In addition, Sandalphon is blocking the exit. And he and Gabriel are standing at complete 180 degree points with Aziraphale in the centre. This is a thing I have known sadistic interviewers to do: to deliberately sit (or stand) at such angles to the victim/interviewee that they can never have both interviewers in their eyeline at the same time. To make eye contact with one, you have to lose sight of the other. Normally I’ve seen it done with the two interviewers at 90 degrees, so the interviewee has to keep turning their head. This is even more cruel: Aziraphale has to turn his back on whomever is not speaking. It’s a deliberate tactic to make a victim more awkward and wrong-footed, and in this case, even physically vulnerable.
Yep. You’ve articulated what I was trying to get at with ‘’trap’’. You don’t block off the exits like that to have a polite conversation. You do it to threatensomebody.
It’s like they took the mob intimidation bit from the original book and turned it into something far more horrifying and with more weight for his character arc, because this is what gangsters do to scare people. imo Gabriel is fairly well aware of whats going on long before the surveillance photos come into it and he just likes watching Aziraphale squirm with anxiety over how much he knows, because he’s not stupid, he’s a sadistic bully.
And Aziraphale is playing the game so well. He tells himself he trusts them but he absolutely doesn’t. He smiles, he nods, he tells them nothing. He has a quick answer for the jibe about the evil smell. He shows zero reaction to their loud comments about pornography (react, and prove you’re more used to humans than to angels? That you find angels embarrassing now? That you know more about earth than the guy who stationed you there?). He’s covering his ass expertly—he knows how to defend himself. He’s watched angels fall.
Like don’t get me wrong, I like a good clueless boss as much as the next person. But that’s not Gabriel. Michael asks if Gabriel minds Michael following up through back channels and Gabriel plainly says “there are no back channels, Michael” and it’s not because Gabriel thinks there are no back channels, of course there fucking are, he’s been using them too. But how dare Michael bring them up so baldly. How dare Michael betray the ruse, and to his face like that. They’re the good guys, you know.
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@jacquez45 reply: this is one bit where I wish they’d left in something: in this scene, Crowley has literally snuck out when Gabriel & Sandalphon enter the shop. (In the script book, Aziraphale basically keeps them out of the back room until he sees that Crowley has gotten out, then invites them back.)
the reason I wish they’d left this in is that yes, Aziraphale clearly feels the threat in this scene, but he fucking brazens it out anyway, straight-up lying about the Jeffrey Archer books when he knows full well what Sandalphon is actually smelling — the aired scene implies that it might be Crowley, but the scripted one it’s much clearer, and I like the extra layer of courage that the clarity gives Aziraphale.
@forineffablereasonsreply: #NOT TO MENTION THE VERY THINLY VEILED HOMOPHOBIC THREAT #OF SANDALPHON BEING ASSOCIATED WITH SMITING PEOPLE IN SODOM AND GOMORRAH #SURE WE CAN CHAT BIBLICAL ACCURACY BUT THE CULTURAL MINDSET IS MEANT TO INFORM HERE #IN THE CONTEXT OF AZIRAPHALE’S QUEER NARRATIVE? 100% A HOMOPHOBIC THREAT
@gomensgayreply: and saying “you remember sandalphon?” like sandalphon isn’t one of the four bastards aziraphale has been reporting to regularly for eleven years At Least????
That wasn’t “hey, you remember who this random guy is, right?”
That was “hey, remember what we can do to you if you step out of line.”
Scary shit.
@violetfaustreply: I’ve been convinced that Gabriel is smarter and even more malicious than he pretends since the watch-through when I realized Gabriel knows Adam is the Antichrist BEFORE he gets to the airfield. Even Crowley doesn’t know Adam’s name (”You, boy, Antichrist–what’s your name?”) and Beelz has no idea which of the kids he is until Crowley wordlessly points him out. But Gabe says, “That one. Adam Young.” The only way he can know is if he’s somehow keeping extremely close watch on Az.
Gabriel’s bland “I’m sure there must be some explanation” to those pics of Az and Crowley is not the shock of a being who finds out he’s been betrayed by a trusted employee for at least 400 years. It’s not even the vindication of finding out that an UNtrustworthy employee has in fact been guilty for 400 years. He’s entirely unsurprised and his denial that back channels exist is a tacit approval for Michael to finally bring this out in the open. “Go ahead and do what you want but I didn’t tell you to because I’m the good guy.”
Yeah, Gabriel has been waiting for Az to slip up for six thousand years. So why doesn’t he just use his knowledge of the Arrangement against him? Because LOTS of angels and demons have arrangements. Michael has Ligur; Gabe himself has some unnamed downstairs source. If Gabriel punishes Az and/or Crowley and one of them knows about this, the whole system could come crumbling down. (It’s fine to be a hypocrite as long as nobody knows about it.)
So he’ll just wait for Az to take that one step too far and to Fall, get chucked out of heaven. But that never happens. And it pisses Gabriel off.
Gabriel saying to Aziraphale in the sushi restaurant, “it’s a miracle he hasn’t spotted you yet” about Crowley, when 218 years ago in 1800, Gabriel spied on Crowley and heard him talking very specifically about Aziraphale and his ability to thwart, which I think counts very much as having “spotted” Aziraphale. It’s a deleted scene, but it definitely got far enough to be worth considering.
In that same 1800 scene, when Gabriel and Sandalphon show up at the shop, Aziraphale argues that he needs to stay on Earth because Crowley has “been here as long as I have.” Later, when Gabriel comes to tell Aziraphale that Armageddon is starting, Aziraphale reminds him how long he’s been here, and Gabriel responds, “so has Crowley.” These lines - the whole incidents - seem referential to each other.
Finally, Gabriel asks Aziraphale, “how was the hellhound?” after Warlock’s birthday party. Theoretically, of course, Aziraphale could have informed the angels that he was planning to attend the party…but we don’t see him or hear any reference to him doing it, and in fact Aziraphale didn’t know himself that there was supposed to be a hellhound until the 11th hour. This looks to me like Gabriel knowing more than he lets on (except in strategic moments like this).
All this leads me to believe Heaven knows WAY more than it lets on. I also kind of wonder - if Hell has the same level of knowledge as Heaven, was Crowley chosen as the Antichrist’s deliverer as a punishment, some kind of bizarre torture meant to “test” his “loyalty”? Was Aziraphale’s station on Earth meant to be a punishment that the angels are now unhappy about because he enjoys it?
@whispsofwindreply: I don’t remember where I read it, but I really liked the theory that being on Earth is a punishment for Aziraphale, but a reward for Crowley.
Aziraphale failed in Eden, so being on Earth, basically cut off from most of Heaven, would be a punishment (except he actually loves it, which must frustrate Gabriel to no end).
