#missingyou
I can be mean to myself
Like I’m mean to everybody else
At least no one can say I’m not fair
It’s a messy life but we only get one
And I’m trying my best
To do it right
Sometimes it feels easier to just leave
Cut people out of your life the second they cross you
Never let anyone get too close
Look out for yourself and let everyone else do whatever it is they do.
It’s also lonely going through life by yourself
So worried about others that you end up locked away in your room every night
Wondering if anyone will ever actually know who you really are instead of the person you pretend to be.
Good things are coming
.
.
.
at least that’s what everyone keeps telling me.
I’ve been tossed from the road I once was on
The path before me is paved with uncertainties
My mind is lost in a labyrinth of turmoil
Now all that I know is nothing at all
I’ve decided to go to war.
Not with anyone in particular but with my life.
For too long I have just followed life wherever it led me,
My life took away friends, family, and opportunities from me all while I was too busy being at war with what what going on in my own head.
Now, the fear, anxiety, and depression I have that were once my enemy have issued a treaty.
And we are going to take back my life,
Together.
It’s 2AM and I just cut all my hair off because I felt my life spiraling out of control yet again and I wanted to and I wanted to feel in control again. Now I’m kinda freaking out but I also kinda love my new hair!
I know I shouldn’t do it.
I should leave you alone.
But damn it’s so hard
Not to pick up the phone-
Tap on your contact,
Hit “new message”..
And ask how you’re doing.
But I shouldn’t.
I know I shouldn’t do it.
-b.m.
I miss you more than I’ve ever missed you before.
-b.m.
My favorite smell is you on me.
b.m.
You’re My 5 a.m.
I wake up before the birds
To talk to you,
To see that smile form
On your perfect lips
That part and make way for that voice.
I roll over with my hair
In a mess of a pile
While I hold my pillow tight
To my body as if it were you.
My phone rings,
And then I see the light-
Your smiling face looking into my sleepy eyes.
You are my 5 a.m.,
You are my sunrise.
b.m.
I wish I lived closer to my girlfriend ELP TX & DAL TX
i miss all my cats