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‘What Is This?’ Part Two.

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Contents: Abortion, Angst, Abusive Acts, Swearing, Sadness and way too much use of the word 'you’.

After 11 years of living there, someone knocked on your door

It was Albus Dumbledore.

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You were in noticeable shock and gasped.

'Fucking Hell’ You thought.

“Indeed Ms L/N” Dumbledore smiled.

“Don’t do that” you stated coldly.

“Ms L/N, I have an inquiry and would like to be let in.” He gave 'that’ look with his sparkling eyes.

Oh, but you knew that look all too well. It was the same look he gave you when you played a prank on Barty Crouch Jr. and he wanted information out of you.

“No. Say it now” you were not budging this time.

No one ever spoke to the old Professor that way and it was clear to see. He looked slightly alarmed but gathered his usual composure quickly.

“I want you for the Defence Against the Dark Arts Position and Hogwarts.” He still gave you his warm attitude.

You took several moments.


You had all this success and Fame… Why should you leave a relationship? The relationship in which for a fact you knew he was sleeping with other women… But your career, where most of your job was done because you did such a good job at your job… The Dog… That you were thinking of getting.

'Why am I staying?’ You questioned.

“September First I’ll start I suppose. And I want a big office none of those shitty corner offices… And I want a higher pay than the rest of the” you stated your wants clearly to the professor.

“Done and Done… Professor L/N” He smiled.

“Thank you… Sir” you shook his hand and quickly shut the door. With your back leaning against the closed door… For the first time in eleven years, you began crying. You mourned for the eleven years you spent without your boys. The life you could have had.

After a good half, an hour of crying you composed yourself.

It was August 30th 1995. Albus was a little late with the offer you had to say. But… A little part of you was excited. Life was slowly getting better.

Your bag had been packed for years now. That should have been the first sign to leave. But you were scared like always. You wrote a quick note to your boyfriend saying your goodbye and telling him how to sort all your affairs.

You left the apartment you have had for a decade. A decade of wasted useless memories… If you could even call them that.

The Leaky Cauldron is where you decided to reside. It was where you spent a lot of your teenage years with your ex-boyfriends.

Tom the owner recognised you immediately not for your fame but from when you were younger. It was a nice refresher.

Unfortunately the Jet Lag really got to you and you ended up sleeping for 36 hours. You were late for the grand feast at Hogwarts.

The feast started at 7:00 pm it was now 7:15 pm.

“Shit. Shit. Shit” you began quickly getting dressed and putting on your make-up with very useful enchantments.

You quickly grabbed your two suitcases and ran down the rickety old stairs.

“Bye Ms L/N” Tom the Owner gave you his famous welcoming smile.

“Nice seeing you Tom” you waved goodbye and quickly hopped into the fireplace and floo* away.

You arrived just outside the great hall where Filch was with his scrawny little cat.

'That Thing is still alive" You thought.

“Hey Filch” you gave him you cheeky grin.

“No, Not you it’s bad enough with the others” He snapped.

“Others?” You mumbled to yourself.

“Anyways, would you kindly take my luggage up to my room” You gave him a darling smile “and if you even try to open it will bite”

He grumbled and snatched the two cases off you.

You began making your way to the entranceway to the great hall when you heard a distant 'ouch’ from Filch. You chuckled to yourself knowing you still got it.

The doors were closed meaning you were going to have to make a dramatic entrance and not a quiet one like you hoped. You quickly took out your wand and swung the doors open with power.

The students and staff were greeted with an enormity of wind from the doors and you.

You made your way in boots clicking on the floor.

The hall was silent all eyes were on you.

Then there was a “HOLY FUCK THAT’S Y/N L/N THE AUROR” and the hall erupted into chatter.

Then you saw them. Remus, James and Sirius. Looking at you with mixed emotions of Shook, Anger and Sadness.

You greeted Dumbledore and he showed you your seat right beside Hagrid and… Remus.

Fuck

You promptly sat down not even acknowledging the werewolf beside you who was staring at you with all his might.

The chattering was still going on to which Dumbledore shouted 'SILENCE’.

Boom. The hall was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.

“Now, Professor L/N is going to be the new Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher so I think we should give her a proper welcome”

The whole hall erupted into applause but you didn’t stand up. You were used to standing ovations this was nothing you were not really bothered.

The clapping quietened down and everyone went back to their meals.

Hagrid made light conversation with you and offered you food around five times but you could!’t eat you felt sick with them around.

They all took turns glaring daggers at you.

You just remained staring at your lap the whole time.

“Erm Y/N-” Remus’ soft voice started.

You quickly got up from your chair,

“I think I am going to retire for the night, Goodnight Professor Hagrid” he nodded to you with a concerned smile and you quickly got up and left the room.

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It was the next day and you started your first lesson with First Years. They were all scared and new so it was easy to get things done and it was a quiet class. Next was a set of Fifth Years in which you threatened maybe too harshly so they were quiet for the rest of the lesson.

Now it was third years.

They were all filing in and about to sit down.

“Don’t sit down” you said flatly.

“Assort yourself Alphabetically statting with A’s at the front”. It took about three minutes for everyone to get into their seats which took a bit of shouting from you to get them to move faster.

You then went through the role.

“Pansy Parkinson”. “ Here, Professor”

“Parvarti Patil” “Here”

“Harry…”

'What the actual Fuck… THEY PROCREATED’ Your mind was racing.

