#love hurts
People constantly say, “if i could, i would feel nothing,
it’s the truth and i don’t care” but the truth is, I would choose to feel the pain of heartbreak for the rest of my being just to spend one last night with you.
Happier days
I love you to the point where every time you smile it hurts because I’m not the reason behind it. I no longer have strength because every time I see you I go weak. And honestly, it kills me that I take up 1% of your world and you are 99% of mine.
Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same.
feelings hit you sooo much harder at night
when you go in for the kiss and get slapped instead
He told me smoking was bad for me, I never thought he would turn out to be worse. He was the type of person that got stuck, not only in my head, but in my veins too. The type I wrote poetry about, but wouldn’t introduce to my parents. He lit a fire inside of me, and then left me to burn out. I didn’t need to kiss him to feel the sparks, every time his fingertips brushed across my skin, my heart would race like a Maserati. My skin erupted in goose bumps, and my stomach filled with butterflies. And every time his lips met mine, I felt like I was on ecstasy. He was the closest thing to love I ever felt, and now that he’s gone I don’t want to feel it again. When he kissed me for the last time, my heart felt this loneliness; I still haven’t recovered from it.
- an illicit affair
He put his arms at each side of her head so she was tackled on the lockers. She couldn’t look at him in the eyes, feeling too much pressure in this position.
“How can you pretend I broke you when you’re the one who did shit?
-Because if we count the shit I did, let’s count the 7 monthes we had when I was the greatest girlfriend you’ll ever had, when I was doing everything I could just to see you happy, when I was giving you everything to be better for you. It’s so easy to remember the bad things and forget all the good.
-How can you… I…
-Sht, don’t say anything.”
She finally let her eyes swim inside his, but this time she had a look different, it wasn’t broken, it was empty. So he removed his hands as she was literally crushing him and said.
“You want me? Okay then, come and find me.”
And gave him a piece of paper.
-6708 rue Saint Laurent-
00:00
20$
-Welcome to my world-
“I can’t.
-Then stay away from me.”
She smiled and left again, leaving him one more time with nothing else to add.
He kissed her, and she let him do it. She even kissed hi, back, slowly, as if she was enjoying the kiss, and maybe she was. It looked like if it was lasting so long, even if it was happening so fat. And when the kiss stopped, she whispered, like she never wanted to say it, like she was forced.
“We can’t do this.”
And the, she opened her eyes, looking at his with the most broken look he ever saw.
“Why? He whispered at his turn.
-Because, I didn’t change, I just got worst.
-I know.
-Because, honestly, you totally fucked me up, and you broke me like hell. I can’t let that happen anymore. I can’t let you take everything I built since you left and destroy it.”
He looked at her sadly, and couldn’t find anything to say. So she stood up, and left as he was still looking at her, trying to find something to make her stay.
“I loved you, so much. I loved you wih the only good part of me, and now it’s gone. You took it with you when you left, and I never found any good parts in myself anymore.
-Maybe… Maybe I can give it back.
-No, you cant’. Because it won’t ever be mine anymore. And I can’t accept to be attached to you harder than I used to be. I’d rather live bad forever, then only live good when I’m with you. Because no matter how good you can make me, I will always be bad inside, and I’ll always fuck everything up. I can’t let you, let happiness destroy me anymore.”
“I want to take a break.
-WHAT?! Why…?
-I won’t lie to you, I’m not a bitch anymore, so please don’t be mad. Last night, a friend told me he loved me and…. I hesitate. I shouldn’t have. So…
-Who? Who the fuck was he?!
-I can’t tell, I’m sorry. So I realized I wasn’t sure of my feelings anymore. And I need to think about this if I don’t want to hurt your feelings.”
And let’s just all take a deep breath… Appreciate the Jamesness of this Norton. Don’t forget to exhale. I did that once and passed out.
When people don’t give me a reason for why they left, I blame myself until I’m numb.
—a dark place no one should ever have to visit
I don’t hate you, I just don’t want to have these feelings for you. It’s too much.
—but i would hate you if i could
What’s worse? To only have some but not all of you sometimes or nothing at all?
—i’m a fucking fool for you
Falling in love with you was like falling into alignment
The vertebrae in my spine all perfectly aligned
With the lines by your eyes when you smile
When you smile the lines turn to creases
Creases in the letters that I wrote but never sent
The letters that I wrote to you after we ended
We ended and my heart was shattered into pieces
The pieces scattered on the ground like broken glass
Broken glass formed into art, broken glass formed into my heart
I just want to fall asleep
I don’t think I want to wake up
Tired of living this lie
I just can’t seem to break up
With this idea I have in my mind
That somehow we’ll end up together
It seems that’ll never happen
And I can’t wait forever
So I’m all alone
Just laying here
Wishing I could fall asleep
But when I sleep I dream of you
And my dreams never seem to come true.
