I have ignored this part of me, this big, curious, wondrous, part of me, for far too long. Since I was a very young girl, mysticism has called to me. Some of it my mother would allow, some I tried to channel through Christianity, but most of what I was drawn to was considered shameful, wrong, a sin. I have done the scholarly feminist work of dismantling patriarchal systems of belief like Christianity and that has helped me shed old ideas and values that I don’t believe in, but the mystical continued to be pushed aside in my mind. Academics doesn’t exactly embrace mysticism as a real possibility as much as uses it simply as one form of thought, instead of a form of belief. Now I have finished graduate school. I’ve done the cold, critical, academic thinking and it left my heart feeling empty, my soul lost.
It’s not that mystic thinking isn’t possible in academics, but it’s very hard to incorporate, especially from the level of a master’s student (as opposed to an established scholar). Academics took away the time I needed to be spending with my spirituality. Beyond time, it’s old patriarchal system of knowledge building stole away the power-within, the passion, the knowledge that we all hold within ourselves. Academics doubts your knowledge until you can prove it by mastering the knowledge of others, publish in their journals, and climb their version of a corporate latter. But enough about academics…
I am going to give my soul the trust, the time, the devotion to actually follow my pull into the mystic world. So far, the tarot has been my greatest call. The cards have been speaking such encouraging, loving words to me along this journey. I am building confidence in myself, in my craft, and in what I truly believe in. It feels so right, it feels so fatefully right to be heading down this path.
Soon there will be proof that our doctors have been giving death to all life, that so-called soldiers have been destroying the earth and instead of protecting her, and that the intellectual caged-birds have been devouring worms laced with truth and feeding the world shit instead.
“In allowing her boundaries to be penetrated from within by an emerging Other, the Goddess demonstrated her true creativity. She became the universal Mother. This crucial moment of birth was synonymous with creation, according to the ancient concept. This was the moment when the Goddess (not the emerging God) said, ‘Let there be light,’ because the eyes of her newborn first perceived the light of existence, as he himself might become the light of fire or the sun. In the classical world, the Goddess had names like Juno Lucina or Diana Lucifera, the Bringer of Light. From her the biblical Yahweh copied his Fiat lux.
“The god’s birth was celebrated each year at midwinter. The nocturnal festival was known as the Night of the Mother to pre-Christian Britons, which may explain why Christmas Eve (the time of the actual birth) carried even more significance in Old England than Christmas Day. In Alexandria, the god’s birth was hailed by joyful shouts: ‘The Virgin (Kore) has given birth! The light grows!’ The naked image of the divine birth-giving Virgin was decorated with gold stars and carried seven times around the temple.
“Just as, in pagan belief, creation was a birth, so every birth was a new creation. Each year the Aeon or year-god was reborn from the eternally virgin, eternally maternal Goddess. Thus, at the mystic point of creation itself, the graphic symbol of the Mother became three broken lines, while that of her son-spouse was three solid lines.
“Male and female triangles, one separated, came together again in a very ancient figure that later rounded off to the mathematical symbol of infinity in so-called Arabic numerals, which were actually Hindu in origin. The two tangential circles or teardrop shapes of this sign meant the same as two tangential triangles: the two sexes in contact (Fig. 5). The female triangle above now took on the aspect of a nourishing breast, while the male received her nourishment.
“This was also taken as a sexual sign, in unconscious but nevertheless real recognition of the connection between adult sexuality and bond between mother and infant. According to Tantric symbolism, the female triangle was placed above the male, who then assumed all forms of relationship with her: offspring, twin, spouse, and eventually sacrificial victim, as he became the eternally dying-and-reborn god, similar to Osiris, Attis, Dionysus, Adonis, Orpheus, Yama, and so on. Therefore Tantric yogis and their shaktis (priestesses) favored female-superior sexual positions, which Vedic and Confucian patriarchs condemned because of their association with the Old Religion that they wanted to erase. Though this style of lovemaking was instituted by Shiva as Universal God and the original ‘daughters of the sages’ (shaktis), patriarchal Brahman priests insisted that it was a perversion” (p17-18).
Glyph from Barbara Walker‘s The I Ching of the Goddess
Master shaman who explores the role of mysticism, spiritualism and religious rituals in the human quest for safety, survival and certainty. Known for her earlier works that examine those who dwell in the interstices of identity, Saar here creates fantastically invented narratives of soothsayers and seers who use amulets, bones and tinctures to fix what is broken, find what is lost, or cure all manner of maladies.
Sunstone is a joyful, warm and energising stone. It is particularly helpful for lifting sadness and depression. It can lift dark moods and is reputed to be particularly beneficial in treating Seasonal Affective Disorder.