On the other hand Crowley’s stunt in Eden was a major success, and it would make sense that staying on Earth would be a reward. Hell is clearly miserable. Threatening to take that reward away would give Hell yet another tool to blackmail and control Crowley. I don’t think they would have given him the Antichrist if they didn’t trust his abilities, it was too important of a job to use it as a test or a punishment, anyway.
Also, from what we saw in the show, I wouldn’t be surprised if Heaven knew a lot more than Hell does. Unlike the book, Heaven is very present, and organized in a cult-like manner. Gabriel really reminds me of a cult-leader, friendly and apparently innocuous on the outside while being actually ruthless. Such a group would have the means and the motive to create a very efficient surveillance system, under the guise to protect the sanctity of Heaven.
On the other side, Hell is much more chaotic, ruled through threats and violence. Collaboration is actively discouraged. Fear is encouraged, and I got the impression that powerful demons prefer to terrorize minor demons into obeying instead of actually checking if orders are being carried out (“Do this or I’ll skin you alive” instead of “Do this and I’ll come down later to check you actually did it”). Such an environment isn’t optimal for a good surveillance system, because information will be lost in the chaos, or hidden in fear.
You can also see this difference in the way Heaven and Hell contact Aziraphale and Crowley. Hell constantly talks to Crowley through the radio or the telly, basically a constant reminder of “you are never safe, we are always watching and we will hurt you if you make a mistake”. Except that’s really inefficient, and it allows Crowley to hid things under their nose despite being very scared of his superiors. Correct me if I am wrong, but Hell representatives only interact with Crowley in the flesh when he is called to pick Adam up, and when Hastur and Ligur go to murder him. The demons usually keep their distance, which means the information they get may be distorted.
Heaven on the other hand? The Archangel Fucking Gabriel goes personally, multiple times, to talk with Aziraphale. In the sushi restaurant, at the park, in the bookshop. He gets into Aziraphale’s personal space all the time, and he usually plays it as friendly interactions. In a lot of instances, he isn’t even trying to scare Aziraphale into compliance, he is emotionally abusing him. It’s not “we are always watching so you should be terrified”, it’s more of a “hey buddy, you see how I really care? I am here and you are really disappointing me, why can’t you do this one thing right?”.
Only when he brings Sandalphon the emotional abuse takes a step further into a more threatening territory. Gabriel has a more hands-on approach than his counterpart, and if he asks the same of his underlings he probably gets very precise information.
In short, I think Gabriel knows a lot more than Hell on what Crowley and Aziraphale are up to, and would absolutely love to punish Aziraphale, except he can’t because then he would put his own back-channels into jeopardy. So he turns to petty bullying and cruelty under the facade of the Friendly Boss/Family Member.
@krakensdottirreply: The contrast is fascinating, honestly. “I was reprimanded for performing too many frivolous miracles, got a strongly worded letter from Gabriel” vs. “My lot do not send rude notes” / “Is it my fault they never check up?”
Hell is inefficient. That’s clear from their offices, it’s one of the major traits separating Heaven and Hell. So they might not check up on you often, beyond lazily sending reminders over electronic media. If you are caught not doing your job, the consequences are dreadful - ‘reprimand’ is a mild word for it - but it doesn’t happen often. Your odds of getting busted for any one thing are very low, so if you’re a renegade demon, you might as well live on the edge and take that chance.
Heaven is exactly the opposite. They’re ruthlessly efficient and organized, and you bet they monitor miracles. Aziraphale can’t so much as miracle up a handkerchief to sneeze in without them getting on him about it. That’s why he’s so much more cautious, so hesitant, always so wary of pushing boundaries. His consequences may be, at least on the surface, milder, but he is MUCH more likely to have to face them. And they add up. Beyond the notes, there are warnings, and beyond the warnings there are threats, and beyond the threats… well, Hell got their ideas from somewhere, didn’t they?
@mage-catreply: In short, in Good Omens the conflict between Heaven and Hell is not Good versus Evil, but rather Order verses Chaos, and the work makes a brilliant case about why you don’t want to be at either end of the spectrum.
@whetstonefiresreply: Heaven was deliberately kept absent in the book, when the whole thing was a Cold War analogy where they were Britain-NATO and Hell was the Soviet Union–two organizations that were not really particularly different at a deep level, i.e. you needed real expertise to tell their armies apart, and which tended not to really care about the things that are important to people, and which were quite likely to wind up obliterating life on Earth in a stupid shoving competition.
Hell was semi-present and explicitly awful; Heaven didn’t care about the right things but they cared about doing things the right way, and weren’t deliberately cruel. Just unfeeling. The narrative shared Aziraphale’s disinclination to be really critical.
Heaven is the thing that therefore got the most new building-up and updating to the current political climate, in the miniseries, as it became a central player. Its identity didn’t necessarily change, but what Gaiman was trying to say about it sure did.
Visually, they went with the effect of Heaven as the upper reaches of a skyscraper and Hell as its mouldering horrible basement, but the structural impression is of Heaven as the government and Hell as organized crime.
While the latter is a lot more likely to just come around and fuck you up, and to make sure their employees are scared of their capacity violence on an immediate level, the former is much, much more powerful, their reach is longer and they and know a lot more. Their scary goes a lot further. Good Omens the book had one foot in the nuclear age and one foot in the information age, but it’s been 30 years.
@winterbirbreply: Everyone in the notes is using this as n example of Gabriel and using an intimidation technique, which makes sense from a Watsonian perspective (even though I don’t subscribe to it), but I’d like to bring up an important Doylist (aka writer/producer decision) point:
This actually separates Gabriel from some of the biblical atrocities assigned to him, especially Sodom and Gomorrah, which in biblical mythology had Gabriel do the smiting et cetera.
So from a production standpoint, having Sandalphon in this scene isn’t (Doylistically) to intimidate Aziraphale with Gabriel as the aggressor, but instead to reinforce the image of Gabriel as the “company man” while Sandalphon is the one who actually enjoys being cruel.
I’d like to reference the 2006 US paperback edition, where after Crowley describes most demons akin to tax inspectors, he goes on to say
“…If it came to that, most angels weren’t paragons of virtue; Crowley had met one or two who, when it came to righteously smiting the ungodly, smote a good deal harder than strictly necessary. On the whole, everyone had a job to do, and just did it.
“And on the other hand, you got people like Ligur and Hastur, who took such a dark delight in unpleasantness you might have even mistaken them for human.” (p. 253 para. 1-2)
Gabriel and Sandalphon pretty neatly exemplify the difference between these two attitudes. Especially when you consider that the producers did not have to change who smote Sodom and Gomorrah, Sandalphon’s purpose is to be that unnamed angel that takes way too much joy in smiting (see his face in the 2nd and 4th panels), which serves as a foil for Gabriel who represents the prevailing attitude of “just has a job to do,” like the tax inspector.
