anyway you guys understand what its like to completely have no sense of self and just mirror the personality of every new person you meet becayse you can psychoanalyze them within seconds of saying hello. and then theyre convinced that youre soulmates but youre literally just adapting to their every move and essentially becoming another version of them until eventuslly you collect enlugh traits to form one fucked up personality of your own… right?
I need someone to love me through my darkest moments when I’m angry and I can’t feel anything but rage. I know it’s toxic to ask for unconditional love when you are far from deserving of it but I need someone to always be there.
Hey shout out to all the low-empathy people out there who had to deliberately learn how to comfort people
Everything I know about how to make people feel better I learned from books and magazines. I took diligent notes, marking down when to offer advice and when to just say “that sucks”. I built scripts and tested them until they worked. I learned where my limits were and how to help people without crossing them.
None of this just “developed naturally” as I grew up. I did it consciously and with purpose, because even before I knew I had low empathy I knew there was something different about me, and I knew I’d have to go about it differently if I wanted to fill in the gaps.
Just because you use scripts and deliberate methods to help people doesn’t mean you don’t really care or that all your soothing words are empty. You just learned in a different way and that’s okay.
On the contrary, that shows how much we cared, ‘cause we took the deliberate effort to learn that in order to comfort our friends