There it read 'Potter-Lupin-Black’. This was going to be shit.

“Harry Potter-Lupin-Black” you repeated stiffly.

“H-here Professor” “Don’t Stutter. It lets your opponents know you’re scared” you gave him 'the look’.

He gulped and looked down.

You got on with the role and class began.

“So, what defensive spells do you know?” You asked.

No one put their hand up.

“Did you learn anything in the past 2 years?” You snapped in and the students all jumped.

A girl with curly brown hair put her hand up.

“Yes?” You questioned.

“Eh s-stu-”

“Don’t stutter” you cut her off.

She quickly composed herself not looking you in the eye.

“Stupify,” she said more confidently.

“Name?”

“Hermione Granger,” she said quickly still refusing to look you in the eye.

“Next?” You questioned.

Then the one you knew to be Harry put up his hand. There was no questioning that he was James’ son, He looked almost identical… Except for the eyes. You have seen them somewhere but you couldn’t put your finger on it.

“Go”

“The disarming spell,” he said proudly.

“And it’s name?” You questioned.

“Expelliarmus”

“Okay, any others?” You quickly moved off from him.

No one out their hand up.

“Are you serious? Does anyone know anything? Merlin’s saggy balls. Who was your teacher?” You wondered how they knew absolutely nothing.

“Eh… Professor Lockhart” a girl told you.

“That dumbass? No wonder?” You rolled your eyes.

“I think expelliarmus works quite well” Harry said.

“What?” You asked him

“It does is a really good spell… Do we need much more?” The boy questioned pathetically.

“Oh I’m sorry”

“What?” He asked looking confused.

“I’m sorry. Why don’t you get up here and teach the class? You seem to know quite a lot about disarming spells Mr Potter-Lupin-Black. I didn’t mean to impose on your magical ability.” You were harsh but it was necessary.

“I eh- erm”

“What did I say about stuttering?” You snapped “It seems the great Harry Potter-Lupin-Black thinks one can get through life by simply snatching someone’s wand! Believe me Harry there are much worse ways someone can threaten you without a wand. Ways your mindless brain couldn’t even comprehend. Do you think I got where I am today by simply disarming someone Potter?” You were now leaning over the poor boy giving him daggers.

“No… And it’s Potter-Lupin-Black” he looked down shamefully.

“It’s Potter in this class. And don’t you dare correct me again.” The class was in terror and the boy was shaking.

“Give me your wand Potter” you held your hand out to take it from him.

’“But prof-” he started to whine.

“Looks like your precious disarming spell might come in handy Potter. Give me the fucking wand” He quickly put the wand in your hand and you placed it on your desk

“You shall not get this back until you write a list of every defensive spell you can find in your textbook and library and write them all down with what their purpose is and the motion used. All of you will do it and it should be on my desk, next class” The class collectively groaned.

“Class is dismissed for the day” you waved them off.

“But professor the bell has not rung yet” the Granger girl said.

“I am the professor and what I say goes. Now, leave all of you!” You sort of shouted the kast bit and they all scattered out the class room.

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It was dinner time but you decided to skip out and start writing. You were writing a book on all your best wizarding battles in America.

You were sitting at your desk with the dim candlelight shining on your face accentuating your featured and Suddenly your door burst open with the three men you knew more than yourself came in.

You didn’t look up and kept writing.

“Threatening Our Son now L N” James snarled.

“Would have been nice of you to knock” you smirked to yourself still not giving them your full attention.

“Oh cut the crap L/N, You’re not impressing anyone” Sirius’s infamous voice rang in your ears.

“Wasn’t trying to, I think I am enough for all my adoring fans” you finally looked up at them and gave them a cheeky grin.

They hadn’t changed much in eleven years.

The three men stood there looking very tall and assertive.

Most of Remus’ scars had faded there were just one or two new ones. You knew every single scar on his body since you used to kiss each one after a full moon. He had some dark eyebags which wasn’t surprising since the full moon was only 2 days away.

Sirius had grown a beard which made him look older, mature and sexier. His eyes were still the same mysterious grey colour that at times you couldn’t stop looking at them. They consumed you.

James was still buff from quidditch. His hair was no longer as messy and as unruly as you remembered. He still had a mischievous glint in his eyes and smile lines embedded in his face from his famous 'Potter Smirk’ as Marlene McKinnon used to refer to it.

“See you’re still sitting on your fat ego” James smirked.

“Oh don’t worry Potter, couldn’t nearly compare to yours. Looks like you still have two bitches kissing your ass every night” you smiled which seemed to infuriate the three men more.

“Give me Harry’s wand” Remus spoke up in an angered tone.

“Oh no the big bad wolf is mad. Oh Please Remus don’t blow my house down after all I’m just an innocent little girl” you teased.

Sirius looked like he was about to pounce.

“Easy there mutt don’t want to go barking up the wrong tree, do we?” You were having the time of your life.

“We are all adults we can remain civil” James tried to calm the room.

“Not to worry Jamsie I won’t do nothing… Just having a little fun”

“Seemed to be having a lot of fun being a bitter bitch to my son? Jealous L/N” Sirius questioned.

“Your son can’t even rub two brain cells together to come up with a better spell than expelliarmus” you snorted.

“Typical L/N ignoring the question. I asked if you were jealous? Huh L/N. Oh I get it she’s scared again” You quickly pulled your wand out and pointed it right at him.

James and Remus quickly pulled out their’s.

