#tired of being tired

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Quando mi dissero questa parola il mio cuore si fermó. Poi, preso da una scarica di adrenalina, battè più forte come a voler uscire fuori dal petto.. Come a voler andare a risanare il suo male che sentivo forte come fosse di mia proprietà.

~Piuma

Some years ago I was a straight A student, I was motivated and successful in everything I was doing, now I’m accumulating B’s, I barely get out of my house and I stress over everything so much I end up failing or not doing it at all lmao wft went wrong

writers block is killing me right now. i have so many ideas and requests that i want to write, but every time i sit down to do so my motivation drops. also comparing how much i wrote last summer is making me feel like a failure since i was posting left and right and now i can’t even finish a single fic. anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk and hopefully i can get out of this funk soon.

And that pretty sums up the spoonie life.

My Mind | 10

Yesterday I cried. I don’t even know why I cried. I’m so sad. I’m always sad, there’s a dark cloud floats over me but instead of rain it’s sadness that surrounds me. I can’t remember the last time I was truly happy. I can’t remember what Happiness feels like. Was I ever Happy?.. I’m trapped in my mind and the only thing that keeps me awake are my thoughts. I wish I could shut them out just for a while I’m so tired and I just need to rest… just for a little bit. I don’t understand people making jokes about depression, what’s funny about it? Did I miss the joke cause I’m not laughing. I’m so afraid of my thoughts that I won’t let anyone get close enough to me but how do I tell the person who wants to get to know me? People hurt People that’s a fact my mind is telling me so I’ll stay in the darkness of my thoughts and keep my distance It’s not healthy but at least I’m safe. I’ve been in the dark for so long that It has become my friend. I got some demons in my head they trying to trick me but that’s okay…. I’m used to it..

- a vision of ecstasy

I’ve been so tired stuDYING this week, I had to draw my confort character

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