#self hate
Nobody cares,
My fate is irrelevant to all,
Nobody will miss me when I am gone,
So what is the point?
Nobody likes me,
Everyone wants me gone,
Nobody wants for me to stay,
I see no point.
My mind wins,
I no longer care,
No one wants me,
I see it as a favour to them.
I bleed out,
My body weak,
My heart not beating,
I am gone.
Only now have I realised people care,
People sob over my death,
Begging it to all be a dream,
Only I will never return.
I killed myself in the thought no one cared,
But people did,
The only one who didn’t care was me.
Now I am gone nothing will be the same.
Don’t hate yourself,
Your life is worthy,
Your pain may be real now, But the storm will pass.
Accept yourself,
Forgive yourself,
We all make mistakes,
But you don’t need to hate yourself for them.
Things are hard now,
We all face rough patches,
But in the end the rainbows are worth it,
Stay strong.
- A message to anyone struggling
Some days are hard.
Some days,I can’t. I can’t stand myself. I can’t cope with the idea of living with myself. I can’t look at the mirror without crying. Some days, when I look at myself, I only see “fat”, “ugly”, “stupid”, “not funny”, “worthless”, “dumb”, “useless” and it’s unbearable. Because at these days, I hate myself so much… And it hurts so bad that I literally shut myself down.
Some days, I don’t understand. I don’t understand what my family sees in me. I don’t understand what my friends like about me. I don’t understand how such amazing people could ever tolerate me. I don’t understand how people could want to be with me, because I’m such a shitty worthless garbage.
Yesterday was hard.
SOMETIMES I REALLY FEEL LIKE I’VE ALWAYS SPENT MY LIFE DYING AND I ALWAYS WILL.
