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you have no idea how badly i wanna smoke a cigarette right now oh my god

Omg I’m so fat time to literally ✨starve✨ myself❤️

21 hours into my fast someone gimme words of motivation!

hey guys.

i’m in a spiral of losing myself. constant binges, i mean. i’m all for recovery but i’m asking for tips and tricks and rules that any of you have.

so please, please dm me or comment on this post if you have anything. stay safe. i love you all.

questions for the ED community

1) does anyone in your family know about your disorder?

2) have you ever been for outpatient therapy?

3)have you ever been for inpatient therapy?

4)how long have you had your ed for?

5)do you consider your ED something of a friend?

6) what does it feel like to actually be at your gw

7)if you could be anything in the world other than “skinny” what would it be? (childhood dreams etc)

8) does anyone else in your family have eds?

9)have you hit rock bottom of your ed, if so why was it your rock bottom?

10)how has your eds effected your relationships?

11)what have you had to give up for your ed?

Would y’all be interested in me posting some of the stuff I learn from therapy? I know a lot of us don’t have access to this kinda stuff and I’m a big advocate for talk therapy in certain situations. It’s helped me learn about myself and it’s made life easier to get through.

I just started up therapy again and my therapist is really damn good. I had my second session today and had THREE “Aw shit that’s why my brain does the thing” moments. It’s been v nice.

If you think that’s be something you’d want to show up on your dash like, once a week then interact or drop a like on this post❤️

I don’t know who I thought I was making a exercise plan saying I was going to exercise for an hour .

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Not me loosing weight and then

binging and purging all weekend

I have no idea if i’ve lost now, probably maintained

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Weighed myself yesterday and found out I was 165

This was really really really hard for me

especially considering before I recovered I was 95 lbs

And because i’ve been fasting for a long time and lost ~20 lbs so far

So basically

Im gonna continue fasting during the week and limit myself to 100 cal on the weekends until the problem is gone haha.

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Fasting is all fun and games until

you have to go up a flight of stairs

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Using body checks of myself pre-recovery as thinspo hits different I can’t even

when i finally consider recovery my body decides to be repulsed by the thought of food <3 nice

Tw:

It 1:41AM :) and I’ve realized I’ve been barely trying to recover. I won a brownie because I wrote the best short story in class and I had a mini panic attack because I didn’t wanna eat it but I also won it and it’d be rude if I didn’t… I ended up giving it to my friend :/

call me eli the way i approximate the amount of calories in a meal

i’ve tried venting to my bf but yeah nevermind, tumblr will do the trick for now n 4ever

i b mad when workout burn but i cry when they don’t

my bf was genuinely the only thing holding me back from relapsing from this ED but oh well!!!! ramadan is soon anyways i can easily hide it

i honestly thought the abc diet was randomly named that and had no other meaning behind it for so long

my bf asked for my weight n when i asked why he basically said it was to use me as f@@tsp0000 i’m so done

today has all been about the way i look and EDs in everyone and every1 worrying for some1 that isn’t me i’m so tired why can’t i ever reach for help im at my serious limit i hate this so much i know i don’t show signs iknow it’s my fault it always is why am i always like this why can’t i be normal why why why why can’t i b a good s/o whag is wrong w me i’m genuinely so close to killing mshelf there’s always something wrong w me

man i wanna die

when i’m at my best i say : i fucking hate this illness!!!!!

when i’m at my worse i say : I HAVENT EATEN IN 48HOURS WOOOHOOOOOOO

happy ( well more unhappy ) 1y to me developing my 3rd ED

i started getting acne all over my chin like rlly bad acne so i started overdrinking again n now i relapsed

my life is a never ending cycle of

relapse —> pass out —> stop caring —> relapse again

woahhhhh huge urge to kms all of a sudden

CAUSE IM ANOREXIC MY GUY WHY ELSE LMFAOOOO

never ending cycle

IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFF YEAH YEAHHHHHY

anorexia made me crazy but the bones r worth it

1,8kg more and i’m gonna be finally underweight!!!!! so excited omg!!!!

i hate it when i fast for the whole day and i see the same number on the scale next morning://