currently 5:30pm and i’ve only taken in 10 cals this whole day. getting my self control back :)

i like looking fragile

a body check..

one day i just want to be good enough to look like a thinspo picture

i love the feeling of feeling empty. even when i exercise i need to take breaks, not because i’m out of breath but because my bones pressing into the floor hurts

wanting to go back to easily restricting under 800 a day

i know i must be doing something right because rings now fall off my fingers when i wear them

Ariana-spo ‼

to all the girls/guys on this app trying to cope with an ed, PLEASE be careful of the people on here that ask to be your “ana coach” and ask for body checks because they fetishize eds. 

ily stay safe <3

not me trying to convince myself that I like my coffee black..

Its really sweet of her.. I just hate having to make up a new lie every time she asks and it gives me anxiety that she’s going to find out. 

My boyfriend thinks I’m cheating because I close my apps quickly around him. When in reality I’m just worried he’s going to see me logging my calories and/or looking at thinspo…

If anyone needed motivation to drink water

21.01.21 update ✨

Fasting today :)

When I weighed myself this morning I was 134 lbs and omg I’m more than halfway between my start weight and my goal weight!

I made a meme

ED tumblr is a cult and I am proud to be a member /s ✨

R/edanonymemes

18.01.21 update ✨

Probably ate well over 3k calories this weekend, my boyfriend made a comment to me about how he’s worried I have an eating disorder so I ate everything in the house to compensate.

I feel like such a failure.

I’m huge.

Love getting cute texts from my boyfriend

Jan 15 body check

Today was the first time I saw my boyfriend since he has to quarantine for Covid.

I lost 15 pounds in those two weeks and I thought he wouldn’t notice but he’s called me tiny like 6 times and he told me I look skinny

I ate normally today because I didn’t want him to be sus to I’ll just have to work it off when he’s sleeping or something

r/edanonymemes

10.01.21 update

Breakfast: fast

Lunch: fast

Dinner: 2 sushi rolls (≈500cals?)

Broke a 30 hr fast with sushi cause my bf wanted to go get dinner.

Purged what I could 45 mins later when I had dropped him off and was heading home.

Exercise:

2 hrs of light cycling: 600 cals

1 and ½ hours of walk/run with my dog: 300cals

Idk my real net bc I purged but let’s just say,

✨Total: -400cals✨

It’s impossible to imagine myself as thin as these models in my thinspos :(

09.01.21 update

Fasted all day and exercised by stationary cycling for and hour and a half, burned about 700 cals :)

Total intake: -700cals

Curious as to what y’all think about Eugenia Cooney?

Went out to dinner with my bf to break a 30 hour fast and after I dropped him off at his house I pulled over and threw up everything I could.

My eyes are swollen and puffy now, and I still feel guilty for eating.

My bf sent me this and idk how to feel. He doesn’t know ab my ed.

My fav fav fav thinspo is the ones where they’re so skinny that their jeans don’t fit their waist I want this so bad.

justnoone1999:

how i prevent a binge:

step one: distinguish why i want to eat.

-do i just like to walk in the kitchen for no good reason? -> walk around your room

-do i need to do something with my hands? -> play with your phone or look for sometting else to do with your hands.

-do i want to chew on something? -> chew gum (not your fingers/nails)

-do i crave something specific? -> (im working on that but..) scroll through tumblr and remind yourself why you do this.

step two: dont binge