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Dear Epilepsy,
Hi, how are you? I hope you’re good because I’m not. Why you ask? Because of you. You have taken my freedoms away and have left me with bruises and scars. You give me headaches everyday. You give me people staring when I have a seizure. The whispers, their freak outs, the pounding heart, the body tremors, the fear, the memory loss, ugh don’t get me started on that. People think I’m just stupid for not remembering things but it’s because of you. Because of you my memory sucks, I can’t remember things I learn in class but I’m still getting good grades, I’m trying to push you away but you keep trying harder to stay in my life. You make me sad. I can’t drive, I live in fear of having a bad seizure every day I wake up and every night before I close my eyes to sleep. As much as I hate you, I think about you a lot. You give me unwanted attention. You’ve made my family life awkward. My family finds you awkward so they don’t talk to me about it, they ignore my cries for help. They don’t understand that I have to take medication to try to get rid of you that makes me more moody at times, and they just make it worse. I’m tired of feeling tired all the time. I just want to live a normal life, like it was before what happened at Kairos. I was so pure until you came in my life. You make people talk about me faking you because you don’t make me fall over and convulse like they think that’s what epilepsy is, but you’re far from it, you’re real, a real monster. But I just want to tell you now, I will get rid of you, you will die soon and you won’t be able to bother me anymore. No matter how much you try to make my life harder I’m just going to continue to push through because I am stronger than you and someday I will prove that. Have a good day cause I hope I won’t be seeing you in my life in the near future.
Sam
Everyone says you should love yourself before you can love anyone else.
Well, I do.
I love myself enough to know that:
- I deserve better.
- I shouldn’t have to be alone.
- I would be a very loving boyfriend/husband to the right girl.
- I shouldn’t have to suffer and have to continue this unfair life where I only see everyone else (even shitty assholes) get love besides me.
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Actions speak louder than words.
Inaction speaks even louder.
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Choose any dirty sock of mine you want!
Never Appreciated
I try to be the perfect daughter,
But I’m never appreciated.
I try to be a perfect girlfriend,
But I’m never appreciated.
I try to be a perfect student,
But I’m never appreciated.
I try to be the perfect celloist,
But I’m never appreciated.
I try to be the perfect sister,
But I’m never appreciated.
I try to be a perfect healthy person,
But I’m never appreciated.
I can’t.
Why?
‘Cause I have wings.
But they’re invisible…
And I can’t fly
Aries: being ignored
Taurus: change
Gemini: being alone
Cancer: rejection
Leo: being humiliated publicly
Virgo: being bullied
Libra: not having friends
Scorpio: betrayal/disloyalty
Sagittarius: commitment
Capricorn: not being good enough
Aquarius: being replaced
Pisces: not achieving their dreams
Isn’t it ironic how the world knows that I’m in love with you, except you.
Mae, you have no idea
I was drowning and you just stared expecting me to learn how to swim.
Mae, drowned
Maybe I’m not invisible, maybe I’m excruciatingly visible and just completely ignored.
For starting a new day