Tl;dr: This wasn’t done to make Gabriel maliciously evil, it was a production choice where they included both Gabriel and Sandalphon in the same scene so that the audience would a. See an angel described in the book as “[smiting] a good deal harder than strictly necessary” and b. Have it be made clear that contrary to what biblical mythology might suggest, this angel is not Gabriel.
@morelifeangelreply: I think it goes even beyond that. I think Gabriel certainly had a sense that Aziraphale had gotten (from his point of view) too comfortable with the humans, but beyond that, I get the impression that he likes intimidating Aziraphale simply for the fun of it. While Sandalphon seems like a petty thug, he’s at least obvious in what he is.
Gabriel is more like the sort of person who can do horrible things at his job and actively enjoy it, and then go around to enjoy a nice meal with his wife and children. The sort people say, “He could never do something like that, he’s such a good guy!”
After all, he’s on God’s side, so anything he does is clearly right, isn’t it?
@fuckyeahisawthatreply: There’s a lot of great takes on this scene in the reblogs already, but yeah… Gabriel may be oblivious about many human things (not because he’s dumb but because he just doesn’t care) but he’s not stupid.
As for whether he has any idea what’s going on between Aziraphale and Crowley…personally, I don’t think he has the imagination for that. But he’s a bully, so making people uncomfortable is fun, and Aziraphale’s a soft target cause clearly he’s seen as The Weird One among angels.
Right after this scene, there’s a parallel scene with Crowley, where Hastur and Ligur talk to him through the TV. The thing about both these scenes is that Aziraphale and Crowley’s respective higher-ups and lower-downs don’t really deliver any new information to them. In both cases, the sole purpose of these “HEY just checking in!!” visits is intimidation. It’s to remind them, Shit’s about to get real on Earth and we’re watching you. Don’t fuck this up.
Of course, we the audience know that they have already, most definitely, fucked this up. And the characters, in the scenes immediately preceding this at the end of episode 1, have just confirmed for themselves that yes, they have indeed fucked this up. And here come their bosses to make sure they haven’t forgotten exactly what the stakes are. As usual, Heaven and Hell are doing the exact same thing; Heaven’s just doing it with a smile on their faces.
@not-a-fucking-pogo-stickreply: Also with the turning people into salt bit. It’s both the more clear homophobic threat and a reference to the death of the only person who looked back towards those condemned, Lot’s wife, who was turned into a pillar of salt. Definitely calls to mind the close association of Aziraphale to one of the damned ie Crowley, who he could be considered to have looked back towards after the fall by not dismissing him as the other angels seem to have done the other demons.
@rocket-poolreply: Yes to all this, except maybe Gabriel knowing what was up before Michael pulls out the intelligence network. He makes a point of calling him Azira-FAIL (whereas Crowley calls him Azira-FELL, something Gaiman has confirmed was done purposefully). I think he’s just a bully, going straight back to Aziraphale “failing” to prevent the temptation of Eve.
Of course, if Michael suspected - and they are very obviously the intelligence officer, with the backchannels - they could have been stoking Gabriel’s dislike. That would lead to this more… Careful treatment. Especially if you hold to Crowley only just leaving, Michael might have been trying to catch Aziraphale in the act…
@loptsvinr reply: Pretty sure dealing with angels is why Aziraphale is so good at lying. The angels are a very organised/lawful gang, whereas the demons are more of a chaotic evil mess. The demons couldn’t even make sure the Baby Switch Plan would be executed perfectly, whereas if the angels were given that task they would constantly be watching over everything.
@livebloggingmydescentintomadness reply: i feel like it also really deserves pointing out that Gabriel very specifically brought the angel who carried out the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah to intimidate Aziraphale, The Queer Angel.
now, in actuality, the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah was not about homosexuality (Ezekiel 16:49–50: “Now this was the sin of your sister Sodom: she and her daughters were arrogant, overfed and unconcerned; they did not help the poor and needy. They were haughty and did detestable things before me.“) but it’s pretty damn ingrained in the public consciousness that it was “a gay thing” to the point where anal sex is called sodomy.
it’s too deliberately mentioned to be an accident. Gabriel brought the angel who (we all have been led to believe) slaughtered queers to intimidate Aziraphale. that’s why Aziraphale looks so uncomfortable.
@ineffabilumreply: Ugh, this makes my heart hurt. How awful to be threatened by the good guys, to be trapped in a room and think, well, it’s a good thing I didn’t Fall. It’s no wonder Aziraphale is always telling Crowley, “Yes, but you’re a demon.” If this is what Heaven’s like, what kindness could he possibly expect from Hell?
#of course he does trust crowley #but every once in a while that defense mechanism kicks back in: #don’t laugh until they laugh don’t let your guard down don’t show your hand first #locate the exits be polite feign ignorance smile but not like that not too wide #it’s hard to let someone in when you’re waiting for the other shoe to fall
@thesourthernpansyreply: And to go on from that point, it so very clear that Aziraphale doesn’t agree with Sandalphon’s methods, remembering him and slightly changing key in his voice to ‘I dont like what you do, but technically we’re all doing it for the same thing, so I’ll put up with you cos my boss is right there’. And that’s it!
@falloutboyrocksmysocksreply: Oh I like this! And I’m loving the fact that there is still so much of this show left to talk about like this and analyse!
For me the way that Sandalphon was positioned at Aziraphale’s back, while Gabriel positioned himself in front of Aziraphale, made me think. In the Bible during the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah, Lot, who the 2 angels that were sent as emissaries to visit, and lodged and ate with, and Lot’s wife, were told to flee the city after God commanded it to be destroyed due to the sins committed there.
The 2 angels told Lot, Lot’s wife and a few others to leave and commanded them “look not behind thee”, to not look back at the destruction, but Lot’s wife did and she was turned to a pillar of salt.
Remembering that, I couldn’t help thinking of why Gabriel brought Sandalphon, but when he mentioned Sodom and Gomorrah, and that Sandalphon was partly responsible, it made me think even more about how he was positioned in regards to Aziraphale, and the decision made to position them that way.
It made Aziraphale have to look back at Sandalphon to talk to him.
Maybe I’m reading too much into that, but seeing as this is a show that always has a reason for literally everything that happens in it, I thought it was very interesting.
@katy-133reply: Can we talk about how in the book, Crowley went to Gomorrah?
I’m just picturing Crowley and Aziraphale separately visiting the place at some point, quite enjoying the food, not knowing the other was there. And then both of them leaving just before Sandalphon arrived, saw what was happening, and decided that it had to go.
