I was about to binge but i just had two pieces of brownie and stopped when i had at least 5 fast food places, cafes and shops etc around me. (Plus two frozen pizzas in the freezer) I feel guilty for the brownies but at least i stopped and if i fast for 24h i should be fine and not gain hopefully. I’ll try to burn 500 calories today as well. So far i’ve burned 272 so thats a good start (its 2 pm here)
I’m not the happiest about today but could be worse i guess. I couldn’t count properly and my watch died before i got home so i could have burned more calories but idk so i hate it
I didn’t hate today but i think i can always improve. Did not waste calories on hot chocolate like yesterday at least. Also weird fact about me I’m a dairy free vegetarian which makes it quite easy for me to restrict certain things!
Going on a water fast and I can already feel it going well! All I have to do is find things to hyperfocus on for the next few days so I remain distracted from the idea of eating food. Maybe neurodivergence does have some advantages.
Today is day one and I haven’t weighed myself yet, but it’s not really a problem since I know how much weight I tend to lose during fasts, so I can take my weight later and then just add to it to get my beginning weight.
Me coming back to this post after ruining my fast and gaining weight:
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So it turns out that even though my plan seemed full-proof, my forgetful and impulsive ND brain chose to ignore it. RIP.
And then I also found out that one of the batteries in my smart scale actually leaked battery acid and corroded the metal bits in the battery compartment of the scale, so I ended up having to use a regular scale to weight myself last week. Luckily, I’ve learned how to clean up the corrosion and could weight myself today, but I’m not sure if I want to do a stats update on here since I don’t have the body fat percentage of last week + I gained slightly.
Ive been doing my best to only eat some crackers and coleslaw for lunch. Yesterday my boss brought in crab so i made a little salad and didnt feel too bad about eating it.
Ive been doing chew and spit for whenever i crave some of the fries, nuggets, or cornballs, and no ones noticed :) im on the right track i jus gotta keep going
i decided to add time to my my fast, since i gained so much weight this week. i’m now 21 hours into my 84 hour fast. thankfully i just got pods so at least i have nic and water for when i get hungry ♀️
let’s do this again, shall we:
food doesn’t control me, i control food.
skip dinner, wake up thinner.
nothing will EVER taste as good as skinny feels.
i’m not hungry, i’m bored. go exercise.
think of everything you can wear when you’re finally ✨small✨.
remember who you’re doing this for. remember why.
it’s a slow process, but giving up isn’t going to make it go any faster.
self control is a key attribute. so control yourself.
Just changed my widgets from red aesthetic to pastel blue thinspo <3 i think this will help my motivation just seeing how pretty skinny girls are all the time
So I can be the cute one. The one they lift up and marvel at how light I am. The one that suits everything they wear. The one that just sips diet soda instead of having lunch. The one that is mysterious and elegant. So I fit those pants again and they’re loose on me. So I know there was a point to all of this.
I binged so bad yesterday at work. On my two days off i only ate once a day and very little at that… i felt amazing yesterday morning but ended up eating a hamburger and ice cream
I need motivation so badly so im gonna be much more active on this account from now on.
When I’m hungry (which is often) I imagine my body becoming more pure, my stomach inching towards my ribs, the fat being eaten away. I imagine my delight at seeing the numbers on the scale drop. I imagine feeling my ribs and the bones of my wrist. As my stomach growls I imagine I am being carved by the hunger, a tool by which I am made thin and perfect.
This. This is why its so addicting… the feeling of hunger is beautiful now. Its an adrenaline rush to keep going; this right here is the best explaination.
