Down the street strolling,

popped a few and rolling

hard

so she disregards

fire catching flame

in a psyche so starved.

Waiting,

lungs full of yesterday’s last breath,

for the bridge

that she burned

to come back.

How could I find my voice… when even my shouts were silence to you.

muse-by-melissa

Five years

of tears,

resentment,

anger,

written in verse -

a thousand pages

saged

and burned,

embers

of a story

set free.

Our love

once alive

lay buried inside

the space

between

each line.

If only

the canopy

above her bed

could contain

the nightmares

spilling

endlessly

inside her head.

“If realty is to be based on truth, then I shall find my truth in the stars and clouds.”

~Reigh Lynne

“With innocence comes fragility and naivete, and with pain comes cruelty and nihilism. It’s is not till you recognize and accept the necessary balance of both in life that you start to grow in wisdom and resilience.”

~Reigh Lynne

“I wish that my wishes had the strength of the stars”

~Reigh Lynne

“It’s not enough to

have you

in mere

stolen moments

that are

too

few

and

far

between.

I do not wish

to dip

my toes

into that

in which

I cannot

freely

wade.”

- d.c.

“we locked into each other’s line of vision

and neither of us could deny

how the possibility of that life,

for a mere second,

broadcasted upon our lighted retinas

like a dusty, old movie projector

flickering awake

a private viewing for just us two

misbehaving strangers

sat on opposite sides of a

red velvet theatre

staring at the same panoramic screen

playing a fabricated fiction

of tempting what-ifs

and could-bes

i won’t hold it against you

if you choose not to acknowledge it aloud;

i was just as terrified to open my mouth

but as we stared,

our eyes conversed

and they disclosed

everything.”

- d.c.

Two weeks

After a fortnight

You come back into my life

My eyes are mesmerized by the sight

You are my favourite pastime

Looking at you makes me feel more than alright

Being near you makes me feel better than okay

And I think that it’s due time

You cemented yourself at my side

It’s only you that I

Want to see every day

In every shade of colour

In every space

That is vacant beside me

You should reside with me

Cos you’re meant to be in my life

Forever, not after a fortnight

That’s not enough time

Dont deny me of a face I want to see

Cos I’m meant to see you

Every second of every day

Not when I’m driven beyond the point of insane

Cos you haven’t stepped foot into my space

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [29.9.19] (I only see the guy I have a crush on after a fortnight cos hes not at work. :( Anyway, this is me putting an idea into the universe and hoping he receives the message cos I’m too nervous to talk to him myself.)

“The people that support and love you in everything you do deserve all the best things the world has to offer and more.”

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [28.9.19] (My best friend is one of these people. I hope hes having a good day. Today. Tomorrow. Always.)

The earth poem

Breathing is hard

When people suffocate you

Living is difficult

When people try to medicate you

Staying awake is so tiring

When society has sedated you

It’s the time of our lives

But we cant stand to be alive

Cos we know what is happening outside

And we can see through the fog

They have clouded in our eyes

We can see through the masks

They forced us to live behind

We can see the torture

Of being alive

In a time where everything has to die

For it to have a chance to be a worthy of life

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [27.9.19] (Today is the last day to protest for climate change and this seemed appropriate.)

“Every rose is met by thorns. But every rose is first born into a garden filled with other flowers.”

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [26.9.19] (Dont know if you guys will like this quote. But I wanted to write a quick quote about life being beautiful, in spite of bad moments. And people being good, in spite of a few bad seeds.)

My sweet love

My sweet love if you die tonight

I’ll wait on the other side

And pull you out of the abyss of death

My sweet love if you cry tonight

I’ll be on your other side

And pull you out of the depth of hell

My sweet love if you cant bear to smile

I’ll be right by your side

And pull you out the pit of despair

My sweet love if you’re not by my side

I’ll hold pictures of you to my chest

And hold them till the day I’m dead

My sweet love if you can’t love yourself

I’ll tell you all the words I’ve ever felt

And hold you until you feel them as well

My sweet love if you need someone

I’ll be right there when I can

And your head will alway have a space on my chest

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [25.9.19] (The first 3 lines are not written by me but have inspired this song. So it’s kinda cute where they’re from. So at the beginning of the Alvin and The Chipmunks first movie, the main guy is showing his original song to someone from a record label and we only hear a few lines. These are those lines. The 2008 emo child in me loved those words and I have caught myself singing those lines for the past 11 years since. So I thought, why don’t I write a poem/song? And this is it! The two halves are different cos I wrote in May 2019 and the other now. Enjoy!)

Maybe its you

Maybe it’s your eyes

They’re like the ocean

I am swimming in the tides

The waves move far and wide

You capture me

But I picture us in movie scenes

Maybe its the way you walk

The way you get to a destination

Before the world

Has an idea of where you’re going

The way you look straight ahead

Like you’re walking

Toward the love of your life

And all you see is her in your sights

Maybe it’s your smile

The dimples on both sides

The way you shine

Like the sun in the morning sky

The way it stays with me until the evening time

Maybe it’s the way it felt

When your hand touched me

And I thought of nothing else

The way the world went away

When I saw the sight of your face

When I felt your hand hold me

Maybe it’s not all these things

Maybe its everything

About you that I like

Maybe its you

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [24.9.19] (I really like this guy, we’ll call him AP from now on. I’ve known him near enough 2 years and liked him from the first minute. God knows if he likes me back. But whatever. If he doesnt. Who cares! I like me enough for the both of us!)

Seaside thoughts

At the edge of the sea

I am standing

With wind pulling on my hair

Dragging my mind away from everything

All the pain and all the ease

All the sad and all the happy

All the good and all the bad

This is the point where the tide turns

But am I in the sea swimming

Or am I on the sand basking

Or am I in a room gazing

So many options

So many visions

Twists and turns

Roads that I could take

Roads different, alike and the same

What I write

What i do

What i say

Is like the sun

Sometimes its warm

Sometimes it’s unknown

And sometimes it burns beautiful and fast

How can I understand which feeling is right?

When I am incapable of acting like a bird

And taking on flight

And taking on a life of solitude

I cannot swim

How do I keep from drowning in it all?

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [23.9.19] (I wrote this a while ago and ngl, its facking beautiful. This is about me finally feeling truly content and happy about life.)

“Theres nothing better than hearing the voice of someone you love.”

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [22.9.19] (So genuinely happy that ebbs is a musician cos he lives a 100 miles away from me so I wouldnt ever hear his voice otherwise. I’d feel like my best friend was a book character and have to make up a non-descript voice for him which would be weird. Makes me so happy that I can hear my favourite person/best friends voice on demand.)

The map that leads to you

I keep walking past the same places

Thinking of you

In shapes that are in map form

It’s like deja vu

But we’ve never been here before

Not in this view

I feel like I am going in circles

Trying not to think of you

But I am in the same place

That I was a year ago

And I can deny it all I want

But you’ll always be my favourite haunt

And none of these paths

I’ve been walking along

Are nearly as beautiful as I find you

From dusk until dawn

I wish I could find you

I wish I could read your mind too

Cos I cant live split in two

Pretending that I don’t know you

When I already do

Cos just like a map

My mind has been shaped by lines

And I have been twisting

Everything that I could find

Everything I knew to be true

Just to fit into the shape

My heart wanted my mind to

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [21.9.19] (This poem is about overthinking and how it can ruin relationships. Most of the time my judgement is right. But when i overthink every interaction or missed interaction, that is when it can go wrong. That is what I was doing today, so I wrote this as a reminder.)