#loveofmylife
So it took me a few heartbreaks…
But I’m so so SO happy to say I’ve finally found my soulmate!
This man has given my life so much more meaning than I ever knew possible and I honestly love him with all of my heart, I’d be lost without his kind smile and loving arms to hold me and keep me strong.
I’m not really a girl of faith, but I do believe that something out there put me and him on this earth for each other, he is just my everything.
A lot of people who I’ve been close to in my life have turned their backs on me due to meeting this man, and falling in love has caused me to lose people I really didn’t want to… But sadly when you meet the person you fall in love with you enter this bubble, and it’s as if everything else fades away and all you can think about is that person you’re in love with.
I hope that the people who have turned away from me in frustration at my lack of communication with them feel the way that I feel one day to understand how amazing it feels.
I know in my heart I’m going to marry this man one day, and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life building our adventures and taking on the world together despite our anxieties, we’re a team :)
Thank you all so so much for being there for me in the years that I have relied on you and vented, and to the friends who have turned away from me just know that my arms are always open to you, and I’m happy to embrace you again should you want that of me.
- Becky! <3
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Why would you ever need to search for another when I’m here by your side…??? The love I have for you is beyond this world only a real and true woman of God can keep the man of God right, and hold him down… There will be no need to be with another no need to look at another… As what God has given you is me, and I’m what you have dreamed and prayed about your whole life… I’m holding it down until you come home to me. To the #loveofmylife my #future I’m here getting better in God and in health that we may live the life God has for us and us only! We shall bless all those who see us. #maryjblige #music #randb #holdingontomyfaith #dreams #faith #love #waitingforyou #video #instagram #instaperfect
To my future remember you will never have to go nowhere looking for love, as I will always be here with the love that God gave to to love my #king my #emperor with a love only God could ever bless you with. No need to be concern if I’m out doing you dirty because I’m not. Your mind will never have to wonder about my love and loyalty to you as I AM from God the one you have prayed for and you are the one I have prayed for… Together we with God shall hold down our #dynasty our #empire we shall rule with the power of God and of his precious Holy Spirit! As I wait until your arrival I shall continue to keep myself right in God that when the time comes you shall see God in my eyes as I will see him in yours. I love you so much my #future #maryjblige #photo #music #love #mylife #waitingforyou #faithful #loyalty #heartbeat #postivevibes #realtalk #realman #loveofmylife
❤Missing this face and can’t wait to have NY 2 boys back with me in December for #Christmas2018 and my and Jake’s January birthday’s. ❤
#family #familyfun #familytime #familylife #familypets #furbabies #familygoals #catsofinstagram #petparents #petlovers #animallovers #ILoveYou #loveofmylife #relationships #longdistancerelationships #romance #soulmates #engagedtobemarried
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Some beautiful stones that Jake (@hethkar) and I found at The Dollar Store back in May. And with this photo, I’ve finally gotten up to date on all the photos We took when my boys were Home with me for Our 2 weeks Together back in May. Lol.
Just in time for them to arrive Home again tomorrow for the week Together. Since than, I have been practicing how to update all my Socials etc more as they happen instead of trying to remember everything “in bulk” and then getting overwhelmed and than getting angry and depressed with myself when I cannot remember all the details. ☺
#family #familytime #familyfun #homelife #longdistancerelationships #relationships #soulmates #love #loveofmylife #inspirations #inspirationalstones #goals #lifegoals #stressmanagement
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This one goes out to the one I love. ♥️
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2 months and 23 days until we become Monsieur and Madame.
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#ourday #myfiance #couplesofinstagram #weddingcountdown #misstomrs #herecomesthebride #gettinghitched #engagedcouple #foreverinlove #behappyandsmile #engagedaf #loveofmylife #austinstyle #loversandfriends #couplephotography #fashioncouple #coupleselfie #engagedcouple #couplife #soontobemarried #futuremrandmrs #marryingmybestfriend #letsgetmarried #trueaustin #mysoulmate #relationshipgoals #atxinfluencer #loveher #together #foreverdate (at Paris, France)
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This one goes out to the one I love. ♥️
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2 months and 23 days until we become Monsieur and Madame.
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#ourday #myfiance #couplesofinstagram #weddingcountdown #misstomrs #herecomesthebride #gettinghitched #engagedcouple #foreverinlove #behappyandsmile #engagedaf #loveofmylife #austinstyle #loversandfriends #couplephotography #fashioncouple #coupleselfie #engagedcouple #couplife #soontobemarried #futuremrandmrs #marryingmybestfriend #letsgetmarried #trueaustin #mysoulmate #relationshipgoals #atxinfluencer #loveher #together #foreverdate
(at Paris, France)
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This is my #mancrush every single day! This strong, confident and wonderful man right here. I was on a fire call last night and all I could think about afterwards is how much I miss seeing this guy running the show! Everyone always knew things where going to get done right when his voice was on the radio. For my fellow #firefighter friends out there, he was that Chief!love him or not… You respected him and he never forgot where he came from when he wore that gold badge! He retired in 2009 and has been missed since! I’m just lucky enough to go home to home every day! #luckygirl ☺️ He’s on to bigger things and still running the show… Well at least at work!! Lol!