“Say it fucking again Black. I dare you. I could do things that not even Grindlewald could fathom” you seethed.

“Look at you again. Putting up all these walls cause your scared. You act all tough with your top Auror position but deep down you are a scared little Bitch” He smirked.

“And you don’t fo the same thing Black? Hows Mummy?” You snarled.

“Okay, what crawled up your bitter arse and died?” He shouted.

“YOUR FUCKING CHILD” you screamed back and immediately realised what you said and clamped your hand over your mouth and gasped.

You couldn’t believe what you just said.

The room went deadly silent.

It was terrifying.

Then there was a burst of laughter from Remus.

Followed by the two other men.

You started laughing as well.

For the first time in years, you had a proper laugh.

The laughing went on for a good minute until it died down to a few chuckles. You were all wiping the tears from your eyes.

“Fucking hell” James sighed still laughing a little.

The room was in comfortable silence for a few moments.

“You are right” you admitted.

“What?” They all questioned at the same time.

“I am scared. I’ve been scared for the last thirteen years. I was scared for a child… Then I left and was scared to leave my stupid boyfriend and I am scared to face you.” You hated to admit it but ur was true.

“I’m sorry. Truly I am I don’t regret what I did though. I don’t want children. Never have and never will. I do regret leaving you though. But then at the same time, I don’t because I think you could have fought harder to find me. But you didn’t” you had tears in your eyes threatening to spill.

“It was better that you left anyways” Sirius said.

You knew what he was going to say the one thing you didn’t want to them to say but it was gojng to happen.

We were cheating on you” There it was.

Deep down you knew it all along.

“How is Lily doing?” You asked. It was Lily it had always been Lily. They loved her first and she would always be first. The girl with emerald green eyes and flaming red hair. They told you not to worry about her but you knew and you were right. No matter who you were you would always be the second choice. Because why choose Y/N L/N when they can have Lily Evans.

“How di-”

“Wha-”

“This was a mistake” you stood up from your desk and walked to your room. You grabbed your suitcases not been unpacked yet. And grabbed your book from the desk.

“Tell Dumbledore I am sorry but something else came up” you stated flatley.

“Y/N-” Remus started but you cut him off.

“I refuse to be second choice again not with you or this job. He wanted you first and you refused… For the first time in my life, I’m not going to be second… Goodbye, My Loves, I’m sorry” With that you stepped into the fireplace and vanished in the flames.

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Harry came into the Potter-Lupin-Black household holding a book in his hand.

“Hey Look what I found in the Muggle Book shop” Harry came in and showed his three fathers.

It was a light lilac book, average size with gold accents.

On the cover, it read 'to my first choice, from your second - Y/N L/N’

I’M BACK LOVES!!!

sorry I went M.I.A. I am studying A lot because I have a Big Exam in June so yk. Also, I’m a lazy Bitch. Anyways you can now stop your enquiring about when will Part Two be out. It’s here now also on April Fool’s Day it’s not a joke though I promise. Also Happy Birthday to the Weasley Twins who are both very alive and well. Sorry for the like Year-long wait.


See you guys later xx

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oh my god this was rly long but I did it! idk maybe less happened than I thought it would but! oh and I made Mary and Hope asians, deal with it, tho I’m sorry if there’s been inconsistent hc oops it’s been so long since I read through the tumblr version fully anyway I’ll stop now & as always ty for reading ily <3<3<3

parts1 - … - 17

It was bound to be a long and raucous evening. With the speaker turned up to full, and boxes of reheated pizza piled on the coffee table surrounded by bottles of wine and beer, they filled the room full to the brim. Those who didn’t fit on the couches and armchairs spilled onto the floor, making a circle between them.  

No one and everyone was holding court, the way they sprawled across the room. Remus curled up on the couch with Lily and Mary, who was telling all sorts of stories about James from before, making Lily laugh till her eyes watered. Where James and Sirius sat on the carpet in front of the sofa, Sirius was gleefully adding to the mix, head leaning back just enough to rest on Remus’ knee. Peter, the lucky bastard, bagged the comfortable armchair before anyone noticed, and Dorcas and Marlene were snuggled into a beanbag by its side.

“Marlene darling—” Mary stretched an arm to pass a fresh can of beer, “how’s the hockey been?”

“Please, you wouldn’t understand if I told you.”

“What! It’s not like we know nothing!”

“Look, I’d grab Pete if I wanted to talk hockey. Cheers—” She saluted at Peter’s laugh, “The rest of you are all clueless.” 

“How’d you know I haven’t become a hockey player! I could have just secretly changed careers overnight. Heard it was the fad ‘round here.” She turned to wink at Lily and Remus.

“Oh yeah, wasn’t that a surprise.” Dorcas said, “you all need to stop keeping things from us. Can’t believe I hadn’t heard a word of it till I showed up myself.”

“Well I’m not complaining,” Sirius grinned, and James hummed in acquiesce. Remus couldn’t tell if it was about him, or Lily and James. 

Lily was blushing nonetheless. “Oh enough about us. How’s the States been, Mary?” 

“Yeah, how are the people of the New World? Are they really all obsessed with money and guns?”

“No but hear me out, they’re still all so weird.” Mary laughed easily, “And also, apparently I sound too Chinese for the white people and too British for the Asians. Nevermind they all grew up with American accents anyway.”

-

“Remus Lupin,” Mary leaned across the space Lily left empty as she stood, “how’s my favourite fake asian doing these days, hmm?”

