#sad love
هذه هي المفارقة في الحب - شخص ما يمكن أن يكون كل شيء لديك ، لكنه لا ينتمي إليك.
“that’s the irony in love”, I said. “Someone can be your everything, yet doesn’t belong to you.”
— memoirsofbilal from the book Perpetual Flaws
أصلي من أجلك وآمل أن تصلي من أجلي
some nights when it’s tahajjud, I pray for you and I hope, you pray for me too.
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
يرجى أن تكون أي شيء سوى محاكمة لشخص ما
please be anything — but a trial for someone
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
كيف تنسى التي بكيت عليها بالدعاء؟
how do you forget the one — you cried in prayers to have?
—memoirsofbilal from Perpetual Flaws
لدي عمر أعيش بدونك ولست مستعدًا لذلك
i have a lifetime to live without you and i am not ready for that
—memoirsofbilal from Perpetual Flaws
as the year ends
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I waited for this for months and it’s finally out now.
“I loved you unconditionally, but you gave me so much in return. I loved you yet couldn’t make you happy, but you gifted me with hurt and sadness. You gave me loneliness, denial, chaos, guilt, regret and all the things I didn’t expect. It seems like you gave me more than I could’ve ever given to you and I only had love, which wasn’t good enough.”
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
لا أستطيع أن أفعل شيئًا سوى الصلاة لأن قلبي يعلم أنه ليس من المفترض أن نكون كذلك
I can do nothing but pray because my heart knows we’re not meant to be.
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
“Sometimes, you lose people. People who promised to stay — walk away, right infront of your eyes and there’s nothing you could do about it. As much as you hold onto them, it hurts until you let go. And you lose yourself along with them. Sometimes, you lose people and they say, it’s for good. Sometimes, you lose people you wish you didn’t and sometimes, you pray they stayed. Sometimes, you know the reason but other times, it is what it is.”
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
“I know you gave your attention, your affection to this person you thought was your soulmate and it’s okay. It happens. No one will blame you. I know they didn’t feel the same, their feelings changed, they left you and it’s okay, it happens. No one should blame them. I know you’d open the door for them to walk in again if they knock without a thought and it’s not okay. One day, you will only wake up to regret it. Let go of people who bring negativity into your space and take as long as you want to get through it. In the meantime, learn to give all the attention and affection to yourself, when you feel the time is right to share it with someone new — do it. But make sure, the attention and affection is shared with the same person. Please don’t end up giving your affection to the present leaving all the attention in your past.” by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
— past and present
عندما لا تتوافق قطع أحجية الحب معًا بعد الآن - ثق بي ، لقد بدأوا في الاتصال في مكان آخر.
“when the pieces of your love puzzle don’t fit together anymore — trust me, they’ve started to connect somewhere else.”
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
“I don’t understand why I keep things that I no longer need. For example — flower in my books, a white shirt I probably wouldn’t wear, ripped pair of shoes and your memories.”
— memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
“I dreamt of you, last night. I met you in my dream. I remember, I held your hand and looked you in the eyes but I’m afraid — they seemed clueless and your smile wasn’t serene. Your arms had always been my home but the hug last night screamed ‘goodbye’. I can easily recall how your hand slipped through mine and later, you faded like you were never there. I promise, I saw you in my dream and it feels, you visited to say that we’re not meant to be.” by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
— dream or a nightmare
“It’s been a year since we met for the first time and it feels as if it was yesterday. My hand was in your hand and your head was on my shoulder. I was embracing the birthmark on your hand and you were promising me ‘forever’. I remember I had always told you not to make promises you wouldn’t keep and ‘I want you, that’s it’, you would reply. You wanted me to crave you more than I wanted my books and I never stopped loving you ever since. It’s been a year and it feels as if it was yesterday when you were madly in love with me. Some nights, I forget that we had ever broken up and I hope I would get your text when I wake up next day.” by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
— Good morning, baby
“Can we meet once again, for the first time? Can you tell me again that you are falling for my eyes? Is there any chance of you promising me that you won’t break my heart and tell me that choosing you over everything is not a mistake that I’m about to make? Can you hold my hand and tell me you want to get engaged before you leave the town? Can you call me one more time because you want to listen to my voice? Can you tell me you’re missing me more than anything in your life? Can I come to meet you one more time and this time, like the last time you did — can you ask me to stay?” by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
— because I wanted to stay and you asked me leave
