#deep feelings
“I can tell the way you looked at me was different. Because you looked at me, the way I looked at you. And I looked at you as if the whole constellation had put itself within your eyes.”
I really thought that if I distanced myself, and if I let go first; then I could move on. I thought that my feelings for you weren’t strong enough to foster. Until we were stuck in the same 10 am biology lecture, and you approached me with your autumn eyes, that I then knew why some feelings couldn’t simply go away.
— heart2heartwritings
“En cuanto empezamos a sentir la vida, descubriremos que hay muchos tipos de amor en el mundo, pero nunca el mismo amor… lo encontraremos dos veces”.
— Juan Francisco Palencia.
“I feel as though I am a collection of people who never existed, but wanted to, each at odds with the other over matters of meaning and life pursuit, each clamoring for my undivided attention.” - d.c.
i deserve fucking olympic gold medals for the amount of times i’ve cried this week and then gone to school and pretended to be fine for the sake of my friends and family
we try to hide our feelings, but we forget that our eyes speak.
feelings never do make sense. they get you all confused. then they drive you around for hours before they drop you right back where you started.
blair waldorf
It’s one thing after the other
and life doesn’t feel real.
It feels like I’m constantly
struggling, pushing myself uphill,
but I can make it through this.
I can and I will.
-Samantha Camargo
From my book Night Drives on amazon
‘And everybody wanna fuck with me
But I'on fuck with you’
“What are you?” They genuinely ask
Time and time again and yet never ceasing to alarm me
My soul becomes invisible before them,
Skin too dark-too light, too yellow- too red-
Their gazes are chains that rip through my mysterious skin
Imprison me in assumptions
They lash at my skin and tear me away
Until I am nothing but whispers in the wind where I once walked
But I do not live to feed another’s curiosity
What am I?
I am the years of life lived
The steps taken by those who lived before me
I am the song they sing
But more than that I am human
Same as you
I do not wear myself like a name tag
If you must know-
If your questions are on the brink of exploding
Simply ask
“Who are you?”
❤️
I tried giving up a lot of times.
But then my eyes kept opening
and my feet continued walking,
not wanting to leave me hanging
without giving life another try.
One more time. Let’s give it another try. // ma.c.a
Sometimes you’ll find comfort in what your mind says, even if it doesn’t fit with the answers that your soul is truly asking for.
I don’t know what you’re capable of // ma.c.a
“I want to wake up to a sunrise that doesn’t mean another day of struggling to survive.” she said. “Am I the only one? Who wants a naturally tranquil and pleasant life?” she said, wondering if anybody thought the same thing. “You know how much I love the sunrise, but lately I’m sleeping too much, but it’s not enough. It seems that I’ve lost sight of how beautiful a new day was.”
Heavier // ma.c.a
You’ve been with yourself from the very start, so if ever you’ll wander away, you can always come back.
I’m a little lost // ma.c.a
when things are not FINE // ma.c.a
“You know, I don’t want to be like this, too. I’m trying, and I know some people haven’t seen me do that. Because sometimes it’s not visible to anyone.” he said. “I wanted to be so in love with life that I will have no more time to overthink about what will come next. I wanted to have a clear mind that there’s no more chance for me to worry about anything.” he almost laughed, then continued, “I mean, who would never want that?”.
I don’t want to tell you, but here // ma.c.a
“And I realized that what I want to end is not my life.” she said. “But what makes me hate living.”
It’s that time of the year // ma.c.a
when things are not FINE / ma.c.a
when things are not FINE // ma.c.a
Chasing your dreams starts with taking one step to move forward—no matter how little it may seem.
You don’t have to run, at the beginning // ma.c.a
It’s not that easy to believe that things will get better, when all you’re feeling in the present tells you that nothing will ever change.
But the world still revolves around—the storms will eventually stop, and the sun will continue to rise over and over—again.
give it a chance // ma.c.a
And if you could find something to admire about someone else, I hope you’ll at least try to do the same thing—to yourself.
why would it be so hard? // ma.c.a
Sometimes it’s going to be suffocating but give yourself some time to breathe. You’re moving according to your own timeline and no one can do it best except for you.
Beautiful things take time // ma.c.a
I miss you so much, but I know there is no point in me telling you.. because it’s not going to change anything.