Remus groaned, and jostled her head on his shoulders. “Not bad, I suppose.” he said simply, not knowing how to elaborate.

Mary stared at him a bit, then snorted. “See, there’s why you’re a fake asian.”

“So was I supposed to tell you about the new bubble tea store in town?”

“Exactly. You don’t even need a ‘how are you’ to start ranting about your parents and shitty new Chinese restaurants.” Mary waved a hand, hiding a forlorn smile that showed up every time she started to ‘talk asian’, “And obviously I want a nuanced analysis of that new bubble tea shop.”

Remus smiled back. He never expected to have real opinions about something like this, but at some point, between him and Mary, it became a coded dialogue about missing home. “They’re quite good. And not too obsessed with tea leaves to be crazy expensive. You should try the ice matcha.”

“Do they have good pearls?”

“Pretty good actually. Perfect texture, and melts just a bit on the outside—”

Ugh,” Mary groaned, then started to giggle. “Yeah, I do like bubble tea. Oh Rem, how’s aunty Hope been doing?”

“Yeah, she’s good. Well, physically she’s the best she’s been since before, but there’s been other things bogging her down.”

“You know,” Mary looked up, matching his frown, “she could ask my parents anything, even though they’re not in the country, right?”

“Oh Mary. Thank you. But you know she’d never ask.”

“I’ll get my parents to call then.”

“Even then she won’t tell. Or say yes.”

Mary sighed, “you two. You’re the exact same. But anyhow it’ll be nice for them to catch up.”

‘Yeah… You should come ‘round some day.”

“Yea!” Mary breathed eagerly, “I really missed those massive veggie buns she used to make.”

“Yeah.” Remus said quietly.

For the next few moments, Mary watched him. Remus barely realised, he was looking ahead and unconsciously gnawing his lips again.

“Whatever it is, stop worrying.” Mary slapped him lightly on the arm.

“What—”

“Just enjoy the evening, yeah? And stop worrying so much about everything, you sooty stick.”

He replied with a light chuckle, “I’ll try,” and raised his beer in salute.

-

It would be very welcoming indeed, Remus thought, if his brain was just wired to let go. Which it should, tonight of all nights. It would be ideal indeed, if noise and friendship was just enough. 

But there was no way to explain the nameless agitation that started and didn’t go away. Soon it manifested physically as a headache rising from behind his eyes, an audible static that came in waves and settled as a buzz between his ears. It wasn’t the beer, he barely had any, and he was nowhere as drunk as the rest of his friends. But he found that their conversation started to race ahead that he could barely follow. They flitted in and out, never too far from skating, of course. He felt strangely unsteady, floating as though in a dream, and all that noise. Remus was hearing himself being drowned out.

-

They started talking about program music at some point. Sirius was proudly showing some moves from the Bohemian Rhapsody remix he’d put together for the free skate, even pulling Remus up with him at some point. Dorcas jumped up, matching move for move with her jazz tracks. Then Lily and James would start arguing among the two of them again.

“Just choose something you both like and be done with it! What’s so complicated?”

“Oh no Marls, that was the wrong thing to say.”

“It’s got to make sense, you know?” Lily said urgently, “It can’t just be a random track out of your workout playlist, or whatever your coach chooses—”

“You two are just obsessing at this point—”

“Itneeds to resonate. I need to feel it in my soul.” 

Marlene laughed. 

“She’s right though.” James added, “And it needs to be right for the both of us, which you know, is easy if you’ve paired for years but we’ve just started, and—”

“And we’re fighting about everything, it’s so frustrating, neither of us were like this before!”

Mary and Remus, ‘the ones before’, shared a grin and a smirk. 

“So is it a romance you want to tell?” Dorcas suggested.

“Obviously it’s a romance!” Lily gestured, “And an intense one at that. ‘Cause you know, with Remus, all our narratives have been mostly— platonic, and even if it’s a love story it’d be some innocent and pretty fairytale, because it’s, it’s Remus—”

Remus scoffed, “what’s that supposed to mean?”

“She says you’re cute!” Marlene called from across the floor.

“Yeah,” Sirius breathed into his shoulder, “and I’d agree.”

Remus whipped his head around, “how drunk are you?”

But Sirius’ eyes were stone cold sober, startlingly clear in the light and edges crinkled with a smile. 

Remus felt something jump in his chest. He hurriedly looked back towards Lily.

“And there’s nothing wrong with that at all, Remus, I love you, and you know that. But I just— it’s been two years and I feel different. I want to show something different now, you know? James doesn’t get it—” 

“What do you mean I don’t get it? I totally get it!”

“Then why has everything you’ve suggested been, oh I don’t know, playboy pretty girl—”

“That’s not— I mean, that’s not what I—”

“Playboy, Prongs?” Sirius had burst out laughing, “you? Really?”

James’ drink-flushed cheeks coloured even more, despite his dark skin, “That’s not what I was going for! I’ll have you know—”

“Then who did you want to be?” Peter snorted, “some loverboy Romeo?”

“Yes, exactly!”

The room burst into laughter. James frowned. 

“What’s wrong with that?”

“Oh James,” Dorcas wiped her eyes, “I knew we should have gotten you into acting with us.”

“What do you mean?”

“Nothing,” Remus nudged James with his elbow, “you would have made a nice Romeo, that’s all.”

“If he could have taken it seriously for more than a second.” Peter said.

