yandere-cutie:

Sometimes I still wonder what you’re up to, how you’re doing, and if you’ve learned your lesson. But then I remember that it’s better for both of us if I don’t know.

I try to tell myself that it isn’t wasted time

That I learned valuable lessons in those years

But now, looking back, when all that seems to remain is bad memories and empty promises,

I wish I could rewind my days like an old VCR tape

Realize sooner that I was living a lie

I’m still fucked up from the ideas you put into my head, and I really wish I could just

Erase them

Record over every word you said to me

But who would I be without the heartbreak?

Without the lies and pain and tears?

Without the nights spent staring at the ceiling, wondering how I was so fucking blind?

I carry the scars from our past around with me everywhere I go

The doubt etched so deep into my skin that I fear it won’t ever fade away

Because even after years without you, I’m still so scared, so terrified that

The things you did to me are happening again, right under my nose

Without a shred of evidence, the past can convince me that my present is all a lie

An impossible dream that will end if I look too closely at the details

And honestly, looking back at the things you did, the things you hid from me for so long,

I think anyone would be scared to press play

If I were Icarus, and you were the sun,

My wings would stretch against time to touch you.

My skin would crack and wither;

Your warmth like the pressure of gravity.

My face droops and falls; I am so close to your awesomeness,

I can feel it creeping into my viens.

Your fingers reach out to give drink to my parched tongue,

And I shatter; I burst.

How wonderful you must be, for me to rip out your heart, and for you to say “thank you, I needed that.”

Lingering feelings left tracks down your face, tears dripping off your cheek with a blink, the wetness swelling in your eyes again as you stare at me.

“Some things are meant to break,” I say, feeling my chest start to rip in two, warm blood seeping from the fresh wound.

I feel my pulse start to slow, and as the red liquid pools at my feet, I look up at you, your face contorted with rage.

I reach for you, but with just a brush of my fingertips, you shatter into a million pieces.

I wake up, gasping for breath, my heart fluttering in my chest much too quickly. I turn around to reach for you, for reassurance that it was all just a dream, but I am met with a cold spot on my pillow and an empty space next to me. Tears flood my vision as I realize that, although it was just a dream,

It is all too real

I did’t understand when someone told me, “my heart is broken”, or “my heart hurts”. I didn’t know, I really didn’t understand untill to this day. My heart hurts!!!, it hurts so much that I can’t breathe! I can’t sleep! I can’t eat! My heart literally hurts. I miss you, I need you … I’m not perfect and I’ll never be, I love you! I love you so intense and crazy. My body, my mind and my heart miss you … please forgive me! Please accept me as I am With my failures! With my mistakes! With my follies! So I accept you! I go crazy for moments, I know! But understand me, as I understand you! I love you! And that’s the only thing that matters to me! I love you, don’t leave me! Hug me! kiss me! Challenge me when I’m wrong! But please don’t leave me! don’t let me fall! I will support you whenever you need it! But Hold me you too! I am not perfect and I will never be. But I love you like I never love anyone else in my entire life. forgive me please! Please!

You taught me what true love actually felt like. Then you refused to give it to me.

“I found a way to erase you from my head, I just need to find my pulse again.”

Original Quote By RumourTalks