#did system
➥“hiii! This will sound rlly weird but recently our John green fictive went dormant, and we miss him dearly. Can we get a stimboard with sciene/experiments, themes of therapy/getting better, and themes of light academia and history! Thank you so so much!~ tubbo fictive (the hexic system :)) )
Here you go! i hope you like it!
i honestly have no idea how to tag this
-Mod bonk (Ranboo Wastaken)
DID things
When someone asks if you’re okay and you answer:
yes, no, maybe, i dunno
cause everyone is feeling different things so you have no idea
For Protector Alters
You’re amazing! we love you so much. We wouldn’t be where we are without you. You are vital to you’re system!!! You’re doing an amazing job! Keep going, we need you. We know that it can be quite frustrating, but we are all grateful for you, even if it sometimes doesn’t seem like it. We love you!!
Sometimes I wish my alters had their own separate bodies so we could physically do stuff together like shopping with the girls and talk out loud to each other and try things on in our own bodies and compliment and hype each other up cause I think North would be a good hype women.
Having DID is having to always check all of your social media because who said what to your friends when you weren’t around?
Ok so antisocial me doesn’t understand this so can someone please explain. My roommate is more traumitized by the fact that she and her best friend “broke up” so to speak than the years of physical and emotional abuse she suffered. What..like how the actual fuck does that make sense??????
I’d say that neurotypicals (or people without ASPD) use friendships and social connections (can be romantic too) as bandaids for childhood trauma (or earlier traumas) so when they leave, they feel Everything Again™. (this is why their friendships are often co-dependent and… weird ?)
While we (people with ASPD) blocked out that “human thing” somehow, and nothing is enough of a “bandaid”, nor people, nor sex, nor drugs, nor destructive behaviors like starving or cutting, there’s a wall between us and completion
We can only fantasize on “far away jewels” things you can’t get in a few seconds, like power, money, success.
stimboard of my girlfriend’s self depiction !
do not tag as kin or me , this was made for a system host . her blog is linked as the source for the center image , which is an edit i made of her art .
we (singular)
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me (plural)
so since everyone in the system is good at different things, we could all get really really good at one or two things, and one of us could get good at figuring out how to switch on command
and then we’d have like twenty something cool skills that we’re really good at
and if we could switch on command, we’d have twenty or thirty skills at the ready whenever we want
come on if everyone let the host know we were a system while I was dormant, they’ve at least got to have passed some cool ideas around
-presleyy
hey so can anyone recommend me like a good, factual website to learn about systems? we’re doing a genius hour project and I know most of the stuff already, but I can’t exactly cite headspace as a source lol.
every time I think I find a good one it’s like “and endos exist” but won’t elaborate or anything. and if yall think endos exist bc of religion or something then I can’t say anything about that in school, but scientifically, they can’t exist.
anyway if a website says that, then it’s not a scientific, factual, website. so I need some to cite.
not having enough time for hobbies when you’re a system
I feel like one of the things people don’t talk about as a system is that you can’t get the body to practice your hobby often enough to be good at it?
like m. m is a cheerleader. in headspace she’s incredibly flexible and can do super cool cheerleader shit. but even if she stretched every single time she fronted, it wouldn’t be consistent enough to get the body flexible. she’s tried.
and brynn loves baking. but she doesn’t front enough to bake enough to get good at it.
the only way to have consistent hobbies is when most of the members of the system enjoy it. and even then, it’s iffy.
I have a few hobbies I’ve gotten good at, just because I’m the host, but even little things like video games are hard. yesterday we passed a video game level easily and got more lives and power ups during it. so I decided to do it again, to get more, only to fucking lose all of it, because I had no idea who was cocon and who was doing what.
anyway hobbies are hard and not enough people are complaining about it so I will
-felix
ppl really don’t talk about how embarrassing it is to cry while there’s other people sharing your body who are just staring at you
today I was in the bathroom crying because I was called a slur and alixe was co-con. just. staring at me. waiting for me to finish so we could go back to class.