“I’m not Romeo,” James blurted. “I don’t want it to be Romeo, but you know, I don’t really want it to be me either—”

“But James it’s meant to be you, how else do you tell the story?”

“Just that! Tell a story. I mean, it would be a bit creepy to imagine myself in the story with— you know…” James trailed off.

Remus heard Sirius’ quiet laugh, and dared to look over.

“I think he wants to not-himself,” Sirius whispered with a smile in his voice, “so he can unabashedly obsess over Lily.”

“Yeah.” Remus smiled a little, “That’s the impression I got as well.”

-

“What about you, Remus?” Mary finally asked.

“Huh?”

“You. Your music?”

“Oh, I— don’t know yet.”

“Oh.” She said, looking at him curiously. She saw Remus squirm uncomfortably, and quickly added with a smile, “not that far behind these two, then. Have you got any ideas?”

“Yeah I’m,” Remus grimaced to himself, “mostly not sure.” 

“Wait, you’ve chosen our waltz for the short right?” Lily turned to beamed at him, “Chopin’s 19?”

‘Our waltz’, Lily called it, because it had been the track for their senior debut, a couple of years ago now. The posh kids from Slytherin scoffed and laughed at how it’s “one of Chopin’s easiest waltz”, but the two of them had always been ridiculously proud of it. 

“Yeah.” Remus squeezed a smile, “that’s what I told McGonagall. But I don’t know, I could still change it, if I’m not sure. And the free skate—” he exhaled frustratedly, “I— don’t even know what I want it to be. I just know what I don’t want it to be— sometimes.”

“And what’s that?”

“What everyone else is doing?” Remus said, with half a frown, half a pout.

His friends burst out laughing, though Remus didn’t feel the humour.

-

“Oh my god!” Dorcas clanked her bottle down, “Are we here for another round of complaining about the scoring system?”

“Yes! I swear—”

“The very idea of a panel for subjectively judging components and interpretation—”

“Like sure, it’s not the 6.0 system anymore, with anonymity and everything, but I swear to god sometimes it just feels like they can now cheat you and have nothing traced back to them—”

“I did a degree on this, if you suggest a human panel for judging anything in computer science they’ll just straight up laugh at you, but not here it seems!”

“At least we used to be able to tell straight away if a score is off. But now we have to just guess, meticulously compare every person’s jumps and scores to call them out.”

“And what the hell do you do with the ‘presentation mark’?”

“Exactly!” 

“It’s so easily manipulated it’s crazy.”

“And honestly, sometimes I feel bad for the judges, everyone is always taking a shot at them”, Dorcas said, ever-so-compassionate, “but it amazes me how they’d came up with a system so easily questioned.”

“Oh no, not just questioned, their reputation is getting destroyed in all circles of sensible people. Honestly, how many scandals does it take for them to start fixing things?”

-

Marlene was at the stage of drunk where she looked ready to climb on the coffee table, and start an impromptu impassioned speech against capitalism. Mary was trying to get the troupe to start singing show tunes together, old-time-theatre-kids-style.

“Comeon,” she intoned, “We’ve got the wines and beers, and all the loud obnoxious young queers”

“Mary, you’re speaking in rhyme.”

“La vie boheme!!” She shouted as the only reply, raising her glass to the ceiling.

“Oh is that Rent? I loved that show!”

“Hell yea Jamesy! And oh my god look, it’s like us now! A bunch of young drunk bohemians in a room—”

“Yeah, not quite sure we’re there yet.”

“We are drunk, though. And we love that show. I love living queer hippie anti-establishment. I love theatre,” Mary mumbled, smiling dazedly and one arm around each of James and Lily, pulling them around with her words, “Oh you know what— this is exactly what you two should do for your skate! Dig out your theatre roots and go for one of the musicals—”

Lily chuckled noncommittally, “yeah sure.”

“No, I’m being serious! Oh shut up Sirius—” she immediately said, with a huff from Sirius, “god. A couple of months away and I’m already forgetting. How could I. Anyway, James, Lily, you listen— you know what I think? I think you should properly look at all the theatre classics, romantic, and as intense as you want them—”

“Hmm,” James turned his head to the ceiling, snorting a laugh. 

“Listen up! This could be your Eureka moment.”

“Alright, yes! Listening!”

“I could help you fix up a medley. No, really, I was going to do some work with Hogwarts’ orchestra anyway.”

“That— would be wonderful.”

“Wouldn’t it?” Mary grinned, “so what do you think? The Phantom, Les Mis— though James I don’t really think you could pull a Marius— Christian from Moulin Rouge— maybe. Or some Sondheim? A Little—”

“Wait no—” Lily started, at the same time as James:

“No stop a second—” 

They paused, surprised, and slowly turned to look at each other. They became even more astonished to find the same shade of epiphany in each other’s look.

“Blimey,” James breathed, “this is it, isn’t it?”

Lily said nothing in response. She looked back at Mary.

“You said— Moulin Rouge, right?”

“Yeah…” Mary thought again, “Oh. Oh— oh my god! Satine and Christian!”

“I don’t get it.”

“Shut up Pete!”

“That movie was so cheesy!”

“Shut up! This makes so much sense!” Mary was grinning like mad, “Oh god this is wonderful. I could— we could start tonight—” she made to stand up, only to stumble.

