#lonely
sullen(adj.)
/ˈsələn/
:bad-tempered and sulky; gloomy.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me
i can feel the distance
like the smell of rain on the wind
when the earth is cracked and dry
just be over so i can breathe again
lately I’ve been questioning everything
and nothing makes sense
i wake up emotionless
and fall asleep in pain
just be over so i can breathe again
is being alive a privilege
when the world is hurting
or have i doomed myself
to fall like jericho?
just be over so i can breathe again
just be over so i don’t breathe again
- j.
melancholy(adj.)
mel·an·choly | \ ˈme-lən-ˌkä-lē
: suggestive or expressive of sadness or depression of mind or spirit
days of rain without the sun
waking up in the middle of the night
alone beside you
tears running down my face
your hand on mine
but lightyears away
the sticky blackness choking me
and blocking my air
the panic attacks i battle to keep down
count my breaths
in
and
out
in
and
out
i can do this
i can’t do this
I CAN’T DO THIS
in
and
out
honesty hurts
and sometimes living a lifetime of lies
is better than the truth
i’m sorry
its a weight only i can carry
- j.
i’m not trying to guilt you
but it’s hard not to feel neglected
when the only time you’re spending with me
is in front of the tv
with your phone in your hand
it’s hard not to hurt
as i’m laying here in bed
wanting you beside me
but you’re far away
like every day this week
and you say you’ll come in and snuggle later
but it doesn’t count if i fall asleep before you do
- j.
Yes I’m bisexual
Yes nobody of either sex wants to date me
We exist
Wenn du nach drei Jahren merkst, dass du noch immer nicht über ihn hinweg bist
wickr me - otakuajumma