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Oh heyyyyyy Seattle! I know… How many calories, grams of sugar, or fat are in this one cup? Who cares?! I’d rather enjoy the experience and be present in the moment
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#recovery #recoverywarriors #edwarrior #recover #recovered #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #warrior #fighter #edfighter #strength #recoverycommunity #embraceyoursquish #bodypositivity #prorecovery #bopo #fuckeatingdisorders #countblessingsnotcalories #eatingdisorders #projectheal #recovered #recovering #edcommunity #loveyourbody #acceptance #healthybodyimage #seattle #pikeplacemarket #pikesplacemarket #yogurt #ellenosgreekyogurt (at Pike Place Market)
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Bloated AF today. I hate summer - the heat, the humidity, the sunshine. Summer gives me seasonal depression. Holidays always bring out the worst in my ED brain and I lose it. I can’t accept that my weight is up a pound from Friday, even though I know it’s due to my body still regulating since surgery. I cannot logically accept the number on the scale at the moment. I still nourished my body with what it needs - my everyday “diet” (I hate that word) since surgery, but I can’t be around “unsafe” food in fear of binging (yes, even healthy food). I do not restrict, thankfully. I’m still able to get my 100g of protein a day, eat my dark chocolate M&M’s and enjoy the amount of complex carbs I’m allowed (literally, doctor’s orders) without guilt. I’m tired of hearing “You need to gain weight” - I would never make a comment about someone’s body/weight to them. You don’t know what someone struggles with, that comment triggers my ED brain - triggers me to want to lose more weight. Before surgery I ate way more calories (yes I track. ED behavior? Maybe or maybe because I’m concerned about my macros & making sure I get enough protein/fat/not too many carbs especially simple carbs for healing), I also worked out for 2.5 hours a day. I would do anything at the moment to just work out for 30-60 minutes without pain at the moment. I miss moving. I miss feeling “normal”. I’m in a better place mentally (panic disorder, agoraphobia, PTSD, BPD, EDNOS) overall since my Mastectomy/Cancer diagnosis, I challenge myself more everyday but today is a bad day and I can be open about it. I’ll make sure tomorrow is better - I didn’t go through all of this to end up with the slow suicide of an ED that’s already taken more than half of my life away from me. I’m stronger than this & I will win #mastectomy #breastcancer #breastcancersurvivor #ednos #edwarrior #adultswitheds #recovery #prorecovery #edrecovery #realrecovery #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #ptsd #bpd #foodie #eatingdisorder #agoraphobia #fightlikeagirl #bopo #bodypositive #loveyourself #fuckdietculture #selflove #bodydysmorphia
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Today is 6 weeks post op! I should be healed, right? Wrong! The physical limitations and the mental scars are still very fresh. I have not had a pain free day in over 6 weeks, my emotions are up and down. My emotions range from anger, anxiety, depression, eating disorder thoughts/urges fear (of my health and my future), sadness, self love/hate, and everything in between. Even though there’s a lot of negativity in there I’m still remaining more positive than negative because I don’t like feeling negativity and combatting my thoughts (not invalidating how I feel) is a battle of its own. I practice self love by nourishing my body, by taking walks in the rain like I did today just to get fresh air and get moving, by taking longer showers because it feels amazing, by following up with as many doctors I need to for my health. I know this will be a long journey, I know my new “normal” will be nothing from prior to my surgery and I’m okay with that as I love the person I’ve become and the future me I have yet to meet as I know I will be stronger than ever #mastectomy #postop #breastcancer #survivor #recovery #fightlikeagirl #bopo #bodypositivity #loveyourself #ednos #edwarrior #prorecovery #positivevibes #positivity #fuckcancer #selflove
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- You’re not a burden.
- It’s okay to be struggling.
- It’s okay to tell people you’re struggling.
- Please tell people you’re struggling.
- Don’t suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help.
- It’s okay to need help.
- Please get yourself help.
- You’re not the exception to recovery.
- The world is more beautiful because you’re in it.
- You’re worth it.
- You’re a good person.
- Thank you for existing.
- You’re beautiful.
- You’re not the exception to recovery.
- Please stay alive.
- If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.
- Please, stay alive.
- People love you.
- I love you.
- Don’t give up.
- You’re not the exception to recovery.
- You’re not the exception to recovery.
Just wanna clear something up…
Recovering from an eating disorder is NOT synonymous with “getting fit.”
Recovery is about loving yourself for more than your body, not finding a “healthier” way to “perfect” your body.
This is something that needs to be shared. Mental disorders are serious. They aren’t something to joke about. They hurt people, they ruin lives, they are so hard. Be sensitive to other people’s struggles.
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Choose recovery today. Stop waiting to lose 5 more pounds, stop waiting to be “sicker”, stop waiting until it’s too late. You are worth recovery. You are worth taking that first step. Don’t wait.
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