@aura218fandomnetreply: it’s a threat to crowley too. we know what you’ve been up to, we know with whom, we know you know we know, and if you play along, we don’t have to mention this. as long as you behave, we can keep up this shared fake ignorance of your greatest sin and everything is the status quo for a little bit longer. but WE are in control of how long that status quo lasts and we can take that feeling of safety away from you and from your lover.
@220-221b-whateverittakesreply: Can we also talk about the choice of Sandalphon as the heavy in particular? We know Az is super gay coded, and his narrative is a pretty blatant coming out story. But Sandalphon, of all the other angels, shares that coding. And how does Az know him? Sodom and Freaking Gomorrah. The biblical story most often used to persecute the Gays ever since King James decided to put his spin on the Vulgate. To me it reads as a threat like, “We know what you are, and either you turn against it like Sandalphon, or Sandalphon turns your gay ass into salt.” Sandalphon strikes me as the perfect archetype of the ex-gay/closeted-gay that works out their shit by persecuting their own. If you told me he was in charge of Heaven’s version of Exodus International for naughty angels needing reeducation to avoid Falling, it would completely track.
@ffxplayerreply: In the interview for the TV Companion(which is amazing, you should read it if you love Good Omens, I borrowed my copy from library)the actor who plays Gabriel(someone help me out here I’m too lazy to google right now)said he was going for American CEO, same kind of power play. And it definitely comes through in this scene. Intimidation through mind games is totally Gabriel’s scene. Like I don’t for a second think he’s stupid. I wouldn’t love to loathe him if he was stupid. He’s very very clever at what he does, and has zero fucks to give about whether this might make him evil. His sense of right and wrong is his own belief in what HE thinks is right. Scary concept.
@eretriaelessedilsreply: It seems others have beaten me to making this point but I saw this on ig first and wanted to contribute- the traditional interpretation for the reason the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah were destroyed was widespread homosexual activities of the inhabitants, and if Sandalphon was the one who killed nearly all the inhabitants of two whole cities for being gay it seems like a very deliberate choice for Gabriel to bring him. Especially alongside other angels seeming to threaten aziraphale in terms of homosexuality with Uriel goading Aziraphale with “your boyfriend with the dark glasses”, and Uriel being the angel of chasity could indicate another threat had the relationship she implied between Crowley and Aziraphale been sexual- and then Uriel being the one to most strongly threaten him physically (at least before he was sentenced to death) in pushing him against the wall does seem imply further violence. Overall I cant help but think there was somewhat of an implication that Heaven thought the relationship between Aziraphale and Crowley did verge into romantic and were prepared to threaten and punish Aziraphale for it if he stepped out of line.
“It’s a miracle he’s never noticed you.” Gabriel’s not an idiot, he knows there’s no way Crowley doesn’t know about Aziraphale. Aziraphale is hiding something from him, but there’s no proof.
The pause there, examining Aziraphales reaction.
“But that’s what we do.” A reminder, you’re an angel, one of mine, don’t forget what team you belong to.
A threat, all of it.
@grrlcookeryreply: The demons in GO? They’re evil, but they do damage like a snake or a cat would. Theyre following their nature with no shame or apology. The angels? They’re terrifying. They’re pretending to hold the moral high ground. They’re behaving as though they have a right to choose their actions, whereas the demons simply act. I’d rather meet a GO demon than an angel, any day.
Can we talk about Aziraphale’s rebellion? I want to talk about Aziraphale’s rebellion.
Like, obviously Aziraphale rebelling against Heaven started with giving away the sword. We all know this. He took his stand six thousand years ago and has, in his own quiet way, been defending his choice ever since. In the miniseries, we don’t see as much of how Aziraphale actually conducts his work on Earth as we do of Crowley’s half-hearted attempts at Being Bad, aside from that one line during the drunken bookshop scene about how he tries to influence humans to do the actual thwarting, but I think a lot about the line from the script book that was cut for time, about how he was hoping to influence Nero by getting him interested in music. Which… hoooooo boy is thata lot to unpack, but I digress.
Crowley gave humanity the opportunity to choose, and has continued to do so, allowing mankind to choose their fates. And Aziraphale? Aziraphale is doing just as he did in giving Adam and Eve his sword: giving humanity the tools with which to enact their own destiny, whatever that may be. Aziraphale’s methodology is a consistent defense of his original rebellion, but he still tries for six thousand years to tread the fine line of loyalty to Heaven, even as he makes it oh so very clear, with his misprint Bibles and his love of human culture and his clear discomfort in the face of Heaven’s other messengers, that he doesn’t like their ways or their attitude.
But that isn’t what I want to talk about. What I want to talk about is the moment that Aziraphale goes full loose cannon.
When Aziraphale first gets poofed back to Heaven, he starts out this confrontation with the Quartermaster with the same fumbling, almost unctious behavior he shows to the Archangels (feat. Sandalphon) up until this point. He doesn’t like these people, he barely evenrespects these people, but he feels he owes them his loyalty so he speaks courteously and very nearly obsequiously (but with a twinkle in his eye that says “I am mentally eviscerating every stupidass word out of your idiot mouth” the whole time). He makes light of having been discorporated because he knows he’s in trouble and he’s so in the habit of trying to downplay his slip ups, his tiny rebellions, and dress them up in humor, that it’s his go-to reaction when he suddenly finds himself bodiless and stuck in the absolute last place he wants to be.
But then the Quartermaster starts giving him a dressing down, and at first we see Aziraphale kind of wilting under his ire, shrinking back into himself (which is an amazing bit of physicality from Mr. Sheen, seriously, go rewatch, the body language he uses in this whole scene is amazing) and trying to compress himself down under Heaven’s rage… but then the final blow is delivered:
“You pathetic excuse for an angel!”
And Aziraphale just kind of goes still and absorbs this. He thinks it over. He straightens up. And he makes his choice.
“Well, I suppose I am, really.”
He knows what he is. He’s known from the beginning. His rebellion began six thousand years ago, and all these years with humanity and with Crowley, pushing and pulling at him and making him think and evaluate and question everything, has made him ready to own up to it.
Up until this point, Aziraphale’s rebellion— his misprint Bibles and his little white lies and his overindulgence in human things and the questions he keeps to himself for fear of Falling— has been so quiet. It’s been whispers behind closed doors and a hush-hush Arrangement with an Adversary he shouldn’t even speak to let alone have cozy dinners with. It’s all under lock and key and oh so very discrete.
Until now. Now Aziraphale is pissed.
