I know this sounds totally stupid but I want to love again. I can’t stand to be alone. I really want to be in love again. It‘s not that I’m lonely or sad but I really miss these feelings. I miss having a person who I can always talk to. I miss feeling a body lying next to me. I miss all these couple-things.

But I don’t know how to meet someone new and I don’t know if the thoughts about you will ever go away.

This Tumblr page has been…

The only place where I’ve been able to be who I am. The me behind the forced smile. The me who truly expresses myself and takes time to figure out how I feel. Ngl, sometimes realizing this makes me sad. Other times, it makes me so happy to see how many people have decided to follow this page that I on the spur of the moment decided to create one day. Desperate to see if anyone else felt as alone. If anyone else was as confused about why they were so different…We were made to be different.

We are the healers. We aren’t 1 percent to be like everyone else. We are the shamans and sages that live at the top of the mountain, where all the village people come to with the questions they know only a wise person will carry and openly share. Higher perspective. In this modern day, technology fueled world, this has just turned into people texting you for advice, consistently dumping and venting onto you, and only talking to you to receive what they need.

It doesn’t feel as good as it probably did back then, when a sage would sit in a cave at the top of a tree filled mountain. Where you could feel the breeze, listen to the silence, find joy in the sound of a singing bird, and hear your own voice and feelings enough to know that they matter just as much. It was probably exciting to see someone taking form upon the hill. Someone who was willing to walk up the mountain to receive your advice, and even more, valued it enough to work their way to it.

Its officially been 2 months since I broke down and just packed up my car and left without telling any of my family. I have been living out of my car, just traveling. Recording my experiences on YT. Life is so blissful from this moving mountain I now travel in. No contact, no dumping, no drain. Just PEACE. It does exist.

Thank you for supporting this page. Essentially validating that my emotions exist. I would love for you peek into my travels on YT. A collective I would be happy to live chat with and comment to on my videos. This INFJ is working hard to get to 1k. There are 5k following here so I’m hopeful if you’re the one who’s made it to the end of this post that you’ll be excited to follow me there like it led you to here.

I’m forcing myself to be brave and not be afraid, to ask for help, and show myself and travels. I hope it inspires you to do whatever protects your peace and fills your heart. If you do subscribe, please let me know so I can extend a personal thank you. From one INFJ to you. Possibly someone like me, who went on tumblr trying to find relation and understanding. Protect your energy. Protect your peace. I’ll always support you, I hope you’ll support me. Peace and Love

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Last week I did what I should have done years ago and took my life back. I gave my toxic job of 6 years my 2 week notice. I have given it my all in the last 6 years, stayed late, came in early, worked weekends, worked off the clock, grew the company. All that did not matter in the end, I gave my 2 weeks and they couldn’t do the same. I was asked to leave before completing my 2 weeks. If I already didn’t have my mind made up this would have been a final nail in the coffin. I’m moving on to a better job with more money and better benefits but I still feel hurt by how it ended at a job that I gave my last 6 years to. I didn’t even get a thank you. I was tossed out like a piece of trash, you know why? Because I learned my value. I saw what I’ve done, I saw all the extra jobs that I took on with no extra pay. I saw people doing 1/10 of the work making double. The extra things I took on to be a “team player” became and expectation and part of my job. Other people used me as a resource to help them grow while I was stagnant. I’m one of those people that likes being challenged, I love figuring things out and working towards a goal. When I stopped learning, I felt stuck. A local competitor company reached out to me, saw my potential, listened to what I was looking for in my next role and invested in me. After many interviews with different companies this just felt right. It was like a breath of fresh air feeling appreciated and heard. I’m taking away many lessons from my job that I’m leaving. I learned that I do have tough skin after all. Working in the construction industry I’ve been told that you can’t be a “wall flower”. I was tough when I had to be and compassionate when someone needed it. The friendships I’ve made I’m taking with me. I learned that I need to be respected and appreciated sounds crazy that my recent role didn’t come with that. I learned that company culture outweighs just about anything and in order for any company to be successful and grow taking care of current employees is the only way to get there. The biggest lesson I’m walking away with is that I now know my value and I will never again sell myself short. Here’s to new beginnings! 4/8/22

I am home. It is Wednesday and I should be at work, but a migraine has commanded otherwise. I felt the first uneasy stirrings last night while hiding candy-filled eggs and overstuffed baskets for my sons, but I thought a good night’s sleep would set me to rights. Nope. Instead of working I am in bed, notebook propped on a pillow, a cool cloth on my forehead, listening to birds outside my window. I suppose there are worse ways to welcome Ostara.

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Before I was born I was moondust, sand of the deepest sea and iron of the meteor that killed the dinosaurs. All the elements of me came from the Earth, put together so delicately and cleverly as to create something unique and wonderful. I am wild, kind and flawed by design. As I look upon my fellow particles of moondust and grains of sand, I cannot help feeling that we are all walking each other home. From the dust of the moon to the ashes of our fires we are all made of the earth to which we shall return.

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Hoвая жизнь

Hoвая жизнь

Its almost the end of the year and we’re all ‘reflecting’ at the end of another 365 days.

At the beginning of 2016 I made the decision to not set a list of resolutions to accomplish by the end of the year because quite frankly setting such resolutions for the end of the year only sets you up for failure. Instead, I decided that each morning I wake up I will write a list of things to accomplish…

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sorry guys but the shit thats going on in my life right now, i’m going have to delete this lesbian blog.. but if you wana keep in contact this is my personal blog http://theyre-lesbianing-together.tumblr.com/ im so sorry.. i’ll be deleting this tomorrow 

Portrait 2016 by Salvatore Matarazzo

Portrait 2019 by Salvatore Matarazzo

Got a new job, a new car, a new computer, but you ain’t here anymore

via@peropoitorni

Here I am, tomorrow I’ll start a new job, in two days I’ll receive my first car, and you’re not here

I just try to be excited for what’s happening in my life but the thought of you not sharing it with me makes me feel sad

-@peropoitorni