#empty thoughts
Cr: YouTube - „if we love | short film“
No matter how much love I give out, my heart never received the same amount back.
So I’m left here lacking more and more love. Not just for others but mainly for my self.
07/03/2020
How do i explain it
How can i explain the feeling of being numb, the feeling of being dead when I’m alive, the feeling of believing I have no one by my side when in fact I do, the feeling of being unwanted and unloved when there are people that do love and want me.
How do I tell my loved ones, the people that should be the closest to me that I’m not feeling alright. That I feel lonely. Exhausted. Tired.
How do I tell them that I can’t talk to them because I feel like they don’t want to know. Like they don’t care.
What do I tell them when they ask me what exactly is wrong when I can’t even figure it myself.
I keep it to myself. It’s easier to fight against it alone than having to explain something I don’t understand. I don’t want to bother them or be a burden. So it’s just the best if I keep them out of my personal struggles. Out of my personal miserie.
I’m sorry.
Sometimes
I think about all that I’ve done
And gone through
That no one even knows about
And I get sad thinking that
No one will ever know
About all these things that make me, me,
But then I think
Maybe it’s best that these things
Die with me.
Maybe that’s not such
A bad thing
-A.M.
Im so lost and i don’t know what to do about it…
A person only changes when and if they want too. Its just empty promises.
-RB
“Do you know how it feels, to finally have your prayers heard for a love you craved, only to be left feeling empty?”