#husband #firefighters #firefighterlife #firstresponder #showsomelove #bae #lovehim #fitfam #loveofmylife #chiefmiller #firechief #thebest #murphy #photooftheday
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Ucey Von Thrillwell⚡️⚡️
#UceyVonThrillwell #UceyBoy #Uce #MachieMoo #Peterbald #RussianCat #Purebred #HairlessCat #Purrfection #CatsInClothes #MyBoy #LoveOfMyLife #PureCunt #CatsWearingClothes #Regal #BrightColors #HandsomestBoy #RussianSphynx #CatModel #UciferThrillwell #FashionableCat #ClothesForCats #CatsOfInstagram #InstagramCats #CatFashion #CatModel #CatSweater #CatHat #BestCatEver #CoolCat
(at West Village)
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UCEY VON THRILLWELL⚡️⚡️
#UceyVonThrillwell #UceyBoy #Uce #MachieMoo #Peterbald #RussianCat #Purebred #HairlessCat #Purrfection #CatsInClothes #MyBoy #LoveOfMyLife #PureCunt #CatsWearingClothes #GeometricShapes #BrightColors #HandsomestBoy #RussianSphynx #CatModel #BusyBackground #FashionableCat #ClothesForCats #CatsOfInstagram #InstagramCats #CatFashion #CatModel #CatSweater #BlackAndGraySweater #BestCatEver #CoolCat (at West Village)
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Having a daughter is like having a built in bestie! 10/10 recommend
As I sit across my mothers room as she is being injected with radiation before her pet scan a whole lot of emotions run through my mind. She has fought off breast cancer 3 years ago, had cancer moles removed, had a hysterectomy to assure ovarian cancer would not happen, had cancerous polyps removed during a colonoscopy. She looks scared, tells the nurse all about her grandchildren (my kids) and how proud she is of them. That’s the first time I witnessed her telling a complete stranger how much they make her happy and proud. My mother is a tough woman at times even seems cold but in that moment she is as just a proud grandmother with a will to live to watch them grow up. They just took her away for the pet scan and right when she was out of sight my mask filled up with tears. I held it in all morning, I made small talk about after Christmas sales, how much the gas prices went up I wanted to talk about anything besides what was happening today. Today we will know if there’s any cancerous masses anywhere in her body. Waiting is the worst part. First you wait for the appointment, then you want in the waiting room, then you wait for results, then you wait for treatment, wait to see if it worked. Cancer is one big waiting game. Cancer doesn’t discriminate, could care less if you smoke, drink, do drugs, if you are a good person or an ass. Cancer is determined and sneaky but good luck trying to take on my mom. I pray the scans are clear, for cancer’s sake.
I called my husband and my 4 year old daughter picked up. She said “hi mama, daddy is cleaning” I said that she’s a great receptionist to which she replied “ I’m the CEO”. Let’s all raise girls that dream big and think that anything is possible! 2/7/22
1/8/22
Today was one of the worst days of my life. It started as a typical Saturday. I woke up, got the kids dressed and ready for my son’s basketball practice. I was planning on stopping at Dunkin’ Donuts to get the kids donuts and a coffee for me. My husband was coming with us and he takes longer to get ready than us so there was no time for donuts. We drove to practice and got there right on time. My son was doing great. My husband was sitting on the other side of the court to stay by our daughter who was playing dolls with another little girl who’s brother is on my son’s team. My parents showed up and sat next to me. Everything was going fine, the kids were bouncing the balls running back and forth, doing drills. I looked over at my son and I could tell something was not right. He dropped the ball and started to walk over to me, he took his mask off and asked for water. I offered him mine since he left his in the car, he declined and said he doesn’t feel good. I told him I will go to the car and get his water and I asked him if he wanted to go home. He hugged me and said “mama something is wrong” his body got heavy and he lost consciousness in my arms. I stood up holding his body and started screaming my husband name over and over. It’s a packed gym, I was wearing a mask finally he heard me and started to run towards me. I put our son on the floor gently and screamed for people to call 911. My husband asked if he hit his head I said no he hugged me and passed out, he picked him up and started running. I got my daughter, my son’s jacket and pants and walked outside. No sight of my husband or son. The car is parked so where did they go? I see them walking out of the school. My son who was unconscious is walking. My husband took him to the bathroom, put cold water on his face and forced him to drink and he came to life. We went home. Both my parents and husband believe that he passed out from dehydration and he barely ate anything that morning before practice. I know that makes sense and I am so happy that he is ok but because of how it all happened and him passing out in my