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The future is unknown. It is not worth knowing, because if the future is known then the future is established and therefore, not ours to create.
World Mental Health Day
Today is world mental health day
This years focus is Suicide prevention.
For years I suffered with my mental health. I’ve lost people to suicide and I’ve attempted it myself. It’s scary saying that but it’s the truth.
I want to focus on the good that I have in my life at the moment as I’ve spent years only seeing the negative.
* I’ve had interviews for a new job (got the one job, waiting to hear on the other).
* I’m learning to drive, finally
* My flat feels like home, after redecorating extensively
* I’ve been in a relationship for nearly 4 years
* I’ve been discharged from the mental health team for over 2 months
* I’m on a good antidepressant
* I’m back playing sport
* I’m planning my future
* I’m loving volunteering
* I have amazing friends and family
What I’m saying is that I hit rock bottom, I saw no way out, I tried to end it all, I hated my life, I hated myself. BUT I’m here right now telling you I never thought I would be so happy. I love who I am right now, I’m a kind, caring, determined, feisty, passionate person who still suffers with depression some days but I wake up and fight, I work hard to make every day great.
Suicide is a real issue in our society, we need to be open about it. We need to be able to talk openly. I spent years hiding my illnesses but it did me no good.
I am not ashamed to say I attempted Suicide, I was not selfish, I was not inconsiderate… I was sick!
If you are in a dark place right now, please seek help. Find a good friend, ring a support line, see your GP, message me, knock on my door, find something to hold onto.
If you’re low, that’s okay, we are all struggling with something. But don’t feel low alone!
You mean something to someone. You will be missed
KEEP TALKING
KEEP OPENING UP
♡ my heart goes out to everyone who is always in a fight or flight mode, who is restless and constantly programmed to wait for something bad to happen, those who are stuck in a depriving/abusive/uncomfortable environment. gosh i pray with my entire heart and soul for your safety. i pray that u get all the love and softness and care u deserve. i pray that your heart becomes calm, i hope u get affection, i hope u get peace. ilysm ♡