any other borderlines find their impulsiveness getting worse on a higher dose of seroquel ?? i upped my dose recently on recommendation from a psych but my impulsive symptoms have been wreaking havoc on me- is this normal ? does it go away ?
so after years of research i realized i have borderline personality disorder. i know i am self diagnosing but i know 100% that i have it. after years of struggling with symptoms i didnt recognize, thinking i only have depression and social anxiety. i hit every single trait. all 9 traits of bpd. this video im watching of a psychiatrist explaining it to someone who has no clue, is saying every single thing i experience on a regular basis. hopefully i have nothing else and hopefully i can get treated as soon as possible.
a question with people who have BPD: how did you get diagnosed? how do i receive help. im scared a professional will misdiagnose me. do i see a therapist… a psychiatrist???
why is it my fault she ruined my birthday????? why is she too immature to apologize??? this couldve been solved so easily if you werent such a fucking moron
*texts bestfriend at 9:30am knowing she is at work* hey babes, hope you have a good day! Talk to you on your lunch.
*does not reply cuz working*
12pm on the dot. *texts bestie* hello! How is work going?
*doesn’t reply; getting her shit together for her break*
12:03 *texts bestfriend again*
❤️☺️
*does not text back; still getting her shit together*
12:10 *texts bestfriend again, anxiously scrolls through Instagram. Keeps closing and opening bestfriend and I messages. Keeps thinking what if I did something wrong.*
BISH. WHAT DOING.
12:30 *gets reply from bestfriend*
Hey babes, sorry, I was getting my shit together and went to sit in my car. How is your day going? Work is work you know. Nothing fun.
call me old fashioned, but in this household we don’t use eupd. we use bpd like the good Bimbo Pussy Disorder (or Boobs Pretty Dignormous) skanks we are!!
gimme attention!!! wtf why isn’t anyone paying attention to me!! i’m an attention whore!!! i need it to live!!!! give me the attention i so rightfully deserve!!
sorry for the lack of actually useful posts. i’ve been out of brain juice. there is nothing sloshing around in my head except brain, idk probably a lost sock from the washing machine, a couple moths, & spiderwebs. i have had No Thoughts and that is okay!
Confusion Delusion Seclusion Inclusion Numbing Loving Finding you in me How I adore, the chaos of you Cry out Take out Heartless Fearless Compassionately Feeling you in me How I love The chaos of you Psycho Halo Cruel and tormenting Compassionately Seeing us in them How I adore The chaos in them In them In them Of you Of you
It takes a lot to know a man It takes a lot to understand The warrior, the sage The little boy enraged
It takes a lot to know a woman A lot to understand what’s humming The honeybee, the sting The little girl with wings
It takes a lot to give, to ask for help To be yourself, to know and love what you live with It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel The slow reveal of what another body needs
It takes a lot to know a man A lot to know, to understand The father and the son The hunter and the gun
It takes a lot know a woman A lot to comprehend what’s coming The mother and the child The muse and the beguiled
It takes a lot to give, to ask for help To be yourself, to know and love what you live with It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel The slow reveal of what another body needs
It takes a lot to give, to ask for help To be yourself, to know and love what you live with It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel The slow reveal of what another body needs
It takes a lot to live, to ask for help To be yourself, to know and love what you live with It takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel The slow reveal of what another body needs
What are you so afraid to lose? What is it you’re thinking that will happen if you do? What are you so afraid to lose? (You wrote me to tell me you’re nervous and you’re sorry) What is it you’re thinking that will happen if you do? (Crying like a baby saying “this thing is killing me”) What are you so afraid to lose? (You wrote me to tell me you’re nervous and you’re sorry) What is it you’re thinking that will happen if you do? (Crying like a baby saying “this thing is killing me”) You wrote me to tell me you’re nervous and you’re sorry Crying like a baby saying “this thing is killing me”
anyway you guys understand what its like to completely have no sense of self and just mirror the personality of every new person you meet becayse you can psychoanalyze them within seconds of saying hello. and then theyre convinced that youre soulmates but youre literally just adapting to their every move and essentially becoming another version of them until eventuslly you collect enlugh traits to form one fucked up personality of your own… right?
unpopular opinion: if people with bpd literally have their brains wired differently from birth then they shouldn’t have to wait until they’re 18 to be diagnosed. I know a lot of people who are younger than 18 who definitely have bpd that would benefit from the proper way to treat it. now they’re just struggling and nothing is working because they aren’t in DBT. I’m not saying that that particular therapy is a cure-all, but it’s supposed to help, and the younger you implement it, the better it’s supposed to work. thank you for coming to my ted talk.
One reason mental health professionals should be cautious handing out PD diagnoses is the prevalence of stigma in mental healthcare communities. Another is the self-fulfilling-prophecy aspect of professional “labeling”. Symptoms should always be taken quite seriously and treated as such, often done best with DBT.
However, once a minor has a PD recorded recorded on their charts, it can be more difficult to find proper care, even if that person still has a lot more developing to do. The trend of telling Girls Who Have Intense Emotions that their core personality is inherently DISORDERED is more damaging than holding off on officiating a half-baked diagnosis and only treating symptoms in the meantime.
I am personally pro-self-dx for minors over the age of 15, but I think that mental healthcare professionals shouldn’t risk the safety and self-identities of minors.
With every social media network rolling out new options for reporting mental health concerns, it’s worth taking the time to listen to people when they say that getting notifications asking if they’re okay from an automated system is not helpful. Instead it makes many people more paranoid about what they post, and takes away from their ability to use social media as a safe space to share their struggles with others. Instead of drive-by reporting, if you see something that concerns you try reaching out to the poster! Even if you still think it would be best to report them, shooting them a heads up that you’re doing so, goes a long way to ensuring that our online communities stay safe for everyone!
I work hard to keep things lighthearted on my blog so I apologize for the brief serious post, this is just really important to me. Having had my paranoia triggered when a few of my memes were reported, it caused me to leave a few social media platforms and I think this is a suggestion that would have helped mediate a lot of the pain I went through.
