#personal reminder
this is it!
this is the sign that you were looking for - the sign to make fresh efforts, the sign to move forward, and the sign to let go of your inhibitions.
it’s a new day. try again. it’ll be worth it ✨
Things change.
4 years ago, I was sleeping about 4 hours every night. Many of my closest friends at the time had, or were in the process of, leaving me and I would cry from the loneliness. I was fighting with my parents and wanted to leave home. They thought I was exaggerating and attention-seeking. Every appointment ended with “we can’t help you” or “there’s nothing wrong with you” or medications that made me worse, to put it lightly. More than once I wanted to end it
This morning, I woke up after sleeping for 9 hours in a room built by my dad specially for me, so I would have a space for me if I stay at home longer because of my health. I texted my best friend who yesterday asked me to be her bridesmaid. Before asking me, she spent weeks making sure it would all be accessible and fun for me, not stressful. My mum brought my medication in for me, ones that actually make me feel better, and asked how I was feeling. Later I’ll text one of the members of my lovely and amazingly supportive medical team to see when we can video call. We always have tea when we call, and cookies or a cupcake- food doesn’t scare me so much anymore. Every appointment ends with “you’re doing so well”. I haven’t hurt myself in years, I actually stopped counting, and when it all gets too much I know I have people I can talk to and strategies prepared to get through it and it will pass. Life is still hard. But it keeps moving, and I’m so grateful.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but it will be ok. It might not be now, and I don’t know when it will be, but it will be. It doesn’t all happen at once. Things are still hard. But one day you’ll wake up and be so glad you didn’t leave, because you would have missed these moments of happiness and love, and some of them-probably more than you realise- wouldn’t have been possible without you.
Hey there! Just here to remind you: there’s a human being behind your expectations.
Allow yourself to be a beginner. No one starts off being excellent.
everytime you feel sad or wonder why you’re still here, just remember you have made it through every single day that this world has thrown at you. you’ve fought your way through a society that isn’t always kind to you. you, the wonderful, amazing, beautiful, unique person that you are, you are still standing here and i am so proud of you for that. if the thing you did today was get through it, that’s ok because there’s always tomorrow and the day after that. you are enough, you always have been and you always will be
well… last night somebody poked me at YM and told me that my OTP has a height difference by 30+ cm. ∑(◎A◎")
anda commissioner asked me to draw a
BLcouple doing something romantic, like hugging/light kissing.consider it as practice then.
saw this “call for contributor” tweet, searching artist for hetalia 蘭ネシ fanzine. damn this is one of my oldest OTP :)) I’D LIKE TO JOIN TOO BUT I HADN’T DRAW ANYTHING THESE PAST MONTHS EXCEPT FOR WORK :’)))
mod team would like to see any pic related with this couple to screen artist who want to contribute on this zine, i assume what they’d like to see is my newest drawing– so… well i reblogging this post as personal reminder. must draw SOMETHING before 7 sept 2021 << application deadline [roughly a week from tonight].
CAN I??
let’s… see…
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take a deep breath
Things change.
4 years ago, I was sleeping about 4 hours every night. Many of my closest friends at the time had, or were in the process of, leaving me and I would cry from the loneliness. I was fighting with my parents and wanted to leave home. They thought I was exaggerating and attention-seeking. Every appointment ended with “we can’t help you” or “there’s nothing wrong with you” or medications that made me worse, to put it lightly. More than once I wanted to end it
This morning, I woke up after sleeping for 9 hours in a room built by my dad specially for me, so I would have a space for me if I stay at home longer because of my health. I texted my best friend who yesterday asked me to be her bridesmaid. Before asking me, she spent weeks making sure it would all be accessible and fun for me, not stressful. My mum brought my medication in for me, ones that actually make me feel better, and asked how I was feeling. Later I’ll text one of the members of my lovely and amazingly supportive medical team to see when we can video call. We always have tea when we call, and cookies or a cupcake- food doesn’t scare me so much anymore. Every appointment ends with “you’re doing so well”. I haven’t hurt myself in years, I actually stopped counting, and when it all gets too much I know I have people I can talk to and strategies prepared to get through it and it will pass. Life is still hard. But it keeps moving, and I’m so grateful.
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but it will be ok. It might not be now, and I don’t know when it will be, but it will be. It doesn’t all happen at once. Things are still hard. But one day you’ll wake up and be so glad you didn’t leave, because you would have missed these moments of happiness and love, and some of them-probably more than you realise- wouldn’t have been possible without you.
Your story isn’t over
Dear self:
This is a message to you from last night. You need to eat breakfast and have a cup of coffee before you get on Tumblr. You need to pick up the guest bedroom before you get on Tumblr. You need to start a load of laundry before you get on Tumblr. You need to drop off the haddock at Andrea’s before you get on Tumblr. Debbie and Jim will be here at noon. You do not have time to waste.
In short go get shit done!
Love, you from the past
