all wrapped into this tiny person and I can’t help but feel shame in myself for knowing and realizing I’m doing wrong by him. I love him, more than words could begin to express and feel so grateful to have a beautiful boy like him in my life, but I wish I didn’t mess up so much. 
3. Not a lot of people know my gender issues. There will be some I will never be able to tell and others I want to share but am too scared as to how they will react. I play the stereotpye of female for those that don’t know because I get scared that they will see right through me and realize something else is hiding under the surface.
4. I don’t let people in. People only know so much about me and as far as I will let them through. I don’t trust anyone. Ever. Not even the person I date. I need to learn how, but I’m too scared to let someone in only for them to crush me again.
5. I write a blog. A lot of people in my personal life don’t know this blog even exists. I need it. I need to let things out. I need to type it up and get it out of my head and heart somehow. I don’t know any other means to and if that makes me an awful person or someone who’s just looking to complain, then so be it. I need it. I need to update more often and make this more a part of my daily life.

I want whoever is reading this to know that yes, I struggle a lot. I’ve had to push myself, like everyone else has, to get somewhere and I don’t always feel like it’s enough but I will damn well try to make something happen. I’m terrified to die because it means the end of trying and pushing and working hard to make my dreams and goals a possibility rather than a vision. I’m scared to die because it means I leave this life behind and can’t go back and try again. I’m scared that my fears are overtaking me and slowly killing me. I’m scared that my gender will hurt my son and he will ashamed to call me his parent. I’m scared that my mom won’t want me anymore or my dad, and I’m really close to my dad. I’m scared that I won’t be able to be intimate with my girlfriend anymore because I don’t know how to be. I’m scared! I’m fucking scared! I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m scared and, no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to shake the fear, the self-doubt, the worry, the depression. I want to. I want to enjoy my time and enjoy the world I see and enjoy my son and my family I’m creating!

So maybe this is a negative post! So what! This is my reality, and I’m fucking crashing on my own free will because I’m not stepping up and making my life better. I can’t pretend this doesn’t make me wish I could just lay down in bed and forget the world is moving around me. I can’t pretend this doesn’t cripple me. I can’t pretend it doesn’t hurt me. I won’t, but I need to stop making that my vicious cycle everyday and live already. I need to start, despite my fears, and fucking try already.

“When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it.” - Henry Ford

To all my fellow #warriors #fighters .

Chronic pain problems •

She’s got a little weird sense of humour

She jokes about the dead so often

I really hope that it is just a rumour

That she is more than just human

She’s the voice in my head

Casting out all of the others

She’s the reflection in my mirror

Though she’s always hiding under the covers

Will it be the ultimate solution

If I let her take over my flesh?

Will it be my own soul’s erasure

That will lead me to the peace for which I sorely beg?

beatrice-otter:

kawuli:

Something to remember, as the election approaches:

The work is never wasted.

Even if the Republicans keep control of Congress–yes, that would be terrible, yes, I would be furious and frustrated and sad and it would hurt like hell–EVEN SO: the work we have done to get here was not wasted.

I was part of the previous “biggest worldwide protest ever,” the global protests against the Iraq War in February 2003.

We lost. The war happened. Is still happening.

But some of the people who got involved then worked for Obama’s campaigns, a lot of them are part of the resistance now, and all of us learned something. The work was not wasted.

Even if we lose. There were Democratic primary debates in my hometown for the first time I can remember. Even if our terrible Republican Congresswoman gets re-elected, there’s still a broader and stronger Democratic Party organization in Mike Fucking Pence’s home state.

The election can’t be an end. It will only be an end if we win and get complacent, or if we lose and give in to hopelessness. We cannot afford either. We do the job that is in front of us. No matter what.

The work is never wasted.

The stories our world tells us are about Great Heroic Struggles With Triumphant Climaxes In Which Good Vanquishes Evil And They All Live Happily Ever After. It’s all about the one extreme emergency during which people rise to the occasion.

Problem is, that’s not how the world actually … works. That’s not how change happens. That’s not how societies are reshaped. We hear about MLK and the bus boycott and the protests, but not the DECADES OF WORK that came before, the organizing and the education and the legal challenges and the hundreds of thousands of people, from great heroes to ordinary people, who put in the grinding every-day work to make the world a better place, step by step, bit by bit. The big things–the speeches, the marches–were the tip of the iceberg. Nothing would have happened without the rest of the iceberg.

The 2018 midterms are the tip of the iceberg. They are incredibly important, yes. But without the rest of the iceberg, they mean nothing. Without ordinary people across America organizing and talking to their friends and coworkers and paying attention to politics and getting involved and volunteering (not just politically, but for all the nonprofits out there working to make the world a better, fairer, more just, more merciful place) the election is useless.

This is not a sprint. It is a relay marathon. If you can run a major leg, awesome. If you can help organize the marathon, awesome. If you can coordinate the people running, awesome. If you can hand out bottled water along the route, awesome. If you can cheer along the way, awesome. If you can remind people that the marathon is happening, awesome. It’s not about great heroes or one person doing it all or one climactic battle in which everything magically gets fixed.

It’s about ordinary people doing what they can. What you can do right now is vote. What you do on November 7 and the months and years following (no matter who wins the election) is stay involved and stay working.

Take care of yourself. Take care of others. Don’t hyperfixate and burn out. Be the tortoise, not the hare. Vote. And then keep moving on.