#heartache
Please don’t slip away cause my heart can’t take it. Don’t let this be the end. Please don’t slip away, cause I’ll just keep breaking.
Slip Away - Ruelle
If someone really loves you, they wouldn’t let you slip away no matter how hard the situation is.
I’m slipping away, into the dark. I still need you, but your too far. I reach for your hand, as I slip away. No I’m all alone, without you everyday.
Shannon Weir
Heartache is lying on the bedroom floor, trying your damn hardest to breathe while at the same time wondering why it all went wrong and how you’re going to get up and pretend that everything is alright, and what the hell you’re going to do about that hole in your chest…yeah, that’s my heartache.
I could be your lover and you could be my heartache.
My heart has ached a thousand times. And in each of these moments of loss and pain and the fear turning insane. I seek strength, to gain the power to endure again another heartache a thousand times.
What doesn’t kill you makes you wish you were dead.
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can’t always see the pain someone feels.
POV Reader x Gojo Satoru -
You hold the mission file in your shaking hands reading the name over and over again…Gojo Satoru
Ten long years and not a word, no sign
He took away your fears and worries, after all even back then he was already the strongest. It wasn’t just his stupid pride or overconfidence.
His kisses addictive, his touch intoxcicating sending shivers down your spine. That scent that defined him. It would put you in a daze as soon as you breathed it in, reaching your anxiety riddled brain.
Hmmm and his voice, every little noise that escaped was her undoing…Oh and those damn eyes of his. He was an instrument of pure torture but then he
had jsut left. No sign, not a single word, he just left.
And your world crumbled…ten years you have moved on, found someone good for you. No you wouldn’t let him come back and ruin it all over again. You close the file like closing the chapter of your life with a hurt sigh.
You need a drink. A strong one
Full story on KOFI: https://ko-fi.com/Post/POV-reader-x-Gojo-Satoru-R6R37U9ZL
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hanahaki disease
It aches.
Just laying in bed in the middle of the night trying to close your eyes but you stare at the wall for hours on end. No matter what I do, how I try to distract myself and make the voices quiet I can’t help but feel the ghost of your arms around me. The traces of your fingers in my hair soothing me like a lullaby. I can hear your voice in the distance. But lately, I’ve almost forgotten how you sound. I’ve almost forgotten how your skin feels.
You’ve become so cold and distant just like the memories we shared together. Just like the space between us and the silence that follows along like a knife across the throat. I’ve always choked on my own tears from the thoughts of you and the warmth of your love from your touch and your soul. But now it’s like I’m choking on my own blood.
I still do not understand how the universe could create me but in two; the other half of me is stuck on the other side of the world along with my heart. It was never given back and never given a chance to come closer.
I don’t think I will ever understand how life could tell me I’ve had enough hardships and give you to me as a way of reassurance of a reward of everything I’ve been through, only to take you away. Because after everything, I’m starting to believe it’s just a constant reminder of how undeserving of love I am when I did everything I could to make everything work.
And yet after everything, and at the end of every road, you were the only good thing I’ve ever done in my life. The only one who could chip away the walls I built because of how terrified I was to let you in because I just couldn’t believe someone could love a mess like me. You kissed every scar and sucked out all the poison. Only to leave me in that same spot and state you found me.
I’m worried that I may not last any longer because of how your presence still lingers and haunts me every second of the day no matter how much I try to ignore it. I can even feel my heart that left with you.
It aches.
The biggest lesson I learned is don’t BE with nobody that let you feel like you are lesser than you are because you are at a different stage of progression. Everybody has been at a stage in their life where they were struggling to love theirself… to fix their habits.NOBODY is allowed to draw your deadline for your improvements. NO ONE. Because I let myself fall into the hands of someone who saw no error in his actions. None. It let me poison my perception into thinking that everything I did was wrong, or inadequate. That I was incompetent of improvement. Incapable of seeing light in myself. I lost myself in the midst of finding him. Until I realize that he too is still lost. He doesn’t think he is, but all it will take is but a wrinkle in his time to open his eyes. Do not let another person become the core of making you love yourself. Because then they will convince you that they are beyond the rights of judging you. They will believe that they can bullshit you with anything they can think of and tell you. Don’t let someone love you before you love you. Because somehow..in some way, they will judge that they are more righteous than thou, not even realizing that nobody is truly that righteous yet.
I keep falling in love with impossibility. Falling for what I know I can’t have.
