#i just wanna be thin

to all the girls/guys on this app trying to cope with an ed, PLEASE be careful of the people on here that ask to be your “ana coach” and ask for body checks because they fetishize eds. 

ily stay safe <3

not me trying to convince myself that I like my coffee black..

Its really sweet of her.. I just hate having to make up a new lie every time she asks and it gives me anxiety that she’s going to find out. 

If anyone needed motivation to drink water

I made a meme

09.01.21 update

Fasted all day and exercised by stationary cycling for and hour and a half, burned about 700 cals :)

Total intake: -700cals

Curious as to what y’all think about Eugenia Cooney?

Went out to dinner with my bf to break a 30 hour fast and after I dropped him off at his house I pulled over and threw up everything I could.

My eyes are swollen and puffy now, and I still feel guilty for eating.

My bf sent me this and idk how to feel. He doesn’t know ab my ed.

My fav fav fav thinspo is the ones where they’re so skinny that their jeans don’t fit their waist I want this so bad.

call me eli the way i approximate the amount of calories in a meal

i’ve tried venting to my bf but yeah nevermind, tumblr will do the trick for now n 4ever

i b mad when workout burn but i cry when they don’t

my bf was genuinely the only thing holding me back from relapsing from this ED but oh well!!!! ramadan is soon anyways i can easily hide it

i honestly thought the abc diet was randomly named that and had no other meaning behind it for so long

my bf asked for my weight n when i asked why he basically said it was to use me as f@@tsp0000 i’m so done

today has all been about the way i look and EDs in everyone and every1 worrying for some1 that isn’t me i’m so tired why can’t i ever reach for help im at my serious limit i hate this so much i know i don’t show signs iknow it’s my fault it always is why am i always like this why can’t i be normal why why why why can’t i b a good s/o whag is wrong w me i’m genuinely so close to killing mshelf there’s always something wrong w me

man i wanna die

when i’m at my best i say : i fucking hate this illness!!!!!

when i’m at my worse i say : I HAVENT EATEN IN 48HOURS WOOOHOOOOOOO

happy ( well more unhappy ) 1y to me developing my 3rd ED

i started getting acne all over my chin like rlly bad acne so i started overdrinking again n now i relapsed

my life is a never ending cycle of

relapse —> pass out —> stop caring —> relapse again

woahhhhh huge urge to kms all of a sudden

CAUSE IM ANOREXIC MY GUY WHY ELSE LMFAOOOO

never ending cycle

IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFF YEAH YEAHHHHHY

anorexia made me crazy but the bones r worth it

when i wanna cry i just go on tumblr and look at my collarbone n then all of a sudden everything’s alright

i’m going to kill myself ( affirmation )

i love cassie cause she’s JUST LIKE ME, likes yes girl i have anorexia n self murder thoughts too n go for horrible ppl too n want to run away to nyc too like yassss

having anorexia is so funny like ur telling me when im at my **technical** worst im having the most fun ever cause im skinny? like yes ik im doing technically HORRIBLE rn but im having fun at the same time