“Hey it’s fine, it’s fine!” James pulled her back down. He and Lily were staring at each other with such a look in their eyes. “Oh Mary! Thank you, I— can’t believe we just—”

I told you,” Mary said happily, “your Eureka moment! And Lily— come on, Satine is so hot—”

-

No matter how much Remus wanted to knock his own brains out, he couldn’t concentrate at all after that. On anything. He suspected something ugly in him was envious of his friends, and the thought sent through him shocks of guilt and disgust at himself. The buzz between his ears was becoming a swirl, pounding under his skull as though almost starting to block his vision. 

He screwed his eyes shut. Surely, he could slip away without them noticing? The way they were so wrapped up in their rapture.

He felt Sirius place a concerned hand on his knee, but he lightly pushed it off. “Sorry Pads I— I’ve got a headache. Might just go outside for a while.”

Carefully, he stood and made his way to the door. Mary stopped him with a questioning look. 

“Headache. Will probably turn in early tonight.” He said apologetically. And Mary put her drink down to envelop him in a hug. 

“Go on you. I’ll explain to everyone.”

“It’s so good to see you.” Remus said sincerely. Having gotten Mary’s answering smile, he picked up his rucksack, “come for lunch on Sunday, yeah?” He said, and slipped out the room to the front door.

-

Out in the cool night air, Remus looked up and tried to breathe deeply. Above him, a blanket of bright stars were silently moving through another night, along their assigned tracks, in perfectly coordinated harmony. He wondered why everything else must seem so ordered, so peaceful. 

Lily and James would really make an insane pair as Satine and Christian, he thought, despite how his brain might refuse to process it. 

He sighed, feeling too tired to stay and too restless to go home. So he headed to the rink.

-

ok look I’ll break my rule and put my ramble here instead of in the tags because my dudes please watch Tessa and Scott’s Moulin Rouge free skate because it’s maybe *the* most iconic program in recent history?? it’s unironically almost a religious experience. if I remember right that was the reason this monster was started, like one time I watched (and look I’m not lying when I say I literally watched this daily recently while writing this) and my brain just went ‘wait… jily?’ and yeah anyway have a good day <3

When I said plot I actually meant plot not just new old characters but here they are anyway happy monday ty for reading xx

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“Remus Lupin!” bellowed a voice Remus hadn’t heard in two years.

He was just about to demonstrate the double axle to one of his older students. But he winced and stumbled on take-off, and landed with his arse on the ice.

And the boy had the audacity to laugh at him. 

Remus groaned, “What do you want, you lunatic!” He shouted back, and looked towards the source of the voice. Sure enough, one Marlene Mckinnon, crop top, leather jacket, ripped jeans and all, was perched at the rails sporting an almost-amused smirk. 

“Get your arse over here!”

The boy looked at Remus amusedly. “I guess that’s that for the day?”

“Yeah, I suppose so.” he muttered, shaking his head, “Sorry, Andrew. We’ll try that again next Tuesday, yeah?”

Marlene’s eyes followed him all the way as Remus made his way over. “You’ve got to stop letting those kids bribe you into unpaid overtime.” 

“Well,” Remus shrugged, “how’d you think I started skating.”

“What’s it they say? Fight the system, not acquiesce to it?”

Remus laughed breathily, “good to see you too, Marls.”

Marlene was possibly the only one out of their friends to appear even less impressed to see Remus than he was to see them. But the fierce hug they shared betrayed them both.

“Marlene,” Remus drew back with a smile, arms still on her shoulders, “How did it take you so fucking long to show up?”

She lightly punched him in the side, “I’m here now, aren’t I?”

“How’ve you been?”

“Oh you know,” She grinned, running a hand through her messy blond locks, “a bit bored. But that’s life.”

“Oh my god,” Remus chuckled. They’ve come a long way from binge-reading Nietzsche and Dostoyevsky together at 3am, but— “you’re still exactly the same.”

“Surely nothing and no one ever really changes.” She deadpanned.

“None at all?”

“Well. Nothing that really matters.” 

“Alright you.” Remus snorted fondly. “Then what’s this I hear about you falling in love?”

Marlene’s lips twitched, “Oh yeah?”

“So what. Have you gone crazy about someone and finally figured out what the fuss is all about now?”

“Oh no.” She laughed, “Didn’t you hear? Nothing changed. The world doesn’t turn over on its belly. You just don’t realise it isn’t really different. Sure, I’m crazy about her but. Always been, haven’t I?”

“Hmm.” Remus considered her with a small smile. “I quite like that. Good for you, Marls.”

-

It wasn’t long before the rest of everyone bundled in. They were impossibly loud as they poured down the sidewalk that led from Hogwarts into the village. Everyone was laughing, trying to have five different conversations with everyone else. Remus flitted between walking besides each of his friends, not a couple of words exchanged before one of them was pulled into another conversation. But it was the pleasant kind of exasperated buzz in his head. It’s been so long since they were like this. For perhaps the first time since they’ve graduated, all of them were gathered together in one spot. Well, almost everyone. 

“Oh by the way!” James suddenly called out over all of them, “Did you all know that Mary is flying in tonight?”

“What?!” 

“Who fucking what?”

“You’ve got to be kidding—”

“Why didn’t I know—”

James laughed as he was drowned out with a bout of surprised, indignant exclamations, and looked around delightedly at them all. “Well yeah! She told me her flight’s today, asked me to pick her up and everything!”

“No, no, no, James Potter—” Lily looked ready to pull out her hair, “did you just— forget to mention— how long have you known?”