He’s spent six thousand years teaching humans how to solve their own problems, giving them the tools they need to fight their own battles and actually make use of that power of choice Crowley gave them, even if he doesn’t actually realize that’s what he’s been doing all these years. He’s put literally all the Time there has ever been into guiding and caring for the Earth, and under absolutely no fucking circumstances is he going to let it all be blown to bits so Heaven and Hell can have their stupid pissing contest all over it.
And suddenly all that servile obedience to Heaven, all that soft-spoken pandering, just evaporates. Suddenly it’s “I have nointention of fighting in any war!” Suddenly it’s “Idemand to be returned [to Earth]!” Suddenly Aziraphale has absolutely run out of fucks to give and he’s ready to scream out everything that’s been coming to a slow boil inside him over the course of so many centuries. And he doesn’t know yet, he doesn’t yet understand that all the work he and Crowley have been doing for six thousand years has already given Adam and the Them everything they need to make their choice and defend it. As far as Aziraphale is concerned, he and probably Crowley are the only thing standing between the Earth and its imminent destruction, and he absolutely will not just stand back and let it happen.
It doesn’t matter that his Quartermaster is berating him. It doesn’t matter that that whole line of angels has suddenly turned in eerie, perfect unison to stare him down with blank-eyed dispassion and unfeeling Judgment. It doesn’t matter that this is treason in Heaven’s eyes, that there’s a damn good chance he’s going to Fall for this. He’s chosen his side, and he’s making a stand.
And then the thought occurs to him that, well, why can’t he just go back to Earth? Why can’t he just possess a convenient human host? Demons can do that, and what are demons but fallen angels? Why can’the do what a demon can do? He knows damn well and good that angels and demons aren’t really all that far apart— he has six millennia worth of love and an Arrangement spanning nearly a thousand years to prove it. We talk about Crowley and his imagination and creativity, but Aziraphale is no slouch when it comes to thinking outside the box either. So once Aziraphale starts asking questions, reallyasking them and not just thinking them quietly to himself and then locking them up tight where no one is likely to see, he instantly becomes this unstoppable cannonball of chaotic energy. It’s the loudest, most brazen Rebellion since Lucifer himself, and it’s done in the service of Humanity, because Aziraphale’s defining character trait is his radical kindness.
Basically, Aziraphale backflips out of Heaven with both middle fingers in the air, and frankly I think it’s amazing.
So in all that cringing away from the Quartermaster, I see Aziraphale’s eternity of being slowly chipped away by the emotional abuse of Heaven. He might question what’s right, he might question whether he even respects his superiors as he should, but deep down he is an angel and he WANTS so very much to be a good angel. He wants to be acknowledged. He wants to be told that his rebellions are ok because they’re done for the Right Reason (at the same time that he does NOT want to be found out).
And then…they push him too far. Hell is after Crowley (Who may or may not be leaving for ever) earth is about to be destroyed, humanity is going to be wiped out, NO ONE CARES, and now all his failures are laid bare and
And Aziraphale decides he just does not give a single care, s**t or f**k anymore.
It’s like, he hits rock bottom, and realizes in that second that he can actually stand on his own two feet.
TRIGER WARNINGS: TERFS, depression physical abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, death, sexual harrassment, sexual harrassment from a family member, abusive relationship, abusive boyfriend, toxic relationship, unaccepting family, rape, toxic family, family
as everyone knows i have quit tumblr. i originally joined when I was closeted as an escape from my family who are not open minded. i had posted my early transition progress frequently including when I found out that I’m intersex. when i started this blog i had short blonde hair and walked around naked constantly because all of my male clothes made me super dysphoric. a year after i joined engaged to a guy named Luke who i never ever showed pics of or even introduced to any of my irl friends, mainly because he was physically and sexually abusive and i didn’t want pics of someone who i was terrified of on my blog. i used to make a bunch of awful jokes and even made a joke blog about not wiping my ass under the name of Mark Skidz as a coping mechanism with all the bullshit in my life. then my house caught on fire and shortly after i started getting sexually harrased by a distant relative on facebook then after that tumblr started to become toxic to me when i got cyberbullied by over 500 TERFs, i also got sexually harrased on tumblr in my anons (many of which i was stupid enough to answer instead of just deleting them). then i found out Luke was cheating on me constantly and that was basically the final straw for me which caused me to post a bunch of suicidal posts on here and basically caused my life to go completely downhill since, i did have a girlfriend for a brief period she was cute and supportive but it just didn’t work out because we had too many problems of our own. after that break up i decided to take a break from social media. but shortly after i quit without warning because i couldn’t post on here anymore because it was too painful for me. long story short this post is my final goodbye. thank you to everyone who supported me over the years until we meet again
One of the main symptoms of narcissistic personality disorder is a cognitive distortion known as black and white thinking. Narcissists generally lack “whole object relations” and only see things as black or white.
Black and white thinking doesn’t allow the narcissist to see that people at the same time have qualities and flaws; they believe that people are either good or bad. A covert narcissist doesn’t care about your feelings. They don’t respect others and have no empathy for other people’s emotions. They only want to control and use triangulation to protect their ego and maintain control.
How to React to Narcissist Triangulation?
Ending the manipulation in narcissist triangulation is the only way to escape the toxic relationship and maintain good mental health.
Here are the three essential steps in ending the narcissistic abuse and recovering from it.
1. Recognize that the Narcissist is Using Triangulation
The first step in ending the triangulation is becoming aware of it. Recognizing that triangulation is happening will empower you to stop feeling guilty. It will also help you realize that the problem is with the narcissist, not with you.
2. Cut Off the Contact with the Narcissist
The most effective way to end triangulation is to cut off the narcissist ties. Once you leave the relationship and stop providing attention to the narcissist, the triangle fails.
3. Set Clear Boundaries
If you must stay in touch with the narcissist (e.g., share children, work together, etc.), make sure to set firm boundaries. Boundaries are an essential aspect of self-care that allows you to stop the abuse cycle in narcissist triangulation.
Since most romantic relationships are between two individuals, triangulation would appear impossible. However, the narcissist will often bring in a third party for the purpose of playing their victims off of each other.
For instance, a married narcissist might start spending more time with a coworker or friend, which their partner would not reasonably object to. The narcissist then casually mentions how the coworker or friend exhibits a quality or behavior that is superior to their partner’s.
These comments make their partner feel inadequate, leading them to try harder to please the narcissist. This enhanced control is what the narcissist was looking for; it provides them with the admiration they crave. The coworker and friend will likely have no idea that they’re being used as a foil to the narcissist’s partner. They may not even express the qualities or behaviors that the narcissist is claiming. This idealized version of them is enough to torment and control the narcissist’s partner.
