Today I let the pencil do it all itself.

Pensieri

The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012).

BEAUTIFUL BOY (2018)

Timothée Chalamet as Elio Perlman in ‘Call Me by Your Name’ | 2017

Attack on (what is left) of my sanity

Guess who just finished the first part of season 3 of Attack on titan…. this gurl and lemme just tell u…… what is left of my sanity is dead.

The season was amazing except for episode 12 and after the outro song.

~~~Below this kawaii line might be a spoiler or can damaged a person’s mental and physical health. You’ve been warned~~~

THAT LIL CLIP WITH LEVI BLEEDING HEAVILY AND MIKASA ATTACKING HIM WAS NOT COOL!!! ITS MORE LIKE DAMAGING, MENTALLY DRAINING AND BRUTAL!!!

As you can see, I am not looking forward to see that scene. I’m scared

2am thoughts

Yes I have a nightly routine it’s called being Insane in my room till I pass out

Dear Universe,

I never want to go through this again. Please, no more lessons. I’ve had enough. Don’t you think I’ve learned enough?

-painful lessons

Nothing is real. If I keep telling myself that nothing is real then nothing can hurt me. Nobody can break my heart. Nothing can make me cry. Nothing is real.

-disassociation

You went from being my favorite person to a complete stranger in an instant.

-and it’s fucking with my head

The version of you in my memory no longer exists.

-i miss that person

I would do anything to go back in time and hold onto the moments when we were happy.

-happiness has a time limit for me and my time has run out

you spend the night with her

i spend the night listening to lofi songs

pleading with the universe

to make you mine

yet, she always tells me “no”

Cruel universe; I’ll never be worthy of you.

Watching you talk to everyone else but me makes me feel ugly on the inside.

-insecurities

I made myself sad by falling for you. I played myself. How could I be so stupid? Goddamn I’m so stupid.

-here we go again