arms I have a hard time moving on. I check on him all the time, he’s all “mama I’m ok” but I just keep seeing his pale face and I keep hearing my scream for husband to come. My son is an unbelievable kid. I know he’s mine and moms brag but from the moment he came into this world people that meet him just know he’s destined to do something great. He’s smart, loves to read, has an amazing sense of humor, is a great dancer and most of all athletic. He’s programmed to be the best at everything he does and he works hard to make sure that it happens. At age 7 he knows what he wants to be, an engineer or president (said to lower gas prices). I honestly don’t know what I would do if something happened to him. I have been praying to god to keep him safe and that this was a one time situation caused by dehydration and not eating before practice. Being a parent is so scary and stressful, you want to raise them to be good, honest people and also keep them safe. I have so much guilt from not feeding him at home that morning, I should have known we could be running late and wouldn’t have time to stop at Dunkin’ Donuts. I should have woken him up earlier that day so we would have plenty of time for breakfast. I try and try to be the best mom, and I feel like I failed. I did not keep him safe. That whole situation broke me. I keep hugging him, checking on him. I take for granted my kids, my husband I need to take a step back and appreciate what I have. Life is short, too short. So we need to love our babies, hold them as much as we can and tell them we love them even more than we do now.
The past few years have changed how everyone looks at life, what they value. It made everyone take a step back, re-evaluate their jobs, their marriage, friendships, political views. All thanks to Covid. Working from home, small business start ups, people losing jobs, people getting sick, do masks work, vaccination are all topics of conversations. People are missing time, valuable time with loved ones due to quarantine or fear of getting sick. No one trusts anyone anymore, if you sneeze in public- forget it you will get looks of death. Healthcare workers are overworked, teachers are attempting to teach remotely and the ones that do in person kids have to be 6 feet apart. Human interaction is non existent, no hugs, handshakes. I am truly scared of what’s to come. I’m scared of this becoming the new normal. I’m scared of my kids having friends and not even knowing what they look like without a mask on. I’m scared that kids are missing out on a regular childhood filled with sleepovers, birthday parties, field trips. On top of all that the country is so divided, prices are all time high on just about anything. Vaccinated people are hating on the ones that are not, even though both groups can still not only get covid but also pass on to others. I’m not going to say my thoughts on it and I’m actually not sure where I stand. The only thing I do believe that no government should force you to get the vaccine. I am fully vaccinated with a booster - do I feel immune, no. Do I look at people that stand against it with judgement, still no. It’s a personal choice. 2021 has been exhausting, challenging and I’m glad it’s almost over. Did you know- Sunflowers stand tall and face the sun, on gloomy days they turn to each other as if to keep company. I heard that from a girl that sat next to me on a spirit flight and it stuck with me. That’s how I look at covid, we need that people interaction to keep going on cloudy days. So let’s turn to each other instead of turning away and stand tall. 12/28/21
#Christmas #FirstChristmasAsAFamily #ChristmasTree #ChristmasParade #WoodlandPark #Fireworks #LoveOfMyLife #Colorado #Instagramers #Photography #ColoradoGram #InstaColorado #Coloradography #ColoradoLife #ColoradoDaily #RockyMountains #ColoradoCameraClub #EnjoyTheLittleThings #Beautiful #Mountains #Coloradical #Nature #WildColorado #ColoradoIsBeautiful #ColoradoNative #WanderLust #LoveTheLifeYouLive #Wanderer
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“But damn you smell good, like home…” - Hank Moody, Californication
#soulmate #fiancé #loveofmylife #selfie #husbandtobe #wifetobe #travel #traveling #welltravelled #traveltheworld #explore #exploretheworld #exploring #californialove #california #lieblingsmensch #girlswithtattoos #girlswithpiercings #couplegoals #boyswithpiercings #engaged #bridetobe #instatravel #partnerincrime #losangeles #wanderlust #fernweh #engagedcouple #friyay #happyfriday (hier: Los Angeles, California)
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Fiancé ❤
#soulmate #fiancé #love #loveofmylife #engagedcouple #selfie #husbandtobe #wifetobe #disneyland #disneylandanaheim #lieblingsmensch #travel #traveling #welltravelled #traveltheworld #explore #exploretheworld #exploring #californialove #california #girlswithtattoos #girlswithpiercings #boyswithpiercings #inkedgirls #crazyinlove #engaged #partnerincrime #losangeles #wanderlust #passionpassport (hier: Disneyland)
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