Triangulation is commonly used after a breakup or narcissistic discard and is a way for the abuser to wiggle their way back into the victim’s life. The narcissist might boast about their new relationship and how everything in it is better than with the victim.
They could also mention how their new love interest looks down on the victim, which directs anger away from the narcissist who may have fabricated everything about their new partner all along
Triangulation is considered a form of emotional abuse that can occur in any relationship. Your covert narcissistic partner may pull in a third person into your toxic relationship to create conflicts between the two of you so they can manipulate and take advantage of you. Your narcissistic partner then acts as a messenger between you and another person, making sure that there is limited or no communication between the two of you except through the narcissist.
Narcissists often invoke feelings of insecurity and jealousy to maintain control in a relationship. For example, they might tell you about a coworker who keeps flirting with them, creating an illusion that they are desirable. This may cause you to feel insecure and afraid that your partner may leave you.
Or they may tell you stories of how their ex treated them poorly to summon feelings of loyalty and get all your attention. A narcissist will also use triangulation to send you subtle messages of how you must behave to keep them. The covert narcissist will also use this form of emotional abuse once they have decided they don’t want to be with you anymore – they will pull in a third person and talk to them about their intentions.
This is a way of controlling your behavior.
Similarly, your narcissistic friend may use triangulation to manipulate you. He or she might lie and tell a third person things you have been saying about them (which you haven’t said) and vice versa, creating a rivalry and conflicts between the two of you. Typically, all communication would go via the narcissist, but you and the third person would both feel anger, hurt, and tension every time you see each other. For all this time, the narcissist will maintain their guiltlessness, acting empathetic to your issues.
The Three Traditional Parts of the Triangle:
The three specific parts within the triangle in relationships are the Persecutor, the Victim, and the Rescuer. Stephen Karpman first described the destructive model of the drama triangle in late 1960 to explain the dynamic in relationships of narcissistic abuse and other toxic relationships.
The Persecutor
This is the position a narcissist will take when they are on the attack – blaming, controlling, shaming, or aggressive. They will target you as a wrongdoer so they can criticize and blame you.
The Victim
Narcissists will use the ‘victim’ position typically to present themselves as helpless, hopeless, being taken advantage of – in short, being victimized. This allows them to waive any responsibility for their words or actions and blame you instead.
The Rescuer
In a toxic codependent relationship with a narcissist, you may quickly find yourself in the position of the ‘Rescuer’ – the fixer, helper, and pleaser. The ‘Rescuer’ typically accepts responsibility for the ‘Victim’s feelings or behavior, which is a core of dynamics in toxic codependent relationships.
While the narcissist can quickly shift from any of these positions, they most commonly play the persecutor’s or the victim’s roles. Then they pull others into one of the positions within the triangle to create drama, conflict, and other toxic patterns.
Narcissist Hoovering comes in so many different forms, which can make it incredibly difficult for those being targeted to know what’s happening in the moment. Often it’s only in hindsight that they see how the narcissist was manipulating them all along.
1. Making Threats
This might be the most straightforward hoovering tactic, and although it can be incredibly scary, it doesn’t leave any questions about the intentions of the narcissist. Most often they’ll use statements like:
“I’ll destroy you”
“I’m taking the kids”
“Without me, you’ll have nothing”
Those words are designed to make you think that life without the narcissist will be worse, much much worse. Frightening scenarios like losing your home, children, or finances prevent you from thinking clearly about how destructive life with a narcissist has been and how much power they actually have to enact their revenge upon you. Additionally, if you’re in danger physically, don’t assume that appeasing the narcissist will keep you safe. Extricating yourself from the toxic relationship is the only way to ensure that.
2. Using Children or Mutual Friends as a Foot in the Door
The simplest solution to dealing with a narcissist is to walk away and go no-contact. That’s easier said than done though; it’s near impossible if you share a close circle of friends and is unworkable if you share custody of a child with them.
The narcissist will invent problems for the person you care for and use them as an excuse to continue contact. The problem may be fictitious or exaggerated – anything to get your guard down so they can worm their way back into your life.
“Our son is struggling in school, have you been going over his homework with him?”
“I think (our friend) really needs someone with them right now. Do you want to come over with me?”
3. Faux Incidental Contact
Narcissists know that you want nothing to do with them after a discard. Many fabricate innocuous reasons for seeing or speaking to you, such as visiting places around town that you’re known to frequent or calling you by “accident”.
This form of hoovering feels very much like stalking, but it’s done in such a way that you can’t really prove the narcissist is intentionally contacting you. Once they’re in your presence or have you on the line, they’ll ask probing questions about how your life is going post-break-up. If they find a weakness, they’ll exploit it to keep you hooked and providing them with supply.
4. Holding on to Your Belongings
If you’ve ever been through a breakup where you had to move out, you know how awkward it can be to grab all of your stuff. You might send a friend over to do it or ask your former partner to not be around while you pack up, but those methods won’t fly with a narcissist. Not only will they remind you of everything you might have left at their house, they’ll make sure to note anything of theirs in your possession.
“You left some books over here, do you want to come get them?”
“You have one of my shirts, I need you to bring it back”
It’s never about the things though; they’re just an easy talking point that forces you to stay in contact with them. If you’ve recently broken up with a narcissist, make sure you sort out whatever property either of you might have so you can move on as quickly as possible.
5. Boosting Your Ego
The most common reason people fall in love with a narcissist is the intense flattery that occurs at the beginning of the relationship (love bombing). Narcissists can be charming and during the idealization phase, their love for you seems to know no bounds. Unfortunately, they only love how you make them feel through your supply, and that feeling is fleeting. When the feelings cool, devaluation, and discard occur. To pull you back into their circle, the narcissist reverts to that idealization phase, as they crave the initial supply you gave them and the feelings that came with it.
6. Reminiscing About the Past
Few of us would ever fall in love with an abuser – there’s usually at least a brief moment at the beginning of a relationship when everything is going well. When the narcissist wants to pull you back into their life, they’ll remind you of the good times, hoping you’ll forget everything that followed. It helps to keep in mind that the narcissist’s more recent behavior is a better predictor of their future actions than those warm moments from the beginning of the relationship.
7. Promising a Better Future
What’s the one thing we always hear from domestic violence survivors about their abusers? When they lash out, they say they’ll never do it again, only to repeat the same cycle over and over again. While people certainly can change, when the narcissist says that they will, it’s rarely a sincere commitment.
8. Calling on Memorable Dates
“I just thought I’ll give you a call since it’s your birthday, I hope you’re having a wonderful time”
“Today would have been our third anniversary and it got me thinking…”
On the surface this behavior actually actually seems kind of sweet – they’re thinking about you. Unfortunately, their concern for your well-being is just a veneer.