he wasn’t being judgmental, but it was really really embarrassing
-felix
you ever signing off and it’s like
-felix but also larry but also mena but also annalise but also sage but also alixe
idk what singlet needs to hear this tonight but THAT INTROJECT IS NOT YOUR PERSONAL CELEBRITY MEET AND GREET
one of the most failproof ways to find out who’s cocon is think what your favorite color is
someone asked me and I immediately went “orange” and yall I’ve literally never liked orange and I figured out who it was pretty quick
-felix
our system’s fictives are like, oh yeah, you know, someone from that popular piece of media, someone from a different popular piece of media, someone from a roleplaying account, and then there’s the whole herd of alters from that one piece of media -felix
me: oh yeah, we know how many alters there are in the system
me the next day: *sighs and edits our system masterlist*
ok so this is probably going to be a long fucking post but like. we need some help. we’re very new to knowing that we’re a system and I still haven’t read up on as much syscourse as I should. but I specifically need help from people who know what they’re talking about with poc alters.
ok. so here’s the deal. I’m the host. I look like the body.
the body is not white. the body is mixed. very, very mixed. we’re like ¾ white I think. the other fourth is mostly hawaiian (also a little asian. we’re not comletely sure). if we never go outside, we’re white passing and look tan, and if we get tan, we aren’t white passing anymore.
so here’s the deal. most of the human alters are white. we live in idaho and I never knew anyone that wasn’t white so I barely knew that poc existed. so most of the alters are white.
then there’s me. I identify with the body, and I identify with the body’s race.
and then there’s another alter. he doesn’t like being online much (I did get permission to ask about this) so I’m not going to mention his name. but.
he’s hawaiian. my parents didn’t teach us much about the culture or really anything. but when they did, he always always fronted. that’s one of the only things that he fronts for. and whenever my parents told the body to be proud of our hawaiian ancestry, he was the one they were telling. and he’s 100% hawaiian, and none of us know what to do with that.
because a lot of people say that you can have poc alters but they aren’t poc past the headspace because they can’t understand racism?
but our alter does. because he also fronts for when people are racist toward the body. he was there when we went to hawai'i and visited the room where our princess was kept. he was there when someone assumed we were white and told us to call off our vacation to hawai'i in the first place because of how rude native hawaiians are.
and he was there when we looked at the family tree, specifically the family tree of our hawaiian ancestors, because my mom wanted to show me which ones were cast out of there homes when america took over.
except he’s less white than the body. and he’s got the cultural things that my parents have said that we would’ve had if we grew up in hawai'i (like you know the tattoos and stuff)
and idk what to do?? so many people have talked about poc alters in white bodies and poc systems and shit but I don’t think I’ve seen anyone talk about a situation similar to this??
it’s so much easier to procrastinate things when you don’t know which of you actually agreed to do the thing and you can’t choose when you communicate -felix
ace-specs who have problems with dissociation, have dissociative episodes, have a dissociative disorder, and/or are part of a system are amazing and beautiful and their asexuality is hella valid <3
hahahah
man
you ever have that system moment were you wanna say you would rather never have D.I.D because of how bad it is but when you actually look at it you don’t know how you even COULD live without it because you’ve lived with it long enough and you lived with these people through a lot of things and more in the future to the point you’re friends or at least annoying family who could even hate you but you can’t live without them because you simply lived with them so much
me and my gf! (I’m left she’s right)
(Pls click for better quality)
[ID: Pixel art of two girls holding hands and resting their heads on each other, with sunflowers and daises above them, and bubbles next to them, with a baby blue background. The one on the left has blonde hair in pigtails and bangs, and is wearing white overalls with a yellow shirt. The one on the right has brown curly hair and pink overalls and a white shirt. The one on the left has a lesbian flag to her left, and the one on the right has a bi flag to her right. They heckin love eachother. End ID.]
my favorite thing about being a weightlifting lesbian who is also 5 feet tall and looks pretty normal is being at the gym and making eye contact with huge men and casually squatting 250
Once this straight bot kept INSISTING to help me carry 4 twelve packs of cokes and I kept being like it’s ok!! while carrying 2 in each hand and not breaking a sweat and I think he died a little
Can we please fucking start getting mad about ableism like we have about sexism, racism, homophobia, etc. any other oppressed group?
We are easy to forget bc we literally live in a world that hides us away.
This needs to be a fucking group effort that includes abled people fighting.
I accidentally deleted a post when I wanted to edit it.
I’m sorry
However,
This is new version of my drawing
Hope you like it
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