Physically Sunstone can stimulate the autonomic nervous system and enhance balanced functioning of the body’s organs. It can be beneficial in cases of exhaustion and is also helpful for treating cartilage problems, rheumatism and general aches and pains. It can also treat stomach ulcers and also chronic sore throats. Sunstone can encourage self-healing.
Mentally Sunstone can help to overcome procrastination and enables action to be taken immediately. It can provide the necessary energy and stamina to carry out tasks that seem quite overwhelming.
Emotionally Sunstone encourages optimism and is particularly helpful for overcoming depression. It helps its owner to value and nurture oneself. Sunstone encourages originality and independence and alleviates fear. It can also bestow leadership qualities on its owner. Sunstone also reverses feelings of failure and promotes good humour, cheerfulness and a balanced temperament. It boosts self-confidence and can bring severe or repressed emotions to the surface so that they can be cleared away.
Spiritually Sunstone is associated to the solar plexus chakra, using Sunstone can help to alleviate any problems relating to blockages in the solar plexus chakra. Sunstone can also help to cleanse all other chakras and bestow light and energy. Sunstone is said to be a stone of good luck and abundance as it was traditionally linked to benevolent gods. Sunstone can heighten intuition and can also be particularly helpful in meditation.
“Holistic Tarot: An Integrative Approach to Using Tarot for Personal Growth”byBenebell Wen
“Folk Witchcraft: A Guide to Lore, Land, and the Familiar Spirit for the Solitary Practitioner”byRoger J. Horne
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“DMT: The Spirit Molecule” byRick Strassman, M.D.
“Weave the Liminal: Living Modern Traditional Witchcraft”and“Sigil Witchery: A Witch’s Guide to Crafting Magick Symbols”byLaura Tempest Zakroff
“Six Ways: Approaches & Entries for Practical Magic”and “Weaving Fate: Hypersigils, Changing the Past & Telling True Lies”byAidan Wachter
“High Magick: A Guide to Cannabis in Ritual and Mysticism”byPhilip H. Farber
“Angel Tech: A Modern Shaman’s Guide to Reality Selection”byAntero Alli
“Financial Sorcery: Magical Strategies to Create Real and Lasting Wealth”,“Protection & Reversal Magick”, and “The Sorcerer’s Secrets”byJason Miller
“Touched by Fire”,“Two Worlds & Inbetween”, and “Walking Between the Worlds”by Phil Hine
“The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles”byStephen Pressfield
“You Are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life”byJen Sincero
“Blink: The Power of Thinking Without Thinking”byMalcolm Gladwell
“Healing your Emotional Self: A Powerful Program to Help you Raise your Self-Esteem, Quiet your Inner Critic, and Overcome your Shame”byBeverly Engel
“Quantum Psychology”byRobert Anton Wilson
“The Essential Skills of Magick”byBenjamin Rowe
“The Psychonaut’s Field Manual”byBluefluke
“Lucid Dreaming: A Beginner’s Guide On How To Control Your Dreams With Different Techniques”byAustin Knight
“Creating the Person You Want to Be: NLP: The Essential Guide to Neuro-Linguistic Programming”byTom Hoobyar, Tom Dotz,andSusan Sanders
“Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche”byRobert A. Johnson
“In the lives of many women, particularly those, like Lutgard, who had experienced physical (especially sexual) brutality, the touch of Christ’s body came as a healing experience to replace all other touching, which was abhorrent.”
Der Tod hat sich in sie verliebt, er lässt ihr keine Ruh. Er schaut sie an bei Tag und Nacht und raunt ihr leise zu. „Du bist so weiß du bist so schön ich rühr dich niemals an. Ich werd jetzt immer bei dir geh’n ich bin dein rechter Mann“
Und meistens geht er neben ihr, manchmal eilt er voraus. Er bietet täglich ihr den Arm doch noch schlägt sie ihn aus. Es ist der Mann den sie gesucht doch finden durften nie. In seiner Nähe spielt für sie die schönste Melodie.
Der Tod hat sich in sie verliebt, er schaut sie immer an In seiner Nähe fühlt sie sich ganz sicher und ganz warm Und meistens geht er neben ihr, manchmal eilt er voraus Er bietet stündlich ihr den Arm doch noch schlägt sie ihn aus.
Der Tod hat sich in sie verliebt er schaut sie immer an. In seiner Nähe fühlt sie sich ganz sicher und ganz warm. Der Tod hat sich in sie verliebt er lässt ihr keine Ruh. Er schaut sie an bei Tag und Nacht und jetzt lässt sie es zu – sie lässt es zu.