This is an opportunity for them to call you, look like a good person, and keep you on the line. While they’re at it, the narcissist might seek out information about how you’re doing/feeling, which they can use to manipulate you into further contact.
9. One Last Conversation
This is frequently used when you’ve gone no-contact after breaking up with the narcissist and they’ll use it to get their foot in the door.
“I just have a couple things I’d like to say, then we can go our separate ways”
“I really need to explain something”
The conversation that ensues doesn’t provide you with closure or help to clear up a misunderstanding. The narcissist is drawing you in with the possibility of some finality to their Narcissistic abuse – you just need to endure one last conversation. But it’s not the final call, and the content of the conversation will veer wildly from what you assumed it would be. It’s all about pulling you back into the relationship. A similar tactic would be the narcissist saying they “need to see you one last time.”
10. Subtly Reaching Out
Have you ever had an ex that kept liking your Facebook or Instagram posts long after you broke up and stopped talking? Notifications keep popping up with their name in them, and you can’t help but think about them and what their intention is for these likes. Narcissists are experts at this head game and they know the more time you spend wondering about them, the more likely you are to return to the relationship.
11. Appeals to Religious Beliefs
Narcissists frequently use their victim’s faith against them, twisting their beliefs to keep them in the relationship longer.
“I’ve been praying, and God has told me we should be together”
“Divorce is a mortal sin”
“You’ve turned your back on Jesus, I can help you find him again”
Our religious faith contains some of our most deeply held beliefs. When a narcissist hijacks the authority of those beliefs, and forces us to choose between staying with them or ostensibly going against our faith, it can be devastating. Fortunately, faith can also provide you with a community of people that care about you and provide much-needed perspective on your relationship with the narcissist.
12. Glossing Over Past Abuse
This is where the narcissist will pretend that nothing negative happened between the two of you or they’ll minimize it to the point of irrelevance. Their prior emotional abuse will be blown off as “a phase” or “minor argument”, when it was really a series of one-sided attacks. The narcissist has created a new reality where both of you were at fault. Such tactics also make you question the severity of the abuse and whether you overreacted to it. As such, you’re more likely to accept it in the future.
13. Destroying Your Self Worth
By definition, narcissists are highly-skilled at promoting themselves and all of their positive qualities. Many are also quite good at finding faults within you, and pointing out how you’ll never find someone better. They’ll attack the most vulnerable elements of your personality and pounce on the qualities you hold dearest.
“You’re a terrible mother, the kids would be better off without you”
“Everyone at your job hates you and knows you’re the worst employee”
14. Bringing In a Third Party
Narcissists are masters of manipulation and recruiting an army of flying monkeys is one of their most favored tactics. The narcissist will seek out your mutual friends, family members, or even work acquaintances if they can, and use them to pressure you to return to the relationship. The narcissist might mention how much they miss you, how good things had been, or even pin the blame for the break up on you. Using your unwitting contacts against you is particularly damaging as it starts to feel like you have no one who can empathize with your problems. The narcissist’s hope is that you’ll eventually return to them rather than be ostracized by friends and family that believed the relationship was going swimmingly.
15. Threatening to Harm Themselves
One of the quickest ways for a narcissist to get your guard down is by threatening to hurt themselves. It places their victim into a position of responsibility, where walking away would feel immoral.
“I’ll kill myself if you leave me”
“I’ve been cutting ever since we broke up”
This tactic is particularly damaging because you can’t be sure if the narcissist is using these threats to control you or if there is a real possibility of self-harm. If suicide is mentioned, call the police. Though you should never feel responsible for the actions of the narcissist, this is a good way to take the responsibility off of yourself, without feeling guilty about walking away.
How to Combat Hoovering?
There are so many forms of hoovering that there’s really no one-size-fits-all solution. The best thing you can do for yourself is simply recognizing that it’s happening. If it feels like you’re being manipulated in some way, you almost certainly are and it’s best to break contact as quickly as possible.
Sorry I haven’t been posting lately I’ve been dealing with a skin disease that will scar my face and body for the rest of my life because of the pain full blisters all over my body.
I got this illness from my exboyfriends dirty house. We broke up after he cheated on me then I was diagnosed with this illness the day after … I don’t know what I did to deserve this but I’m trying to remain hopeful that my body will heal and I can go back to normal. Until then no face pics . He cheated on me with my exfriend I told him I hated because she’s a slut and what did he do, he slept with her . Now I’m stuck living with him until I can afford to move out in febuary . He’s a constant painful reminder of the betrayal… I wish I could afford face laser surgery and be beautiful again.
I’m doing everything I can to prevent scars . Using vitamin e oil, Aztec secret clay mask calcium benotinite, benzoyl peroxide face wash, some perscribed toner, and many more products. I just hope people will still find me beautiful. My mom told me at least I don’t have to worry about people using me for my looks so I guess I’m never going to be as beautiful as I was before . And I only just realized my beauty…
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
We’ve received another $10 bringing the total up to $385.
Yesterday my father announced that we’re not doing Christmas because “I hate Christmas.” This means we aren’t going to the family’s holiday party (my dad’s decision was not influenced by COVID, which he thinks it’s a hoax), no Christmas dinner, no presents. I know my mother has already bought some small presents, and if this is anything like in years past, me receiving them will have my father screaming that I’m ungrateful, selfish, and a drain on his resources, and my father getting presents will have him screaming that my mother wasted money and he hates this day.
The truly fucked up thing is that if she doesn’t buy him presents, or if she and I exchange without him, he also pitches a fit about how we’re excluding him and hate him.
I’m hoping for this to be our last Christmas as a family. Please donate if you can so we can escape this hell.
I’m sorry to keep spamming your feeds. I’ve been denied government assistance again, and finances are extremely tight. My father controls every single penny my mother spends so she’s been saving small amounts from her grocery allowance to try and save for an apartment. On top of this, I also have my own bills to pay, and have an upcoming one of $100 that I don’t know if I’ll be able to pay.
We are both disabled women trying to escape from an abusive situation. To get a little more cash, I have a redbubble shop and we scan all of our receipts in Ibotta, but this has still only brought us up to $402 this month. I am trying to raise at least $1600 more to be able to move into a new apartment with my mother away from my father.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
We’ve received another $10 bringing the total up to $385.
Yesterday my father announced that we’re not doing Christmas because “I hate Christmas.” This means we aren’t going to the family’s holiday party (my dad’s decision was not influenced by COVID, which he thinks it’s a hoax), no Christmas dinner, no presents. I know my mother has already bought some small presents, and if this is anything like in years past, me receiving them will have my father screaming that I’m ungrateful, selfish, and a drain on his resources, and my father getting presents will have him screaming that my mother wasted money and he hates this day.
