#thinsinpiration

*starts my period*

ed brain-

…… :(

rational brain-

you sick fuck

*trying to open up about my ed*

‘So do you just like not eat’

me: ‘obviously I eat’

‘Oh that’s good then, I’m glad it’s not serious’

I never thought my eating disorder was real cause I was never severely emaciated. Yes I was underweight and yes I had a feeding tube at one point, but people would always make comments like “You are extremely skinny, but it doesnt look like you have an ed”. Now my brain is constantly like prove it to yourself and get THAT skinny. Then another part of my brain is like, that’s so stupid and will only make you more miserable. Anyone relate or am I just crazy lol?

my insomnia and laziness is such a power couple

i don’t do anything during the day then i write 2 essays and study for the physics test at 3 am

today went ok i went to training and i also did my regular 40 min -500 cals workout

i did eat fast food with my friends and indeed more than i’d like to admit but as i didn’t eat much otherwise i’ll let that slip ( I let it but my evil braincells are still creating this living hell out of my life bc of those *chiccy nuggies* )

sleep well darlings<3