#ed thoughts

I love how every time I complain/rant abt something it gets “resolved” like the next day‍♀️

Anyway, I was able to weight myself and surprisingly enough I’m 117.8. So more 118 than 117 but y'know how it is.

I’m getting really annoying back aches, are my bones finally screaming for calcium lol (a genuine question, it’s been a real problem lately)

your-skinny-usual-bitch:

Realising that you will never be that small petite girl with a tiny waist an a huge thigh gap cause your bone structure is not made like this feels so bad

 im 5′7 and although my thighs are considerably skinny i doubt ill ever get a thigh gap and it upsets me more than it should :(

zero-calorie-alcohol:

Me: *sees an extremely skinny person*

Me: *looks up like I’m on the office*

THIS IS ME ON A DAILY BASIS

Ugh I ate 1066 calories so far.

I’m losing control.. I’m stressing a lot over college and food that I just wanna stuff my face.

I really hate myself..

This will be it for today

Okay but actually being on tumblr is very triggering and I do this intentionally to trigger myself lmao.

My limit was 800 calories and at the end of scrolling here I planned the rest of the day till it only became 470 calories lol and you tell me this site ain’t promoting anything.

We are just here triggering ourselves intentionally whether we like it or not..

Hahahahaha-

What did I get from my eating disorder, you ask?

Acute cholecystitis.

On the bright side, I’m not allowed to eat greasy food/ high carbs food/ anything that would upset my stomach.

I’m still crying.

Please be careful guys, you can get the same thing with rapid weight loss and low calories diet..

I honestly just feel like binging today. I feel stressed from uni, I didn’t sleep and I’m so tired and exhausted and thinking about food and calories is just making it harder to me at this point.

I had 300 calories for breakfast and I still want to eat more. I never even have breakfast. I’m drinking tea to avoid these urges.. I planned the rest of the day and it came around 1000 calories so I’ll see what I can do about it. I want to eat 1200 but I’m sure I will gain from it.

I’m just so tired, I want to binge..

Omg.. I’m still losing? Idk what’s happening to my body but thank you.

Hit my second goal weight.

Third one here I come!

Got my period .-. Nice I’ll just want to eat more, gain/maintain and feel sad all the time now

recoveringlesbian:

helgry:

speech

tear-my-skin-off:

greenteaandcalorie:

When your so far into restricting that you no longer feel hungry but you know that inevitably you will need food to sustain life so youre constantly on edge waiting for that binge to come that will ruin all your progress

Due to personal reasons, I will not be leaving the house, even after quarantine, because I hate my body and I’m ugly

Anyone else have designated ‘crying while body checking’ songs or is that just me…?

Lmao why do people follow me I’m just a sad bitch with food issues

No one:

Literally no one:

Me: I’m gonna get skinny. For real. Like deadass. It’s gonna happen this time. And when it happens, it’s over for all of you bitches.

Also me, the next day:

Let me get this straight… so you’re telling me that normal people would feel insulted if they were called anorexic?

Dude I’d kill to have a body worth being called anorexic

Going on a trip in a few weeks. Time to really crack down and get ✨skinni✨

When your sister starts trying to lose weight and starts making a million comments about food and calories and not being allowed to eat certain things so now your ED is going insane because you have to be better than her