The truly fucked up thing is that if she doesn’t buy him presents, or if she and I exchange without him, he also pitches a fit about how we’re excluding him and hate him.
I’m hoping for this to be our last Christmas as a family. Please donate if you can so we can escape this hell.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
We’ve received $375 in total since Thanksgiving. Thank you so much to the people who donated, and please, if you can spare anything, even just a dollar, consider sending it our way. You can also check out my redbubble if you’re uncomfortable/don’t know how to just send money through Paypal.
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
Today my applications for SNAP, medical assistance, and cash assistance were denied. So that’s great.
In case you missed it, I am currently trying to raise money to escape my abusive father and move in with my disabled mother upon the finalization of her divorce. Neither my mother nor I can afford to live on our own. I moved back in with my parents at the start of the pandemic after suffering an unrelated mental breakdown. This was a mistake.
I do have a redbubbleshop, where I sell mostly stickers (Fruits Basket, Haikyuu!!, and Persona) and some wallpapers I’ve made as my only source of income, as well as a paypal - Laurrante@ gmail. com (no spaces). I am trying to raise at least $2,000 to cover the initial costs of moving into an apartment with my mother (rent, car insurance, utilities, groceries, and medication for both of us) without my father finding out. He doesn’t know about the divorce and we don’t want him getting wind of it.
My father is abusive emotionally, verbally, and financially. Some of the things he’s done to us include: Refusing to put in the window AC units during a heat wave which almost put me and my mother in the hospital for heat stroke, threatening to poison, kill, or throw out our animals, insults the animals almost daily (calling them stupid, ugly, disgusting, etc, and threatening to eat them), constantly berate and insult us for not being able to work or “not doing anything” during the day, completely control every penny spent and meticulously monitor mail for packages, berate and insult us whenever he has a bad day at work or is annoyed, scare the shit out of our cats by screaming and stomping around and then yell at the cats for not wanting to be near him, and every day undermine everything we say, act like we’re stupid and don’t know what we’re talking about. My father also cheats on my mother, and has since the last time she got out of the hospital after heart surgery. He expects her to do all the housework, yard work, and grocery shopping with no help, and if I attempt to help or do it myself he yells at us both. He’s called me a failure as a daughter, an adult, and a human being.
My father is extremely racist and attempted to disown me several years ago for dating a black man. The only reason I was allowed back in the house was because my mother begged. Our only relationship is his abusive commentary and my trying to ignore it.
Please help my mother, myself, and our cats escape my father. Any amount helps at all. The last time I posted we received $175! I am adding more stickers to my redbubble shop, and am accepting donations through Paypal. It’s my goal to raise at least $2,000 without alerting my father.
(Pleasereblog this post, rather than like. Only reblogs spread posts through this platform. Likes only bookmark it for yourself and no one can see them.)
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
My mother and I have received very few donations. We are unable to find a place to live and both of us are disabled. I’ve started looking into cashback apps like Ibotta just for some change on things we already buy, so please, if you’re able to, even a dollar would help immensely. To put it in perspective, I have two thousand followers. A single dollar from each of you would help my mother and me reach our goal of $2,000. Every little bit helps and is greatly appreciated.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
My mother and I have received very few donations. We are unable to find a place to live and both of us are disabled. I’ve started looking into cashback apps like Ibotta just for some change on things we already buy, so please, if you’re able to, even a dollar would help immensely. To put it in perspective, I have two thousand followers. A single dollar from each of you would help my mother and me reach our goal of $2,000. Every little bit helps and is greatly appreciated.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
My mother and I have received very few donations. We are unable to find a place to live and both of us are disabled. I’ve started looking into cashback apps like Ibotta just for some change on things we already buy, so please, if you’re able to, even a dollar would help immensely. To put it in perspective, I have two thousand followers. A single dollar from each of you would help my mother and me reach our goal of $2,000. Every little bit helps and is greatly appreciated.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
Hey everyone, I really need help. I had to move back into my parents’ house during the pandemic when I became very sick, and my depression skyrocketed. I am disabled and chronically ill and I can’t work, and I only recently got health insurance (Medicaid) but cannot afford a therapist or medication (none near me take Medicaid).
My parents are divorcing, which is good for them because my father is an absolutely awful, abusive piece of shit, but bad for me. I don’t have a place to go, and I used all my savings to scrape through the pandemic. I am trying to afford to be able to move in with my mom (also disabled) to split rent because I cannot stay in this house without her protection, and she can’t really afford an apartment without a roommate.
My father has on numerous occasions threatened to kill my animals, refused to let me use the air conditioning in a heat wave (nearly went to the hospital for heat stroke and inability to breathe), threatens to kick my cats out or hit them at least once a week, and constantly berates, belittles, and insults me because I’m disabled, autistic, and mentally ill. If I’d been able to support myself I never would have moved in during the pandemic because I’ve been trying my whole life to get away from him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me and had called me the worst daughter and a failure as a human being, and also told me I deserved every bad thing that’s ever happened to me (being raped, being in an abusive relationship, losing my child). My father never does anything for himself and when my mom leaves he’s said I can only stay if I wait on him hand and foot like my mother did, and there’s no guarantee he won’t throw me out anyway when he moves his girlfriend in. He’s also threatening to sell my car, meaning I will be trapped in the house until he decides to come home at the end of the night.
I don’t have anywhere to go and I feel bad asking for help but even a dollar would help immensely. I need to be able to find a therapist and get medication, and then start the process of applying for disability, and find some way to get rent to my mom so I can move out with her and get away from my father.
My PayPal is laurrante @ Gmail(.) com. Please, every little bit helps. I just want to get me, my cats, and my mom away from this man.
This is from my main blog. Please, if you can spare even a dollar, my mom and I are trying to escape financial and emotional abuse
I’ve gotten a few reblogs but most are from me and my side blogs. Please, please, if you can’t donate, reblog to spread the word. You can donate directly to my PayPal at laurrante@ Gmail(.)com (no spaces). I don’t want to risk my father stumbling over something public like a GoFundMe because he doesn’t know my mother is divorcing him and trying to leave.
Please reblog this post to spread out around. Likes are appreciated but the way Tumblr works its nobody can see your likes. Please reblog if you can’t donate. My mom and I really appreciate it.
Thank you so much to S (I don’t know if you want your name out there) - so far they’re the only person who’s been able to donate but that’s still more money than my mom and I had! We appreciate it!
We’re looking at roughly $2,000 to be able to move out away from my father, and that’s just for rent (first, last, deposit) and some groceries, and that’s if my father complies with the divorce terms and pays his alimony. Please, even a dollar would help. Thanks to S, we need $1980! Please reblog if you can’t donate, every dollar helps so much.
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