“A couple of days.” The way James was grinning, one would think he’d won a million-pound prize. “Dance partner loyalty, and all that.”

“Not jealous, are you Lils?” Sirius nudged her with an elbow.

“Fuck you, Black.” Lily whipped her head around, her ponytail almost slapping James in the face as Sirius laughed.

“Mary that traitor,” Dorcas said disbelievingly, “How come she didn’t tell any of us! I knew she was coming back soon but not— James, when exactly is she arriving?”

“Oh, she’ll probably be landing soon, I was gonna get home and get the car straight away.”

“Bloody fuck,” Remus breathed. “Glasgow? Godspeed with the traffic, Prongs.” James responded with a two-finger salute.

“Yeah, want us to pack you something to eat on the way?” Peter added.

“Nah, it’s all good! Just make it good for when we get back.” James winked.

“You bastard,” Marlene said, “guess we’re at yours tonight then? Bloody hell, give some warning for this sort of shit next time.”

“Where’s all the fun to that!”

Marlene rolled her eyes. “We’ll go grab some beers then, shall we?”

“And pizza. Literally nothing else would do.”

“Good call, Pete!”

Remus shook his head to himself. This was bound to be a long and raucous night. As everyone else prattled on excitedly about their plans, Sirius sidled up to him. 

“Remus—” he smiled a little nervously, and said under his breath, “I know we said we’d go somewhere just the two of us tonight, but—”

“Shut up.” Remus grabbed Sirius’ hand with both of his, “of course we’ll bunk in with everyone. What were you thinking?”

“Know you must be tired. Had a long day, wanting a quiet night, that’s all.”

“No, it’s fine.” Remus shook his head, “I can’t wait to see Mary. Fuck, I can’t believe we’re all here.”

“Crazy, ‘innit?” Sirius chuckled breathily.

“You didn’t know either, did you?”

“No.” Sirius gave him a lopsided little smile. “Not a clue.”

They shared a quiet smile, the lamplights’ shadow gliding across their faces as they continued walking forwards. 

“We’ll do this again another day, won’t we?” Sirius asked.

“For sure. Any day you want, really. We don’t even need to set a date, most of the time you end up grabbing me for the evening anyway.” 

“Alright, well. What about tomorrow?”

“A saturday? We won’t be at the rink though.”

“Yeah, but we could just go for dinner anyway.” Sirius shrugged, looking ahead.

Remus smirked a little. “Won’t miss me so much after one weekend, will you?”

Sirius huffed, “will you come with me or not?”

“Yeah, of course.” Remus said quietly, after a short moment.

Sirius turned to him then with a soft smile. “It’s set, then.”

-

Sirius’ phone buzzed— it’s a message from James. Remus leaned in to read over Sirius’ shoulder. They’ve piled into Sirius and James’ house, with enough food and drink to feed a zoo. Though Remus supposed they weren’t all that different from a zoo. The message read: 

Pronks: were just outside town now!!!xxxx

“Ahoy mates!” Sirius exclaimed and jumped off the sofa, “they’ll be here soon!” 

Remus picked up the phone that kept buzzing: 

gon make it a surprise kay?
turn the lights off and everything

With some sort of telepathic understanding, Sirius was already running up and down closing curtains and turning off lights. 

“Right, Pete, you’re on window duty. Signal the moment you see Prongs’ car rolling in.” He flew around the room, so fully in his element, “someone go get the upstairs light, I’ll stand by for hall and kitchen— Lily, can you find the stairs?” 

“I don’t know where your lights are—”

“Ow Lils that was my foot—”

“Oh I’m so sorry—”

“Can you turn the fucking lights back on?” Marlene waved an arm around, hitting Remus in the chest, “oh for fucks— can y’all calm down?”

“Calm down, Marls? We’re about to see Mary!”

“Can someone please go upstairs those lights on the stairs are our fanciest!”

“Alright I’ll go!” Remus relented, getting up and started to feel his way through the dark.

“Love you Moons! Okay, do you think we’ve got any streamers?”

“Oh my god can we not—”

“Code red!” Peter suddenly shouted, turning from the crack in the curtain, “targets approaching— everyone get to station, wherever we didn’t even agree to!”

“Jesus mother, all of you are mad.”

“Shh!” Sirius whispered aggressively. “Everybody down— hide behind something. Now!”

“Alright, alright!”

-

After a couple minutes of waiting interrupted with occasional whispers and stifled giggles, they heard muffled talking through the doorway. Laughter— James’ booming bellows and Mary’s high pitched giggles— a jangling of keys, then the key was turning in the hole, and the door cracked open. The shadow of a shaggy head was seen in the doorway before James flicked a light on. With it, the entire house burst alight.

“Surprise!!” Everyone shouted, jumping from behind walls and furniture. Remus poked his head down the top of the stairs. 

“Welcome home, Mary!” James grinned, stepping aside to let Mary take in the room and everyone around. She stood wide-eyed and still for long moments, jean jacket awry and high ponytail messy from travel, both hands full with travel sacks. Everyone held their breath.  

“Oh my god.” Mary dropped the bags and covered her mouth with her hands. Her eyes were shiny, “of fucking course all of you are fucking here!”

