#anxitey

Sorry guys I dissapeared for awhile. I went to treatment and couldnt remember my fucking password

You know your anxiety gets too much and you should probably see someone when the only reason you’re able to calm down and get to sleep is because your streamer (this time it was tubbo a lot of the time it’s Ranboo because time zones) starts a stream or Twitter space that u listen to as u try to sleep

Yh I should probably see someone but I’m too anxious about talking to people lmao

Ok so at the moment I’m working at McDonald’s won’t be much longer as I’ve given in my two weeks but in my opinion if u have social anxiety or think you might like I do I say don’t try and work there I’ve been there since March and my mental health has severely decreased and my friends who have anxiety like professionally diagnosed have said mine is worse than theirs at the minute.

Now I’m not saying don’t you might be ok there but I personally am not. Like I’m fine with the work it’s just when I’m there having a panic attack or having a panic attack while getting ready or the night before that keeps me awake it’s not good.

Just my personal experience I probably should have tried somewhere else but I thought oh I’m just a little shy I’ll be fine after a few weeks but it just got worse

You used to tell me you loved me

Yet you showed me otherwise

Now I can’t trust anyone

I keep thinking they all lie

I didn’t deserved that

Yet you made me think that I did

God, I wish I never spoke

Now I gotta wash my mouth out with soap

I miss not being sad all the time