#lonely

Idgaf

I gave you your Christmas present early,

I don’t know why

but my friend convinced me to.

she said it would give you time 

to think of something really great to give me 

because you don’t even give me your time.

as if a gift will make up for all those nights I spent up crying,

I don’t think a Smiths record will make you see that…

Helen told me New York was lonely

but I’ve been here for years

and yet,

I wasn’t as lonely

when I was alone

as I have been with you…

I wish there was a tiny Life Coach, Adam Cam possibly, placed permanently on my shoulder to give me daily positive thoughts, encouragement, motivation and advices to change my mindset when I feel deeply down and lonely. I hate feeling this way, I want to feel some happyness!

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