#my words
winter blues
freckles of snow
anchor craves my skin
caught in this world and below
(we grew up near the ocean)
goodbye mother, goodbye father
rust of kin
music we small ones do not hear only the echoes, the thin wailing our ears too delicate sometimes we swim in infinite waters, reach out and hope for life above us
we, so small, the deep the blue the humpback so large, a shadow our smallness
crushed under the fathoms-weight smaller and smaller we miss the music we never hear, never hold not alive anymore
we would die before we hear
we will never know each other
your hands are cold as mine are we lie in shivering together
frost tickles my sides like your bitten hair
you turn to the water then I watch you still
either warmth or death has taken you
and I never knew you to tell one from the other
crows stare back
city birds sitting on a powerline keeping on singing to the end of time watching from above as you and i go by on cold streets below—
I love turning guys on in public so that they have to awkwardly hide their swelling cock
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baby
Today I discovered these gems in my drafts and I don’t remember having made ANY OF THEM
If you had to apply for jobs using your tumblr url instead of your name, would you get the job?
Last night I got really high and waisted with some friends and today I woke up and found this in my notes
Forgive me Lord for I have taken the arms and legs off of my Barbie doll as a child and super glued them to the opposite sockets. I know the Bible doesn’t mention it but I just know that’s a sin.
libraries are suppose to be silent
but that’s where my eyes met you
where your smile was at center stage
and your eyes had more to say
they listened to the rules,
stood quiet with little moves
remaining as so as you put on the show
noiseless —
until they grazed passed mine
and suddenly everything screamed inside
do you see me?
let me hold on, let me follow.
into a universe unknown
one never to fully unfold
wash us away and
like your body we sway
in and out of earthly light
then into travesties of night
i’ll push you back to sea
so you can float with ease,
and become one with the waves.
you’ll crash at my feet again,
and tear my soul to shreds,
reminding me of the tragic truth,
of your existence never to be met.
do you wonder what goes on in my mind?
Always?
or from time to time?
fear held me by the throat
and I coughed up the hopes and dreams we said,
bloody red, dark and dead
gone for good,
never to be met or spoken of again.
shut eyelids feel like home when home is an abyss of lost hope.
where isolation feels secure,
and solitude is nourishment for the darkness.
FUCKKKK!!! Fuck this. Maybe I need to be hospitalized. The decisions I am making lately. I’m fucking up big time. I’m not seeing it until I get really high and am in the situation already. I’m at my best friends. You know. The guy, who is in love with me. Yesterday was valentines day. I worked then spent it with him. Well, I took his virginity last night. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. What the fuck is wrong with me? I’m just going and doing everything that feels good without thinking of consequences. There’s literally no “stop and think”. Just do. I’m spending money I don’t have, buying and doing drugs.. TAKING MY BEST FRIENDS VIRGINITY! I’m so fucking stupid. I think I really need to be hospitalized. Like right now.
the sun sets;
and earth meets moon
it rises, and the tides rise too
in awe, they stare
silenced by the other’s beauty
interrupted by daylight
before they ever exchange a word
the connection is dim,
but not yet dark
sometimes time
reveals the spark