#tw ana vent

I felt so fuckin Bad because i ate these two low Carb pieces of flan i was like… alright im infront of a binge . Lets rather eat a little bit more than eat a whole pack of chocolate in a few days . But like… damn i cryd so much in the evening .

I forgott Posteing yesterday eating diary. Sorry .

Ate :270 kcal

Burned :276 kcal

I lost 600g over night huff , im so relieved. If my calculation is going to be true , im at 43 in 5 months . ( i counted 200 g per day . It could also be faster. )

i’m back to report that the relationship with my mom is now irrepairable and due to all this stress i gained a kg in a few days

but to share some god news i’m in the final round of the selection process of a scholarship program that would allow me to spend a yeer in the us for free the closer it gets the less i want to go actually as i wouldn’t be out of reach for my parents or any parent so just moving by myself seems more appealing but also i literally have no idea how i’d make enough money for rent

enough for now we’ll see anyway

more good news: i started pole dancing and it’s a whole lot of fun also if shit hits the fan i still could be a stripper lol the new sport actually gives me a lot of motivation to get my shit together i want to do high res (800 cals) plus a workout that burns around 550 cals and stretching every day except sunday wednesday and friday as those are already training days

i just want a slender body and hollow cheeks that’s all i want

i need to be really pragmatic about food it’s there to fuel my body not to please me duh