I feel like the end of this year has been the very least thing I was expecting. I feel lost in all senses as I haven’t anything stable in my life and this time I am afraid.

I can’t find it… I think I’ve lost that special place I go to when I want to forget the rest of the world.

E.G. wandering

i used to not like ddlg and now it’s kind of growing on me? i thought i couldn’t be corrupted more than i already was but damn tumblr, you made it lmao

I am okay

I already am.

Damaged.

“the v o i d”

“she’s lost”

“calloused”

“self-dehumanized”

I hate ptsd so much. I fucking hate it so much. I hate being triggered by someone I care for. I hate how ptsd affects me so much.

i spent too much time out of tumblr, now everybody changed their urls and i don’t know anyone help

do not smoke they said.. hah