#thinspr0
today has all been about the way i look and EDs in everyone and every1 worrying for some1 that isn’t me i’m so tired why can’t i ever reach for help im at my serious limit i hate this so much i know i don’t show signs iknow it’s my fault it always is why am i always like this why can’t i be normal why why why why can’t i b a good s/o whag is wrong w me i’m genuinely so close to killing mshelf there’s always something wrong w me
man i wanna die
when i’m at my best i say : i fucking hate this illness!!!!!
when i’m at my worse i say : I HAVENT EATEN IN 48HOURS WOOOHOOOOOOO
happy ( well more unhappy ) 1y to me developing my 3rd ED
i started getting acne all over my chin like rlly bad acne so i started overdrinking again n now i relapsed
my life is a never ending cycle of
relapse —> pass out —> stop caring —> relapse again
woahhhhh huge urge to kms all of a sudden
CAUSE IM ANOREXIC MY GUY WHY ELSE LMFAOOOO
never ending cycle
IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFF YEAH YEAHHHHHY
anorexia made me crazy but the bones r worth it
when i wanna cry i just go on tumblr and look at my collarbone n then all of a sudden everything’s alright
i’m going to kill myself ( affirmation )
i love cassie cause she’s JUST LIKE ME, likes yes girl i have anorexia n self murder thoughts too n go for horrible ppl too n want to run away to nyc too like yassss
having anorexia is so funny like ur telling me when im at my **technical** worst im having the most fun ever cause im skinny? like yes ik im doing technically HORRIBLE rn but im having fun at the same time
i’ve been losing weight like crazy n i can tell even physically n it’s AMAZINGGGG i’ve yelled from excitement soooo many times
LIKE OMGGGG I CAN SEE MY ARMS BONES N MY COLLARBONES R SOOOO NOTICABLE N U CAN SEE MY RIBCAGE + HIPBONES WHEN IM LAYING DOEN THIS IS AMAZINGGGGG
I finally get the bracelet that I’ve been wanting for over a year now which was when I first tried it on and it was ✨PERFECT ✨
Fast forward to now… and it doesn’t fit, it’s way too big and that’s the smallest size they do and now I can’t have the bracelet I’ve been wanting.
The thing is, this has really upset me. Yes I want to lose as much weight as I can and be as small as I can but the realisation of not being able to have nice things because they’re “too big” for you is crushing
I don’t know if anyone else has found this and how you’ve dealt with the situation
A “Fast” is the worst name possible. Not eating for 36 hours always feels very slow to me
Anyone else say their stomach is just off when it grumbles so other people don’t know it’s because you’re hungry and restricting?
Does anyone else feel so guilty when you find yourself looking forward to a meal?
Progress update for this week:
Goal: lose 10 lb this week and drink more water
Sat (24th): 117lb
Sun(25th): 115lb
Mon(26th): 113lb
Tues(27th): 112lb
…will update in future