In unison, the entire room flooded forwards, and crowded the tiny hallway in the loudest, grandest group hug they’ve had in two years.

unpopular opinions/my accepted head cannons: ✨marauders edition✨

  • Remus x Sirius
  • James and Sirius were best friends but Sirius was also very close with Remus before they got together
  • James x Lily
  • Regulus was actually an enemy of Voldemort’s the whole time but acted as though he was a death eater in order to successfully “betray” him
  • Marlene was the second best quidditch player on the team (to James)
  • Remus was “one of the girls” (he had a special bond with the girl friends that the other marauders didn’t have)
  • Remus and Lily had a very close friendship and definitely gossiped about each other’s relationship to one another
  • Regulus is bi or pan
  • Lily’s smarter than Remus
  • Peter was always a bitchass fuckhead
  • Sirius paints his nails and sometimes Remus will too
  • Sirius does like to wear dresses/skirts sometimes but only around remus, James and Lily bc he gets insecure (poor baby )
  • Remus admired James growing up and wanted to be like him until he found himself
  • Remus is bi
  • James was always kind of insecure but used his cockiness and confidence to cover it up
  • Sirius had longer hair all his life bc it pissed off his mom
  • Remus and Sirius are both switches depending on the(ir) mood
  • Lily is a top
  • James is a switch
  • Peters a bottom
  • Remus and Sirius have a couples tattoo
  • The marauders have matching group tattoo
  • Sirius always felt guilty for leaving Remus thinking that his best friends were dead and boyfriend was a killer who betrayed them
  • Snape never loved Lily he was just obsessed

Marlene: Your eyes look like dark black holes, but that’s alright, because I like astronomy.

Dorcas: If I had a star for every time you brightened my day, I’d have a galaxy in my hand

Marlene: Your eyes look like dark black holes, but that’s alright, because I like astronomy.

Dorcas: If I had a star for every time you brightened my day, I’d have a galaxy in my hand

Lily: my boyfriend is too tall for me to kiss him on the lips. what should i do?

Remus: punch him in the stomach. then, when he doubles over in pain, kill him.

Dorcas: tackle him.

Marlene: dump him.

Sirius: kick him in the shin.

James: no to all of those. just ask me to lean down.

some marauder era headcanons i like

  • sirius definitely knew how to play the piano.
  • like he didnt like doing it because his parents probably forced him to learn it but sometimes he still plays a bit and remus would hum along
  • mary can sing. like a fucking angel.
  • james made a joke ab sirius’ name when they first met.
  • during the week of the full moon peter would sneak into the kitchens a bit more than usual and steal lots of chocolate for remus
  • sirius and james definitely had peter convinced remus was a werewolf but also a flying one but he also had some vampire in him for at least a week until remus told them to ‘fuck off’
  • marlene probably loved funny sunglasses
  • lily and sirius probably had“break his heart and i’ll kill you” conversations about james and remus
  • “lils we need to talk.” “yeah sirius we do.” and then they’d just say it at the same time.
  • sirius always leaned back in his chair and has definitely fallen backwards a few times
  • the marauders have given mcgonagall christmas gifts at least once
  • james always joked about thinking regulus was attractive to annoy sirius ( he definitely did but thats not the point )

if u have more pls tell me i love them!

The Marauders as conversations between me and my friends pt. 2

Sirius, to Mary and Marlene: Why do you two always say that Mary is less gay than Marlene?

Mary and Marlene: *expecting some homophobic shit*

Sirius: but isn’t it Marlene who is less bi than Mary. Cuz she’s a lesbian?

Currently doing my book project over All The Young Dudes and I’m trying to decide if I should just bite the bullet and use their names in the analysis. Do I just fess up to doing this project over a piece of Harry Potter fanfiction? Or should I just try to subtly skip over their names, or use the nicknames moony and padfoot (maybe my teacher hasn’t read Harry Potter) orrrr if I should just make up names. I chose quotes that I could easily erase their names from but then I realized when it comes to talking about the quotes, I need to talk about Remus like 17,000 times and I can’t just skip over his name that many times without it looking weird. Hmmm idk.

(Also, luckily I started saving quotes from the fic into my notes during like year 3 and so I already had 100 quotes in my notes)

I thank god every day that all the young dudes ended before Sirius died. Because I cry every day over having to read Remus‘ reaction to the deaths of Marlene, Lily, and James. In the epilogue we hear Grant like briefly mentioned remus briefly mentioning Sirius’ death, and that made me cry, but if I had to read Remus react to his death I don’t think I would ever recover as a human being, I’d always be an empty husk.

I just finished year 7 and I can’t move on to The War chapters. I emotionally can’t do it, I’ll never stop crying. So while I put that off, will you guys tell me your favorite quotes or moments from All The Young Dudes. Thank you in advance. I need some happy or romantic moments, the idea of reading the last chapter of the war is breaking my heart.

So I have just started the first chapter of year 7 and I have had the realization that I’m going to never stop crying. It’s canon compliant. I’ve never cared about James and Lily all that much because we didn’t really know them, and now I love them endlessly and would die for them. How am I supposed to go on reading knowing I love all of these characters so deeply and almost every single one of them will die. Like they are all enjoying their last summer before everything changes, before war. The couples took so long to finally get together and they won’t have enough time. I’m not ready for them to graduate, I want more time of this group I love just living peacefully together.

There is a certain cruelty not being able to put down this amazingly written story, knowing that every single one of your favorite characters will die.

Ok so, doing a book project over All The Young Dudes, and this is how I decided to start it, hopefully my teacher doesn’t mind it’s a fanfic.

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