Biggest weight loss motivation is the fact that I have swimming for PE next year and I will end it all if anyone from school is going to see me in a bathing suit before I loose like 20 pounds 

Just bought a new bikini :)

Height: 1,69 m / ~5'7"

SW / HW: 158 lbs / 71,6 kg

CW : 139 lbs / 63,0 kg

LW: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

GW 1: 140 lbs / 63,5 lbs

GW 2: 130 lbs / 58,9 kg

GW 3: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

UGW 110 lbs / 49,9 kg

I have been maintaining for like 4 days and if I dont see that number going down tomorrow I am going to fucking lose it

Someone telling you its visible you lost weight >>>>>>

I hate how skinny my equally as eating disordered friend is. So jealous

Maybe he’ll finally pay attention to me when I look like I am dying

The first reaction to every minor inconvenience in my life is to starve myself

Jeans I bought at my lowest weight fit again :)))))

Another fast complete

I havent eaten in four days and I never felt so close to passing out and so powerful at the same time

I like my legs in this pic

Recently have been talking with a friend about our eating disorders and now I just feel super guilty everytime I eat because I feel like need to do better than him and restrict more :/

For those who‘ve been wondering where I‘ve been:

• If you haven‘t seen my post: I almost fainted in public and had multiple panic attacks after that, worried a lot about my health but also in a unhealthy way (fear of bacteria, hypochondric etc)
• My phone broke :(
• I binged for like 2 months, gained 7kg
• Started dieting 3 weeks ago, started a thinspo page on insta <3

Just a rant post

‼MENTIONS ED,Self harm, Suicidal thoughts ‼

Iv recently had a lot on my mind and no one I can share with… and I feel like I’m gonna lose it! But I could never cause eather it would cause alot of trouble or I dont really wanna do anything about it… I just want someone to… know.

So heres a list of things I wish I could tell people and who I wish I could tell.

• I still cut my self- Anyone
• I can feel my ed getting stronger and stronger everyday, and I like it-Anyone
• I’m really starting to hate you and your so selfish and annoying and you always make things about you and I really dont want to deal with you anymore- Best friend
• Your mentally abusive and never let me make my own decisions making me feel trapped and I cant wait to get away from you- Mom
• I honestly can’t stand you- Middle Big sister
• It’s getting harder and harder to get outta bed and keep going- Anyone

Any live kik, discord, snapchat, insta, ect ed chats?? I need friends

I really need to get better at self control

It’s been a while since iv fasted/restricted since I went through a idgaf period of my ed

But now I lost all self control! It’s so hard! If yall can tell me somthings yall do to control ur hunger that would help!!

Just started a 1 week fast to get back into things