Porque atragantandome con comida hasta no poder respirar estoy bien

Porque tirando toda mi comida a la basura te digo que estoy bien

Porque mientras me lavo las manos después de vomitar te voy a decir que estoy bien

Con un ataque de ansiedad y luego llorar en el suelo durante dos horas igual te sonrio y estoy bien

Cuando no recuerdo lo que pasó estoy bien

Porque cuando corre mi propia sangre estoy bien

Cuando apreto tan fuerte mis puños hasta que mis uñas quedan marcadas en mis palmas aún estoy bien

Cuando rompo mis cosas estoy bien

Porque a pesar de que me hacen menos con palabras y actos a diario estoy muy bien

Porque a pesar de reírme estoy bien

Cuando los consuelo, los escucho, los abrazo, los ánimo siempre estoy bien

YO SIEMPRE ESTOY BIEN

SIEMPRE ESTOY BIEN

PORQUE SOY FELIZ Y ESTOY BIEN

PORQUE DEBO VERME BIEN Y ESTAR BIEN

When your sister starts trying to lose weight and starts making a million comments about food and calories and not being allowed to eat certain things so now your ED is going insane because you have to be better than her

can i hurry up and lose this weight so i can get to the maintenance stage i’m so TIRED

i refuse to try recovery until my body looks somewhat acceptable to me

Someone underweight: I have anorexia

Me: I believe you

Someone overweight: I have anorexia

Me : I believe you

My doctor : You have anorexia

Me: Uh, I think the fuck not you trick ass bitch

Hey you guys be really careful about joining ed Twitter because it super obvious how pro ana they are.

I deleted my account last year because it got way too toxic way too fast

I love ed tumblr because you guys are so open and kind to everyone - thx ☺️

Drawing thinspo is my new favorite past time

Forgot to log today but, I just had a couple veggie sushi’s and an iced coffee about 560 cals total anyway to the point of this posts lmao, does anybody else kinda want to go to the hospital or a psych ward cause, you could leave all your responsibilities and get away from your life or, am I just crazy???

So um.. I’m not going to be active because my mom is gonna go though my phone and I have to delete Tumblr bc if she sees this I’m in trouble.. IM GOING TO BE BACK THO ✌

DON’T eat, it’s not worth it you’ve gone so far don’t ruin it now. Put that food down, You got this! don’t think of food,distract yourself don’t eat, just don’t…You’ll regret it.

This is for me, but you could use it if it helps. :)

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Black and white thinspo/ribspo

“Sigh, better luck next time” ✨||may thinspo

may thinspo: ✨

I wish I was this thin and fragile, i could wear and short skirt and let my pretty thin legs hang out, it seems so free no one would judge me I could wear anything

I’m so mad my tiktok got banned!! Idk why, my page was a venting page and others could relate to it! How come I get banned for posting that, but grown women on this app dancing and twerking half naked, knowing there’s kids on tiktok don’t get banned! I don’t get it, my venting page gets banned but basically soft pornography dosent? I’m so pissed.

Turns out, school is cancelled for the rest of the year, which means… hAhA I could focus more on loosing weight and be thin for the next school year! (And forever) But I would miss my friend :( ,,, but I’m going to be

S k i n n y ✨

I’m not eating this week, because I want to be skinny also be skinny when I return back to school, when school opens again.

Hunger pains are kicking in ✌

Okay i forget to make this but here it is: (btw it’s 5:38 am probably not at the moment when you’re reading this but still)..(And yes I haven’t slept yet)

What I ate yesterday

Breakfast: 0 cals

Lunch:0 cals

Dinner: 0 cals

Mood bc I didn’t consume anything:

Ana Accountability (01.21.22)

Morning:

12 fl oz can Mountain Dew Major Melon, 160cal

Tyson Any'tizers Buffalo Style Hot Wings (unmeasured), ~190cal

Subtotal: ~350cal

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Afternoon:

1 banana (unmeasured), ~110cal

12 fl oz Arizona Diet Half & Half Tea Lemonade, 10cal

Wrigley’s Extra Polar Ice Gum, 5cal

Monster Pops Lemon Lime popsicle, 60cal

Subtotal: ~185cal

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Evening:

Wendy’s medium fries, 350cal

Wendy’s spicy chicken sandwich, 500cal

Wendy’s medium (~20 fl oz) Coke Zero, 0cal

Beef lo mein, ???cal

Egg fried rice, ???cal

Subtotal: 850cal+

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Total Caloric Intake: ????cal (1,380cal+)

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Not me failing at high restriction. I was aiming to limit myself to 1,500cal at most, but of course one of my parents has to suddenly decided to bring Chinese takeout home for everybody on the day I start trying to do daily accountability posts again. I guess I should have expected to fuck up the first day back when it’s been quite a while since I actually starved myself anyways. Oh well, I won’t let this stop me from trying to restrict tomorrow or the day after. I’m sure it won’t be long until I start getting restless and begin naturally restricting more and more as time goes on also.

Also, I apologize to anyone that finds the formatting of this post kind of ugly; I’ve never really known how to make my daily accountability posts look particularly nice and neat.

the severely mentally ill urge to date someone equally mentally ill or with the same illnesses so i get worse just from being with them

Any grown mentally ill bitches from EDblr wanna be in an unhealthy friendship where we never shut up?

I’m a 23-year-old (gender-questioning) AFAB bi/queer, I’m dx with ADHD and BPD, and I’m (objectively) fat with a dead ED blog, lol.

Okay, I need to start starving myself again ASAP, if not because I’m simply fucked up, because a hot girl on a dating app asked if we could meet up at some time.