#lonley
“ I should except the fact that I will never be okay”
- ttwj
Feeling
I haven’t self harm in a few years and that good and great but I still struggle with it and I hate it when something bad happens or I mess up the first thing I think about is bringing my self pain I feel like I deserve it for messing up. When I took a step and said I was gonna stop I thought the temptation was going to go away at some point ya know? I hate that I’m still dealing with this it makes it harder and harder every time I really just want to give in I really want to just feel something.. I’m really tired of of just being numb all day I’m so lonely and I really miss feeling something 
But if you leave, you can I’ll remember You, though.. I remember everyone that leaves
There’s 7 billion 47 million people on the planet and I still feel like my life doesn’t matter to anyone
I can’t act like I don’t feel anything for you
It’s difficult for me to imagine the rest of my life without you. But I suppose I don’t have to imagine it… I just have to live it
I just…I just miss her. And I hate being so alone.
Marriage Story (2019)
Sometimes we think that strong people never cry, instead they are those who cry the most, those who have made sensitivity their strength, have made pain their courage, loneliness their hope.
